silence
the sky call outs his name
wailing in the wind
he hears no more, knows no pain
absolution

he sees the light
a distant torch
lighted behind a mirage
he walks towards it,
only to see it grow dim
deception

time is flying past him
he reminisces, he remembers
all that filled his mind was pain
and the wind wails again

he sees his future
he cries
he grows sober, takes the plunge
only to bounce back up

all that he left behind
lies, sadness, pain, anger
all that he has now
nothing
isn't that much better?

amour~

i'm realli so happi fer you! to tt certain someone, yep, you've gotten over it n' yar...feelin better eh? it's seriously better than keepin it in you~ besides, you noe all your hard work has nt gone to waste, way to go dude! hahax~ don't bother figurin out~
todae was quite~ hahax...xianz~ came to sch as per normal...decided i shall bring mi radio on mon and weds cuz i'll be leavin sch quite late, and since ��充����ヨ�� is now @ 8pm, and since lingzhi is hosting on mon and weds...hahax...okie, i'm realli addicted to it and her voice~ wun mind meetin her in person tho, sounds realli fun. sorta woke up to a new start cuz of morning madness, quite farni lar~ made mi nt slp in the bus, tho i had trouble keepin mi head up...budden the bus will be much cleaner without mi leaning mi head on the windows, and mi shirt will be too...

grace cut her hair todae~ woah, i dunno, quite style and gave mi the impression of some veri chinese person i've seen b4, maybe it's the 'o' level examiner mi gang was tokin abt 2yrs ago...realli chio man (i mean the examiner, but...hahax...) quite funky lar...maths was still okie, cuz i piaed la4 the dae b4 (so proud of miself)...realli easy and i still prefer la4 to la3. den during maths lec jim was singing this amour song...still dunno what's the title, but it's now in my head cuz of you...hahax. civics todae was quite crappy~ talkin abt ppl's emotions~ haiz...now dun even haf time to write mi personal diary...and was quite gek actualli, but it's okie...i mean, let 'em run, den lidat i'll be happier. got screwed by miss yee cuz i din do mi physics, but it's okie...i guess now i'm startin to be more optimistic on things, try nt to let on thing bring me down, or else i will never be happi. sch was a ghost town after 11.40 cuz the j1's went back to their sec sch to get their results...tell you wad happened later...realli funny. ate ommelete, alto i still prefer self-cooked ones (ask mi cousin and you'll realise how many times we trained fer a gud fuyong dan...we love eggs), but was realli yummy...hahax, lyke long time nv eat egg liao...after chem we had a long break where i cried playin bridge...was realli funny till i cried...got a stomachache in the end...cuz i got the 'sexy' abt 5 outta 8 rounds...and den went on to finish la4 assignment~ yay! so happi, now onli left physics...

guitar was crap todae...total screwup by mi...den kk was lyke on drugs, sitting on the floor, closin his eyes, smilin to himself and playin the guitar...another stomachache...but overall it was okie...quite slack. after guitar shiwei n' i walked out to the canteen and there was nobody, so i bo liao went to shout, "is there no one else?" (the troy scene...brad pitt...yar, tho i'm nt even half as gud lookin as he is)...den he followed...hahax, realli shiok, cuz there were no j1's, the range was closed, and onli the netball ppl were there on the track(i tink), so was quite fun shouting lar...but actualli rite, after tt when we went down, apparently the security guard went for a long pee break for abt 10 mins...so we had to wait fer him for 10mins to open the gate again~ hahax...
��充����ヨ�� todae was actualli quite sad...totalli agree wif jim, it's all fate...looks lyke i'm nt fated den~ haiz...tired liao, better do physics or miss yee is seriously gonna kill mi tmr...ciao n' slp tite...

Truth

Without the truth, all that i have done does not matter anymore. So what if i have good grades? So what if the person sitting beside me hates me? There is only one universal truth for me, you are the centre of my life. I just can't accept the fact that i've failed without even trying. You have deceived me moment after moment, and all i can do is to stand there, accepting the painful truth.

