what's next?

the smooth taste of success...the smell of victory...hahax...intoxicating it is.

but it's not the end of the road yet...we still haf much to learn, much to see, and much to experience...and we still have chance to train together! i'm starting to cherish guitar pracs now...i guess it's just...you alwaes learn the hard way. o wells...but we still have chance to train! and i'm gng to play the bongo's again! hahax...comeback...i dunno if i can do it but i'll just hafta try mi best...

thx to the gold, we will be gettin a treat by ms ng at marche! hahax~ so happi lar...it's realli ex, dunno how they managed to fork out 13 bucks per person, but hahax...apparently mr koh could get a partition inside marche, den yep...celebrating who's b'dae again? i forgot liao...o wells, but it'll be a blast! :)

back to where we started from, i guess things are looking great. i need to recover, FAST...i can't stand the torment of bugs and viruses, the slight itchiness in mi throat...and much more...somehow i dun like being sick. sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad...

yesterdae was the annoucement of our results, which was actualli quite funni and stuff cuz we were tryin to find menon but was realli hard cuz he's nv in the office when you need him...den in the end he was found in the pe office. we still presented in the end, but did nt use ruifeng's whitbey ft. yong speech which was freakin' long...hahax, but was realli funni. o wells, back to tt, yes i could see you choir gals at the back wavin at mi...you just made mi dae just lyke tt...seriously! thx lots again! =)

looking later, time was terribly slow fer mi...i guess i should've taken a blue slip...was realli terrible, couldn't even hold a pen properly, and mi handwriting was patheticalli small. hahax...esp during physics, i din even noe what the hell i was writing till miss yee came and sorta woke mi up, but yep, was still in a daze. was quite tiring, den fer lunch met ruthu and saw the design fer the maldives shirt...heys ruth, muz upload into imagestation fer all to see lor, i tink it's realli cool lar...seriously, you ppl haf the talent...but it's alwaes the cost tt matters and dunno how many ppl wanna buy. yep so calling out to 05maldiviens, how many of you ppl want the shirt? cuz we need to know the nos...

and suddenly, it just struck to mi tt foodfair is just 2wks away, and den jiacheng wanted to beat mi up...hahax...i tink metaphoricalli lar...hahax...i din do anything lor! o wells, but the crickets...hmmm...grasshoppers? sry mel, i'm nt done wif the proposal yet, but i'll try to...can ask someone else to do it pls? hahax...realli busy at the moment. and i called you dude as in...hahax, dude in mi context meaning someone cool! hahax~ and i almost reached the word limit rite? you rock mel! aniwaes i suggest we call off the battle of the sexes lar...cuz we dun haf much time and considering 75% of the guys are j2s leaving colin and michael to themselves during the foodfair is just nt to our advantage...oops...hahax, but seriously...yep, merger is alwaes good...

aniwaes, todae we had flag dae, wif boss, xl, shiwei n' seng...EMCC flag dae to be exact, and it's Eagles Mediation and Counselling Centre. amazingly met many familiar faces todae...okie, onli 2 ppl frm guitar kays? :) was refreshing...back to tt, first we went to ps to jiapeng at macs before we went on asking everiwan fer money...the scgs gals are veri hiong lar, alwaes steal our business...hahax...den in the end got chased out by the security guard cuz the path outside ps is still ps land...sigh~ went to chinatown after tt and yep, business perked. was nt a realli gud dae cuz i tink i haven't recovered den got tired easily...sry guys...o wells, but we managed to finish at least one set of flags...o wells, mi losing miself here...getting pretty tired liao, but before i go...

all the best to the groups who are gonna have syf soon...GOOD LUCK TO CHINESE ORCHESTRA, CHOIR AND BAND! You'll do us proud, and congrats to harmoc fer getting gold! realli happi fer you...it's just totalli amazing! things are realli gng well fer mi! and also to those council elects in camp now, congrats and yep, unleash your potential...realli realli exhilerated bout the future...things are looking great! =)

'if tt's nt enuff, nuthin will...'

extraordinary...todae was just electrifying.

of cuz, if you'd have guess...we got GOLD!

and if you're still wondering wad's mi cca, it's GUITAR.