What's passion without desire? It's just meaningless...people always think the best gift of life is love, but to me, the best gift is the knowledge that you're being loved. In that way, you know that this love is true and not blind. I'm sill living in a one sided world of loving someone whom to others seem like an imaginary person, fictacious and impossible. Why do people always feel things are impossible before they even tried? I'm tryin to change this belief, but it's hard as i'm beginning to doubt my ability to complete it. Worse, this could be my worse nightmare...

Rumi, a well known poet, once said that if you're in love, "All that is profane becomes sacred," simply meaning that acts of love have different impacts on different people. Some people see it as desperation, an influx of hormones, but to them, it's special. I can relate to it now that although i'm doing something sacred, she sees it as a profanity. Maybe i just can't accept the truth, still seeing something profane as sacred, but i see no alternative. She has me under her spell, and i can't turn back nor stop trying.

What is left in me now is a sense of guilt and emptiness. I guess all my happiness from those memories has been spontaneously evaporated by your coldness. Weird eh? Honestly speakin, i have not been truly happy for a very long time. All that was happiness to me were the tiny weeny bits of hope that you left for me one the way. It was a type of depressant, to cool my fire, and after a while, i got addicted to it, turning me cold and unfeeling. I've hurt so many people around me, and i feel extremely guilty because that's not what they deserve, but it was an act of desperation, for you.

How does the future look? I see nothing but a hazy mist in front of me, and this time, i can't see myself believing in miracles anymore. I tried so hard to eat the bitter apple, but it just wouldn't go down, like a fly trying to escape it's fate from a spider. Tell me what to believe, i realli want to see the light...

decided to blog earli todae...wun be free tonite~ i tink...hey, b4 i go on, i'll lyke to thanx all of ur fer commentin bout mi blog~ thx lots, n' i will jiayou...you're wad keeps mi gng (...hahax...)
yesterdae nite...was actualli quite sad lar, listenin to 933 2300 瀵�瀵����浜洪��...she's been workin there for abt one year...i onli heard for abt 1 mnth ++ and i'm oreadi addicted to it...and now it's shifted to eight, a nt so quiet time...haiz~ she was abt to cry yesterdae...but realli, she's realli damn cool n' her voice sounds realli nice...*sigh*
i swear alarm clocks and mi dun go well together...last nite i tink i slpt at ard 1am listenin, den i set mi alarm clock to 7am, for the maldives thing...i swear i set it...den todae i onli woke up when the phone rang...*dang*...was jim, den i looked at the time. 9.19am liao. dis happened to mi twice oreadi...i unconsiously switched off the alarm, n' i'm gettin sick of it...i din even noe it rang, din even know i switched it off, and din even noe i went back to slp (now i noe...) ppl shld invent a kinda alarm clock where it's hard to turn off to ensure tt ppl are awake...for ppl lyke mi...hahax. reached buona vista cc at abt 9.50, 20 mins late, but still veri late...in the end, was jus a normal briefin, and went to ntuc and cold storage to buy some stuff...din eat breakfast at all, so ate chicken drumstick for breakfast...cuz we went to cold storage, den they sold those cooked chicken...grilled...den corn n' i buay tahan...nv eat breakfast...the aunty was insistin tt we buy turkey, but i din...prefer chicken instead...den jim who was nt hungry bought 2 chicken wings...*sweatdrop*...overall todae gng there was a waste of time...we oreadi brought work there to do in case we wasted time reformatting coms lor. hahax...muggers, but yar...i'm piaing for the future, nt because i wanna pia...
and now i'm back home. still waiting fer mi new specs, but the stupid uncle haven open his shop yet...lazy guy...hahax. later will be going je to meet mi parents and cousin to buy com~ no time to mug at nite, but i hope there'll be~

Quote : 6th April 2004 : Snuffle's archives
"I always thought, would there be a future for us? I always wondered, would you be happier without me? In my hear, there was only ne question...how can i make you happy? There are many things in life i can't explain, and one of them is how i fell in love with you..Haiz~ why does this happen to me every single time? Just thinkin of you makes me cry...and i've never been happier...ironical ain't it? Is the life i live worth living?"

why am i who i am todae? i'm losin grip of miself~ and still forgettin things easily...i'm nt tt old aniwae...why? issit because of you? i found mi motive todae~ and was so happi i could finalli write down mi feelings on paper. Ppl who noe mi well enuff...yar...another addition to a long chain~
actualli todae was aye...is tt how you spell it? hahax~ randy jackson...f maths period was okie, and honestly i feel frustrated doing eigen vectors (i get frustrated wif maths but find chem veri fulfilling...mad, wanna swap? hahax)...maths rep hatin maths, wad's dis...i guess it's nt in mi nature, but f maths has pushed mi to the limits...den physics lec was aye...i'm still nt used to his accent and he was chargin his mp3 player wif the laptop...nvm tt, i feel tt he's pretty okie, onli sometimes he jus doesn't know what he's saying (i will not insult your integrity...it's intelligence...read up more and you'll be better...) was almost slpin durin statics lecture...physics prac was quite borin, but at least a lot better than the real prac...felt tt i talked a lot more todae...maybe it was because of last nite. hmmm...thankx lingzhi! (no...it's nt tt fungi...she's a radio dj...)
durin gp was quite slack...obli abt a little more than half the class turned up...den i joined rachel's grp, was supposed to present some human rights topic to other grp...went to sixun's and...wad's ur name again? i realli forgot liao...but was realli fun tokin to them...got to know more ppl todae~ after gp, slack...finished writing the "Truth" n' den tried dc circuits...self attempt was relatively easy...managable. N' fer pe todae, we had games! so fun playin soccer wif the junior class (tho i scored an own goal~ wasn't intended lar...was tryin to guard the ppl behind mi...jumped too earli den the ball 'happened to hit the corner of mi shin...sorri ar...hehex) zenas' goalkeepin is damn pro~ nice dive...but was veri borin durin the first half cuz we kept on attackin...in the end the score was 2-2...they also scored one own goal...hahax...after pe esther was correctin her speech for some visit by someone frm US or was it US embassy...dun deny it, you're born to be a GP teacher...n' your pw topic jus justifies mi stand...hahax...she was editin everi line of the passage lor...hahax...nvm lar, you'll make it for sure~ went up fer drink n' the noodle uncle found another group of ppl to con~ (3rd time liao...terrible man...once is enuff...) den i was thinkin of the hmwk we had~ screwed...den tml still hafta go for maldives meetin...*sigh*...stress
and todae is the last nite you'll hear 933 2300 瀵�瀵����浜洪����充����ヨ��...haiz~ cuz frm nxt wk onwards it'll be from 8pm...i tink i'm onli gonna listen on mon,weds,fri...cuz lingzhi is takin those shifts...wonder how peifen will sound on tues and thurs...was so happi when lingzhi read out mi msg last nite~ but i realli dunno what to listen after 11 after dis wk...*sigh*...veri veri touchin stories...tonite muz listen wor...may blog after tt...ciao

when will you know?

o...i forgot to mention something jus now...i met minhow on the way home jus now...hahax...you rox dude. pro-ness is proness...hahax...glad tt you've found your happiness now. catchup wif you sometime soon...
jus finished listenin to 933 2300 瀵�瀵����浜洪����充����ヨ��...veri veri sad...i tink i'm realli regretting livin in the shadows~ i guess sometimes a small sign can cause the whole world for a person to change...but all i can sae now is, i have lost to the person i despise all this while...it has taken over mi...

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and she still doesn't know...