GUITAR GOT GOLD FER SYF!!

i'm nt just paranoid but i'll sae it again.

GUITAR GOT GOLD FER SYF!!

Yep...gold...GOLD! We finalli broke the record lar...for all the 30+ yrs of NJ guitar, there is not one gold...and yep, we're the pioneers...yays! of course there are lots of ppl back there that make this possible. i wouldn't sae i've made a great impact on the results, i'm onli one average player...but hahax...there are still lotsa ppl i wanna thanx. (dis is gonna be veri long)

thanks kaiyun fer being so responsible and yep, still upbeat bout stuff. she never seemed downed by guitar stuff and alwaes finds ways to amuse herself (aka pouring water on one of our fellow ppl...) but she did play a major role in getting the club together and encouraging us to go further....thx lots!

thanks keeka (is tt how you spell your name? correct mi if i'm wrong) fer being such a wonderful conductor, tryin new methods to inspire us to play better (mood swing, entering the city gate, ppl dancing) and also coordinating the group...and drilling us time after time even when she had a sorethroat...the glory is yours!

thanks sanjay and shiwei fer being such wonderful sl's in guitar one, drilling us time after time till we got the beat right, and also fer making guitar one one of the most lively groups in the ensemble. also to sanjay fer his wonderful solo during syf, friggin clear! hahax...nice!

thanks ruifeng fer teaching us how to pose (hey tt seriously was impt, it's nt any ordinary stuff...hahax) to make us look good on stage to impress the judges, and also fer the car wax on the guitar...matt rock!

thanks to mr toh our instructor fer being so patient wif us and correcting our mistakes time after time, and also fer cracking many funny jokes (tikitiki...and many others...) he also was veri helpful and actualli we sorta owe our success to him (lending us capos and stuff...hahax...nt just tt)...thx lots!

thanks to ms ng and mr koh fer spurring us on time after time, fer giving those inspiring speeches and also fer having faith in our group. we did it and it was for you tt we did it...thx lots again!

thanks to all the excos and the guitar members tt have helped out one way or another...mi frens in guitar (esp those in guitar one, kaiyun, amy, timon, anna and ian) who have encouraged each other time after time...fer the whole guitar ensemble tt haf been thru good times and bad times together, who we're played wif fer abt the past 6 months, who've formed a closer family, and fer the extremely good performance todae! well done ppl!

thanks to all the people who've given us comments on how to improve our performances time after time, so tt we can improve. thx again.

and lastly, i would like to thank all the people behind tt haf been cheering us on. i din forget you but i saved the best fer last...hahax...to jim, mad, grace, ruth, christine, zhimin, jiali, sixun, weiling, meltee, deep and many others whom i haf nt metioned, thx fer giving mi encouragement at this pt of time...it realli meant a lot to mi and yep, i'm glad to present you a guitar ensemble that won GOLD!!! yays!

and also to those ppl who tot we could get gold but was corrected by mi, we will get gold and we did get gold! hahax...no lar...wasn't tt confident at the start till we heard some other grps performances frm mr toh...den we were quite relieved...and vj played granada too! grrr...but we got gold all the same! hahax...o wells, aniwaes, i tink we've done a realli good job dis time and i was realli realli happi bout the results....2005 SYF NJC GUITAR ENSEMBLE RAWKX! I'M SO HAPPI TO BE A PART OF IT! hahax...although florentina and i felt tt it was pretty nervewrecking fer us to sit there fer 10mins to wait fer the results...we were tryin ways to stop tt nervousness...and then...GR64 : NJC Guitar Ensemble : Gold! YAYS! we cheered loudly of cuz...screamed our hearts out...we were darn happi...cuz there was onli one group tt got honors and they realli deserved it...was temasek...they are realli pro wif the tune and stuff (and they had thomas the roxy man as conductor) and used the cymbals at the right time...o wells, we did well guys! veri veri gud performance...*pats back*...

for all the figernails we chipped
for all the skin tt we shredded
for all the guitars we dropped
for all the strings we snapped
for all the necks we broke
for all the sweat we perspired
for all the drillings we endured
for all the lactic acid we concentrated

for all that, we did it....and yep, we did it well...very well...*if tt's nt enuff, nuthin will...*...yep, nuthin will, and we got GOLD! yays! catcha guys at morning assembly tmr morn! :)

-bugged by surprise-

finalli...bugged by surprise again. was okie in the morning, sick in the afternoon, veri sick at nite. o wells, but dun worri, i'm feeling better after seeing the doctor...some superbug out there hit mi like lightning, and i can't realli talk.

no more squeaky voice, just realli constipated.

aniwaes, haven't had a temperature for veri veri long, but it isn't realli fun to haf one aniwae. yesterdae was sorta screwed up i guess...it all started wif mi almost sleeping in the lecture. was tryin hard not to sleep during chem, but thanx to jason who had sherman's lagoon wif him and sengee drawing stuff on mi paper, i didn't...thx lots again. den we had a supposedly *mrs cheng* talk in the hall, which actualli was a talk on results. gp was below average, fm was below average, physics was way below average, and all the rest were below, except mc, chem and arts. also saw the usual grp of high-end performers...jingya, tammy, esther, boss...and of cuz the usual amos tay (melvin's fren...wa lao...so freakin smart lar) back to that, after tt, had to stay back in the hall to meet the teacher cuz i failed two subs...den gave mi a letter and said tt she'll call mi parents. o wells, go call! hahax...i tink mi parents knew why i did badly n' stuff liao, so i dun tink it's a cause of worri. of course i need to put in more effort, but other than tt, it should be okie...

nuthin much during physics and since yesterdae's chem was at 2, we had 1hr+ to play hearts! hahax~ was realli tired then, the sore throat started coming on and yep, lost at hearts wif mi being 2nd. actualli i didn't bother, cuz i was already drained...haiz~ AH! i need to wake up. chem was okie, and yep...tt's nt all...after tt was supposed to meet jelly at 3.40 for MI, but in the end i was at the oasis while she was in the canteen...o wells, tt's partly mi fault, reached the canteen at 4.05...den later went fer guitar, which was realli tiring and realli painful cuz there apparently was prac for 3 continuous hours without break. ouch. bad throat...o yar i voted liao before i forget...

after tt went home on the bus...even tho the aircon was blasting i was sweating like crazy, but lucky anna took the same bus of i'll never have woken up...thx again! went to see a doc after tt and ended up at home in the state i am in now...fortunately got one day mc...i wanna thx mi dad again fer taking great care of mi...mi mum too...feel realli lucky to haf both of them ard esp when i'm sick...thx lots!

dream of the silver lining, dream of the golden path, dream of the end of the rainbow, dreaming of lasting happiness...

trademarks...for now

kays i'm just a little bored todae...

Melly : Wahlao (like she does tt everitime...hahax)
Jiali : Boo (when she's sad, and when she's boliao)
Zhimin : Are you a virgin? (adapted from the all famous "Are you gay?")
Jim : No la (carrie chong's voice) (and it's kill two birds wif one stone, nt the other way round..hahax)
Christine : Sheets (from...yep...tt thing tt comes out) occasionalli *blooddrops* (adapted from mi sweatdrops)
Richard : Pft! (lol...no comments...he rox!)
Melvin : *rolls eyes* (as usual...pretty scary tho...hahax)
Bern : You made my dae! (hahax...tt's nice...and yep, makes us happi too)
Gongjiao : Scandal! (tho his scandalous pics aren't tt scandalous, cept fer the ones on imagestation)
Dot : ... (i guess...wad else? hahax)
Yichuen : Jus kill mi (hahax...the caption's still there btw...wif you in tt pic)
Shiwei : hahaha...(can't describe it here, muz here his laughter fer urself)
Mad : Todae's weather's veri nice (hmmm...issit?)
Xianlun : Are you chicking? (chicking, meaning getting cheeky wif a chick)
MI : Realli? (the realli old 'realli') *sweatdrop* (kays, hot weather lar...)

hmmm...i guess tt's all fer now...gimme more if you haf...thx lots...

screwed up? naah~ the essentials...

i considered todae as a screwed up dae, but i changed mi mind...