(skip the first 2 paragraphs if you dun like depressin stuff) love~ something i noe i can never define, something i can onli achieve in my dreams...why has fate been so cruel on mi? i believe life is not an obligation, but a desire to be loved. it's hard for me to see the meaning of love in this dangerous world of deception and lies...and when you are there starin at mi wif your open eyes, unable to see my feelings for you...
it's time i made things right~ what if i told you? what if? and then what? does it make a difference to you? i seriously dun tink so...i've hurt myself by loving you, and maybe it's hard to say, but the flame in my heart is dying soon. time to leave some room for another~ but it's hard to forget you even if i do. no matter how hard i try it's just too hard for mi to forget the times we had~ simple but unforgettable...false hope wif broken dreams...
well, todae is realli a tirin day...woke up wif a bad stomachache, den it got worse on the shakin' bus. and was realli sad todae...guanwen's b'dae, n' we din get him anythin...feel realli bad lehz~ guanwen, if you're readin dis...misa's realli veri sorri, will try to make up fer it k? mad, shiwei, n' i were ponderin whether to pon todae's gp...but i gotta admit, the tcher's too nice fer us to pon...will feel realli bad if i did. if it's nair i dun give a damn...hahax...but at least we onli did compre todae, when we finished we could go home. quite confusin but i tink it's managable. went home together wif jim...waah...i guess it was the first time i talked so much since last month. i'm still nt openin mi mouth, nt tt i dunwan to...
after tt at abt 3.45 met up wif mi cousin to go causeway pt courts to find a com...apparently he asked mi fer mi opinions *grinz*...so happi, haven't been there fer a long time liao. den there was no gud com there, so in the end we travelled all the way back to west mall harvey norman, where there was nuthin much as well...*sigh*...quite tiring actualli...jus reached home nt long ago...and i feel a stomachache coming on...gtg...take care dawg...

do you believe in fate? destiny? i realise i've been holdin on fer too long~ love is splendid, love is precious, but when you like someone and yet you noe it's impossible...it just hurts, a lot. it's hard to express miself nowadays~ talkin has now become mi obselete. i miss the times i were able to talk~ seems lyke you've mi under ur spell...
i'm sorri life has to be so tough fer you...some things are nt too be, and i'm realli sorri bout urs~ wish i could realli help. aniwae, todae is realli~ hell (well, sorta...) acid/base test was a killer...pretty hard. will be happi if i manage to pass it. todae's pe was oso a killer...12 rounds, i tink i gotta train liao~ slackin fer too long. o well, life goes on...continued watchin spirited on todae, n' the ending was pretty sad~ but the miniture baby and the hawk were so cute...hahax. nuthin much on todae, maybe i'm lackin on inspiration...still missin you~

i realli dunno what to do...i'm lyke in an open field searchin for the right strawberry, wonder if it's ready to be eaten, fresh, or maybe just nice, both on the outside and inside...if you're strongly stuck to the stem and i pluck one, i'll be hurting it a lot, and the outcome of the berry wouldn't be tt nice. it's just hard to be a pufferfish in the open seas, quiet and lost, onli keepin the air inside mi stomach~ my days of life has nt been realli fulfilling, nt yet, but it'll soon be...i hope...
bright sunny dae...hope dis doesn't continue till tmr (jus fer ur info, tml is at least 10 rounds fer pe...) had physics quiz todae...was actualli quite easy, easier than i expected...hahax, nvm tt. misa realli gettin irritated wif the physics lecturer's tone~ so ���, wanna fake oso dun lidat. o yar, made a new discovery todae...mi gp grp is 60% more efficient w/o a certain someone...serious. can bet tt~ aniwae, we had chem SPA B todae, was quite easy...onli did two heatings but i tink i screwed up the sodium hydrogencarbonate one...the mass diff is lyke 0.004g onli but the temp diff is 0.8K...quite weird...but overall was realli easy. phew~ was pretty relieved when the whole thing ended. and todae's chinese was realli slack...watchin a movie called 'spirited away'...bet most of you haf heard bout it...is actualli realli nice~ the story feels weird tho...
btw, anione wants to 姊�������'s ��辨��澶ф父琛� on 5th march? if you wanna, muz tell mi, i may oso wanna go...hehez...she rox~ mi inspiration...

yawnz~ life as it is...nt miserable, but full of surprises...i'm surprised i didn't get screwed todae, realli surprised. i guess dis time i've been fully hit, n' time to wake up, nt fer mi, but fer everiwan around mi...sorri fer the past, i'm sure i've nt been gud in ur eyes...but i'll be better, i swear. hahax~ wad a way to start...
let's just tune down the subject fer a dae...i guess it's hard to keep up wif mi busy schedule day after day, and i guess many ppl are oreadi gettin bored...more abt miself todae, to those who dun noe mi enuff...i'm someone who's sometimes quiet, thinkin a lot abt simple things (yeah, i guess so...) n' end up gettin miself into trouble because of it...i'm veri emotional, have a lotta feelings bout stuff n' yar, i guess many ppl noe mi oreadi because of tt. i'm the kinda person who will talk a lotta rubbish in a second and keep quite fer the next 10...quite hard to describe miself actualli, but yar...o, i'm veri forgetful bout stuff (which gets mi into trouble, many of you noe of course) and makes mi depressed...feel guilty fer many small things...n' still feeling guilty fer it. if you can make mi angry, you're veri rare. if you can make mi realli happi, you're also veri rare...those who have made mi realli happi b4, you noe who you are...and i thank you fer tt. if you guys got anythin to add, feel free...mi would wanna know what others feel bout mi, tt's the onli way to improve rite? hahax...
todae was nuthin but ordinary, which day isn't? i was almost abt to slp during chem lecture...was gettin realli drowzy. collected the revision set n' stuff...*sigh*...looks lyke class fund needs feeding again~ todae durin contact we had feeback session, n' explaining the rationale of cultural mapping. utter rubbish...aniwae, i still dun lyke the rule bout gals wearin skirts till knee length...lyke who cares? randomly pick a girl from a group of 100 and you'll find tt she's nt...i'm nt a pervert or dirty minded guy (lyke tt taxi driver the other dae), but it's kinda unreasonable lar~ nvm tt...was sleepin durin cca, den kaiyun was laughin at mi when i carried the chairs wif mi eyes close...*sweatdrop*...i hafta slp earli todae, but after desperate housewives, which is abt now...ciao n' take care dawg...

dun try to tell mi nt to fall asleep tmr...i realli need a rest liao~ been strainin miself over the past few daes, guess it's time fer a break...and i'm gonna get screwed tmr for sure~ so yar...nt long more
i was so happi todae...had the satisfaction of completing work. finished COE n' carboxylic acids, i'm plannin to do the e-field summary later, but somehow i cannot find the notes...yawnz~ after tt went to grandma's house as usual...nobody went there todae. mi cousin jus came back frm cruise todae, muz call him later n' see if he managed to accomplish our mission...aniwae, went to mad's concert after tt wif the gang...muz realli sae it's a first time experience for mi enterin a church...i am nt against it tho, serious. most ppl tink tt ppl frm other religions loathe to go into other religion's places, but i'm nt one of 'em...was kinda fun actualli, quite lively n' stuff...couldn't see mad frm the place we were sittin tho, many taller heads in front of us...no she wasn't actin as a tree...hahax...the play was pretty meaningful tho, got mi thinkin a little, but it's close to impossible to change mi mentality on this kinda stuff...i have absolutely nuthin against it, realli, but it's what i choose to believe...so yar...let's jus sae tt dis is a new experience fer mi...on second thought, i dun mind attendin another, was quite fun...
after tt went to mi another grandma's house fer a small reuinion...the taxi driver was almost close to crazy...saeing he couldn't resist lookin at pretty gals, but it's okie. was tellin mi bout takin life easily n' stuff...patience is a virtue...and in the end, he charged mi 60cents less...hahax, so gud rite...aniwae, reached there at abt six and met mi cousins and uncles...rarely get to see mi cousin zhiyeu anymore, cuz now he's in the army, but i have a feelin i'm gonna see more of him in the future...*grinz*. todae's food was excellent...realli glad i didn't miss it...frogs legs, shark's fin, ������...veri veri nice...haven't had tt fer a while liao. tt place brings back many memories as well...haiz~
mi life is rigged for now...but soon i guess i'll find the solace i seek...maldives...can't wait to meet the ppl over there...