life is beautiful! it can't be tt bad...

kays...i realli feel realli guilty (it's not a plea, but more of a statement) fer not collecting the notes...and after tt i went late fer lecture...imagine yourself entering a lecture theatre wif a creaking door and you're late for 15mins...imagine that...wif the whole lt staring at you...yep...imagine that...but o wells, as i ran there i managed to borrow a calc frm jiali fer mi physics SPA D...which was realli easy...i haven't thanked you yet! hahax...thx lots...den after tt the rest of the dae was just okie i guess...hmmm...i guess when i see friendly faces i light up...

todae was napfa...ACCCDD...okie lar...nt too bad...at least a silver, was aiming fer gold tho, which of cuz is impossible...sigh~ shiwei did it wif mi and he also got silver...nt bad lar...we tried...hahax, thx to the lenient tcher who was there to help us...thx lots!

aniwaes, back to todae, during guitar i slept on the table while shiwei slept on the bench...was realli tiring...and prac was veri slack todae...so wells, i'm a slacker...and prac was just alright...

the much beautiful things in life are skin deep, simple, and yet heartwarming. a piece of azure blue sky, the cloudless starlit sky, little babies laughing, people smiling and having a good time, having wonderful friends, having a good home, having music as your soul companion, having caring people, and also just being able to see the happier and better things in life...wif you ppl, i'll never be alone, i'll never be afraid, i know life is something worth living...and i'll try my best to live your dreams...[the beautiful moon]...

exothermic

i hate thursdays...somehow. it's just tt mi energy's low and it just screws up the whole vibe. easily angry and agitated...i still can't figure out what's wrong wif mi...somehow it just seems lyke something i cannot control.

*sigh*

i feel so bad. o wells, shall make tmr a better one! i promise...

shan't start wif mi dae...it wasn't realli gud either.

todae's blog will be dedicated to richard.

hahax...o wells, wad about him?

he's someone whom i respect. hahax...seriously. who doesn't agree tt he's darn funny sometimes? could remember mi nearly laughing to tears in maldives cause of his chain of jokes. it's like, he thinks of dis stuff so spontaneously tt you dun expect it sometimes, and tt's what makes him the 'Funniest Guy' i've ever met...of course he sets his priority right by balancing his studies, council and fun equalli...his results are alwaes veri gud lor. could remember him during physics s paper, saeing how lucky he'll be if he passed, and laughing when he could finalli do the questions. just darn funni. remember him moaning while playing the see-saw? hahax~ tt was his idea and...he was moaning all rite...hahax. he seems to be able to create jokes from anything anywhere...the satay stick, throwing melvin's namecard into the fire, crappin during the gal's soccer match...yep

he's also a gud firstaider (you too melvin...hahax) after tt soccer match where i got rammed, den was slowly washing off the impurities...sry christine and ruth...am i makin you jealous? hahax~ but seriously he's a realli caring person. remembered him playing wif the kids wif zhimin and melvin...zhimin rox lar, was slowly teaching the kid how to play the spinner, while richard was helpin to fix the toy when the sand went in and stuff...and i know 3 of em felt quite bad when the the onli shooter broke...den richard was tryin hard to fix it overnight...haiz~ o wells, shall send them one in the mail...

he also can be serious at times...hahax...look at him at the flagpole (wasn't implying anything wrong...) in the morning...so cool lar...tho he seems realli stone. he also used to be in mi first 3 mnths gp class...was realli funni knowing him...by tt time he had alreadi made an impact on my life. it's just amazing...to think tt i've known him fer the whole of mi jc life...i feel realli fortunate!! o wells...

yep...tt's all fer todae...we got a stall btw! hahax...we need more ideas, tho we haf some, but we need someone wif good connections...thx lots...signing off

tmr will be better

i promise...

the silent squire...

todaes...i must sae it was quite a show todae. wif council speech all dae...hahax~

honestly todae was nt bad. reached sch at abt 7.10 den met mel at 7.20...still discussing abt meeting yeo sho hor abt the foodfair. we were tryin to raise funds fer yep...the kudafarians. anybody out there, who's willing to help, pls feel free to approach us...in the end ended up talkin crap, but it was quite funny lar...talkin bout ppl, bimbos, n' hahax...the usuals. honestly somehow i cherish dis time we're able to spend wif each other, cuz there's lyke less than a yr more, and i seriously feel tt dis frenship is realli quite strong between us. haiz~ time...aniwaes, back to the day, we din get to meet ysh but we got ms willa chen to help us...yep...hope there'll be news tmr.

council speeches. i must sae all of the candidates have done quite a good job, tho some did not make an impact. it's realli easy to spot those who can lead frm those who cannot...it's just hard. i seriously understand why most of them may nt be able to capture our attention cuz it's seriously hard to come up wif new ideas, i dun blame them, but it's easy to split those who are good from those who are actualli nt realli ready from the q&a...which was dominated by 3ppl...Ho Fei, the butch, and a guailan guy from the front...Ho Fei was gud, the rest were terrible...for once, he was good...and aaron and guanwen did their job too, but aaron was...hahax...unorthordox. i oreadi haf in mind who to vote for...the usuals...and also a few more prominent ppl...shan't sae hu yet...shall do mi research. to the 05maldiviens who took up the challenge, good luck! you'll get mi votes fer sure, you were great todae (dun doubt tt...esp michael n' dot...you two were darn interesting lor...hahax!)...seeing stars...

after tt went fer our lunch...met up wif bern and jiali again, fer a short while, den went fer guitar...somehow i felt todae was veri gud...cept for the individual grps cuz we're nt tt pro performing in small groups...but thanx amy and kaiyun fer the postcards they wrote...thx fer the hard work...inspired mi somehow...left sch and the side gate was locked because the uncle went fer a peebreak...it was a blessing in disguise...i saw the cloudless sky, the clear skies, wif all the stars and stuff...it was rare to see tt in singapore...seriously (quote jim : light pollution)...shiwei and i lay on the track and saw the stars...was darn cool...seriously lor...

o wells...tt's all fer now...thx fer all your concern...seriously. i still haven't told her yet...but i will...i need the time. and i'm still realli sorri...

the beautiful moon...show mi the path...

first to reply some tags...thx lots fer the concern guys. i guess i'm feeling lots better now, but i'm still feeling quite guilty fer all tt i've done...o wells. it's just tt you dun often get chances to repent and to be forgiven easily...yep...

aniwaes...todae morn. was greeted by large words...VOTE JIALI XIAOHUI...hahax...was a realli tiring dae i guess. i've been tryin nt to slp during morns but dis time was realli bad. woke up onli after someone touched mi hair...WEEPIN!! arrgh...but at least after tt i woke up...thx aniwaes..went up to the canteen earli wif jim to see the straws...and he told mi i taoed dency! hey if i did i'm realli sorri, was realli sleepy tt time...mi apologies. aniwaes, moving on, one of our own guitarists, timon, got the private flying license and $500...congrats timon!!! o wells, blackbird...hahax...began wif the tiring lessons...it's realli gettin quite routinely fer now i guess. many things are just passing by mi so fast...the day was just like another other i guess.

things to me haf sorta deteriorated to the state tt it's hard fer mi to see beyond the boredom...maybe i'm just tired alwaes..but it's just not helping...i need mi energy flow back...aniwaes, after school went to SCH to train fer guitar...i tink i screwed it up todae...but o wells, training's training...den after training we had to go to clarke quay to get ties, but in the end couldn't find the shop, so went home veri veri tired...took 190 wif timon to cck...realli tiring ar...

tmrs council elections...speech dae...muz vote for em wor...hahax~ kays...next blog will be dedicated to richard...hahax...nitez!

o btw ppl...we're holding a fund raising project for maldives...tryin to raise about 2k fer the kudafarians (a new projector, sponsering the student over...yep...)...those interested and have new ideas, yep, feel free to mail mi or any of the other 05maldiviens...thx lots...

self-reflection

i haven't been a gud fren...i haven't...

sometimes things are just not what they seem. it's onli a mirage that's in front of us. now there's one who has problems and i have no idea on how to help him. and then there's the other who i've hurt for so long which i didn't even know till now. there's also one that's tryin to calm me down which to no avail...and there are many whom i didn't talk much to cuz i was feeling a little sad...