i just feel veri disappointed wif miself, can't seem to be gettin anythin rite...i can wait fer mondae to come, forgettin many things easily...always gettin distracted one way or another. *sigh*...
saturday is supposed to be a dae looked forward to, but i'm nt so sure until i realised what i forgot to do yesterdae...nvm tt. todae was great...haven't had many great days since. went to sch fer the maldives briefing. actualli i'm realli impressed how mr kevin sim could say jokes so smoothly in his lines...damn farni. i'm now put in the IT com, helpin to fix coms, setup, bla bla bla...i tink it's gonna be realli fun, frm the looks of the ppl in...pretty fun loving...cept tt we have to perform fer dem and cook for the villagers durin one of the daes...nt gud at either of them, so yar, pray...mi next sat's will oso be filled by em', so i guess i'll be real busy. tt means less bloggin time n' playtime...xianz~ o well, absolution requires sacrifice...hahax, quote...
after tt, jim n' i went to sa funfair...was realli crowded but there were many big fishes there...i'm nt implyin anythin, i'm still nt changin mi aim...hahax, wadeva...at first i couldn't see anyone familiar, budden i saw eddie, and den sengee...jim wasn't acting his normal self todae, tt's all i can sae...i wun bother wif the details, and dun bother askin(hehex...actualli you're your normal self, but you sounded weird...) so many stalls of gud food n' was pretty okie, 'cept tt there were some stalls sellin can food and soy sauce...*sweatdrop*...met many familiar faces...sandra, liangjun, leejie, max, ivan, vivien, eddie, liqi, chingyang, diyong, jeremy, fiona, kok xian, kat n' shihua...tokin bout her...hahax...realli farni todae...she had dis purple heart shaped balloon tt her lao gong gave her, and den had a balloon fight wif her junior (i tink, correct mi if i'm wrong...) 5sec later the balloon burst...lol...leavin the string and the end of the balloon...she was actualli pretty sad, but what's done was done...she was wonderin how much the snoopy balloon cost, but the queue was too long...*sad*...nvm...actualli i forgot to thank you fer showin mi ard sa...was pretty nice of you to leave your lao gong alone...hahax...but remember, if nj has a carnival (if nj ever has one...) i'll be the first to find you...hehez...actualli becuz of dis, i realised sa is actualli a much friendlier place...quite a lot of parents, tons of outside ppl, n' was realli fun...*xianz*...hahax...
went down to pray after tt, and den went to chinatown to get mi haversack, which i did...the food over there is actualli pretty nice...fried dumplings, n' spicy-sour soup...yum yum. after dis, i'm gonna pia mi hmwk...i tink i sae tt everidae, but todae's fer real...slept at two yesterday tryin to do, but ended up slacking...o well...i'm dreading the future oreadi. smiling is nt an option anymore, it's a necessity to keep miself away frm depression nowadays...still angry wif miself fer being so forgetful...wake up brain~ pls...fer everiwan but mi...

i feel lyke i'm still deceiving you day by day...the sky taunts mi everidae as i walk into the sch, and it's realli painful as it's hard to believe what is lost is lost. (can you believe it...hahax...crappin...or if you're bored enuff, go figure...)
now i'm realli sweaty...stupid pe, realli can't wait fer time to pass so tt there's no more tirin pe. wadeva...aniwae, todae's physics SPA was relatively easy, n' miss yee din come to sch, so yong took over...was actualli realli fun. den jim was punchin mi at the end of the SPA cuz he miscalculated a value...still hurts...jokin lar...honestly speakin, i tink yong is a better tcher than yee cuz of his teachin style. he goes a lot more into detail and is real fun...i mean, more interactive...feel tt miss yee's jus actin cute...oops...hahax. den we had break, den gp, n' break again...cuz our gp tcher shifted the period forward cuz some ppl can go home earlier. unfortunateli we had pe after tt, which was quite shiong as well...jus recovered frm the muscle ache, and den she asked us to do lunges and some jumpin exercises...i can't control mi legs animore...hahax. o well, and when we went up to the canteen, the noodle uncle was there connin ppl again...2 wks ago we played bridge in the canteen, den he came up to us and told us the cards were marked and bla bla bla...felt tt it was utter rubbish...went home slpin in the bus...i tink i dirtied the window...haiz~
i'm fine btw, i guess i've thought thru almost everithin and jus leave it to rest fer a while, if nuthin happens of course...to answer some questions, yar, i was alone durin valentines dae, but i'm sure you were nt eh? hahax...one more mnth plus...and yar, i'm hangin in there...dun worri bout mi, i tink after sometime, the truth shall surface and you shall see mi happi again...you dun worri too much urself, catchup sometime k? i realli miss the old times, but there are some things i cannot change animore...o well, there are many fishes in the sea, and i'm hiding in em'...

feel so tired all of a sudden...i dunno...alwaes tired on thursdaes...o well...
aniwae, woke up wif muscle aches all over mi arm...nearly couldn't get up. den arrived at sch a little late...i tink i'm slpin in the bus more often than normal now cuz i'm tired most of the time, and the bus is jus so shuang to slp in, so cold...den jim n' shiwei were pretty disappointed tt i din bring the yrbook...i was surprised mad was so exicited bout the yrbook as well...eh, i realli intended to bring lor, but realli couldn't find...you guys ar...gp was quite slack todae, we went to com lab. maybe i'm soundin lyke some kid who hasn't been touchin com fer a long time, but gp is realli borin when in classrooms n' i hafta face a certain somebody. mrs wong split us up into new grps cuz of the world of gp thingy, and i was so suay to get her back into the grp. kevin n' paul were laughin lar...sux lar...realli dunwan her...other than tt, tammy, mi and another guy...i forgot wad's ur name liao, realli sry...hahax, we were playin icy towers and i sux...max score onli till 56 lvl...and shiwei introduced mi to dis website which is basicalli a large riddle made of 81 small riddles. could pass by the first 6, den i was stuck at no. 7...if you haf time and tink you're smart enuff, yar...go for it. dun cheat tho, or it'll nt be any fun...
after gp was lunch, den shiwei n' i decided to try to bluff mad tt we were followin her home...at first i tot we'll onli send her out to gate, and we were convincin her tt we were realli followin her home. in the end, we boarded 156 together wif her and i tink we finally convinced her...hahax...hi5 shiwei...luckily she slept earli, or we would've alighted at bishan...lol...alighted at smu in the end, den took the bus back to nj...realli funni man...so bo liao den go and trick young kids...oops...hahax...tmr is physics spa...pretty worried, but kaiyun said it's realli easy. speakin of which, she still owes mi an explanation...totalli forgot abt tt todae...and sengee will be bringin the yrbook tml...*sigh*...o well, life as it is...at least i'm still livin it...ciao...

Yawnz~ realli tired...hate cca days, hafta stay up till 7...and alwaes super tiring...i'm still waitin fer dinner, gettin realli hungry...
todae was a veri shiong dae, esp pe. waah, 24 pull ups, 60 push up, 60 sit ups, 5 rounds...now i can't even raise mi hand. shiwei was complainin he couldn't write properly...*sigh*...still hurts...gotta train liao. lucky grace, she din come to sch todae...den she'll come back tmr wif completed hmwk...*sigh*...i realli miss last yrs pe, so slack...alwaes playin games. now is lyke...trainin and more trainin...after tt was f maths, n' i was tryin so hard nt to slp. maybe it's becos joseph told mi tt someone wrote a love poem for mr lum in the lt, which unfortunately was covered by dis projetor screen, so we had to wait till the end of the lesson. was realli farni when the screen came down...i tink i saw him blushin when he read it...but quite scary lar, it jus sounded too mushy. den durin cheng's leadership talk i was dozin of n' den jim took a pic of mi...*xianz*...but realli tired...played cards durin the long break frm 2 to 3.30, den in the end stayed till 4.30 cuz we didn't wanna go fer cca tt earli. jason brought his 澶уザ while we were playing cards, den introduced her to everiwan...was tellin shiwei tt he was lyke bringin his wife to some relatives house den introduce...hahax...oops...
oh yar, todae grace's fren asked mi fer the yrbook...shouldn't haf let jim n' shiwei see it. they were lookin for a certain somebody from mi sch (which i shall nt go into further detail~) den tmr gotta bring the 2003 one...both of dem...evil intentions. what's wrong wif u guys ar...can alwaes find frm nj dun need mi to help you find one frm mi sch wad...hahax...
nowadays got a lotta stuff to do...so much homework n' other obligations...tell you mi schedule. Fri - Physics SPA, Sat - SA carnival, Sun - Mad's Concert, Mon - Physics E Field Quiz, Tues - Chem SPA, Weds - Acid-base test...xianz~ veri tirin...can't wait fer hols, but wait again, there's no hols fer mi! dun worri jim, shall slack there...nt plannin to do mi work in maldives. yawnz~ time to go bathe...can't stand mi sticky self animore...

sigh...jus tried la3 n' realised i couldn't do any...quite sick of it now, and i guess later i'll jus leave it alone. was planning to pia thru the nite...*sigh*...aniwae, todae was a realli tiring, n' yar...slept in sch as usual, and drooled all over the tabe b4 maths...now i tink i'll hafta go to watsons to buy tt spray tt makes you cool down...quite ex tho...8 bucks to wake you up...nvm
den was quiet all the way thru sch...realli dunno what's gotten into mi, jus can't talk lyke usual...bleh...guess i'll hafta force it...but i'm glad i kept quiet during gp...can't stand mi grp, real irritating...dun bother asking, you wun wanna noe...and den b4 chem prac, jason n' i got tricked by jim~ the tappin shoulder's thingy...swear one dae i'm gonna...i dunno...hahax, kiddin lar. chem was okie, 'cept tt i was almost dozing off, and couldn't concentrate cuz of the stupid migraine. haiz~ gettin sick liao, what to do, post cny syndrome (hehex) was enjoying too much durin cny...5 daes without work, serious. Total relaxation, n' now i find it pretty hard to wake up earli in the morn...

Quite pissed of wif miself recently, cuz of many things i've done and said, but i guess what's done is done, work on the future...many new revalations, and actualli i'm quite happi fer someone who has gotten rid of a certain burden...dun bother askin mi who it is or what's tt...all the best man...i'm glad you've seen it thru...wish i could be lyke you...realli hope dis cny will make me change fer the better, many things left unsaid...quite uncertain tho~ nvm, enjoy ppl, nxt wk will be...eh...real tough...first dae on the blog n' i'm screwin oreadi...hahax...nitez...

finalli...tt took long enuff...aniwae, yes mad, i finalli got mi blog. still have much to do, pretty new to dis new community, but yar...promise i'll TRY to update it reguarly, and yar...hope tt dis yr will be better fer mi...but frm the looks of it...naah~ too much hmwk and yar, ppl who noe mi well enuff should noe i'm troubled by the same ol' problems, but nvm...smile alwaes! *sigh*...still have la3 to do...talk more abt mi dae sometime later...