i'm realli sorri fer all that i've done...i know nuthin i sae will make you guys forgive mi, but i just feel tt i owe all of you an apology. if there's anything i can do to make it up to all of you, i would...

there are also lots others whom i've not been able to help...to her, most of the times i can't give you the best advice, and i'm nt helping much.

thx lots fer ppl out there who are smiling at mi, you realli are brightening mi dae...it's just tt sometimes...i can't seem to bring miself together...and yup...

you ppl are realli realli nice...and i realli hope you continue to show your enthusiasm to everiwan ard you. being sad isn't alwaes the way to solve problems, if you look sad, others may feel sad too...so do yourself and others a favor...yep...or else you'll worri someone else...i admit i've done tt before, i don't deny i've sinned, and i'm still unsure on how to make it up to you...but i promise from todae onwards, i wun break aniwan's heart, i'll try to make ppl as happi as mi, and i'll try to repent for mi sins...thx fer all the ppl ard mi who have been realli patient wif mi, i'll try mi best to make you happi...thx lots again and realli sorri fer all the trouble i've caused~

looking forward to a better mi...still tryin to repent for mi sins...i'm nt sad, it's just tt i have been making ppl's lives sad just because of mi...thx fer ur patience wif mi, and i realli hope things will turn out better...

Accidentally in love! MALDIVES OOOI !!!

yesterdae...i realli love this kinda outings and stuff~

it was totally awesome.

so what if there was rain? it was even better because of the rain!

earli morning started out wif mi muggin at home...okies tt's mi normal routine on sat, cuz there's nt much to do other than mug, watch cartoons, sleep, blog. yep...hahax...aniwaes, left home wif all the drinks and mi trusty guitar to kap...reached there at abt 2.45. before you go wow, i went there to mug. and before you wow again, tt's because i can't mug at home...hahax~ o wells, nvm mi.

jim came at abt 3.15, was just nice as i had the urge to release...kays, tt wasn't too good..hahax, moving on, yichuen came later wif his ps2, and i was tryin mi best to turn on is CLIO, tried tt fer 5 mins until his magic hand turned it on (as in, switch on...) soon after, the rest poured in...both weilings, zhimin, weepin, jiacheng, choir sisters (ruth, maeyue, christine), edwin, jiali, bern, dot, michael...was realli happi when i saw em. i mean, how often do we get to meet lyke dis? haiz~ okays...even before the barbecue, i was totalli happi...i promise they'll be an outing during june. promise, looking forward to tt...

meltee came later, and darn were we glad to see her. okies...before i go on, i must sae, she realli did a veri gud job fer the barbecue. she alwaes seem to be doing stuff fer us, and it's rare fer mi to see her eat. was darn busy fer her, somehow i felt guilty...MEL YOU ROCK! *claps* thanx lots fer the wonderful barbecue and also helpin us prepare all the stuff...thx to your mum too, fer doing an awesome job fer preparing the stuff fer us...or else dis barbecue would never have been successful...

in the end, some left wif her in a car den the rest took a bus. i tell you, takin bus was so fun lor. we were talking at macs and someone kept tellin us to leave before the rain came, but we just kept talking there...hahax...saw mi cousin and was tellin mi off(nt exactly scolding mi, but hahax...in a sacarstic manner but friendly...hahax) cuz i wore the same shirt 3 times fer the past 3 meetings wif him...hahax...thx bro...you rock too. when everiwan was ready to leave, it started raining lyke crazy...saw frantic njcians rushing to the bus stop and laughing...hahax...boarded 961. altho the bus was quite cramped, but i guess we were happi when we were ard each other. talking, chatting, and i tink tt time i was just being lame...veri lame, even i felt it, but i couldn't control it! hahax~ oops...walked up the hill to her house, and jiacheng was complaining how long it was...den we tried persuading zhimin to get the bus uncle to drive us near her house, cuz there was this comfort bus over there which was supposed to bring ppl from hume park to bukit batok...haiz...o wells, walking is much better...muz cut down fat...o wells, i'm fat...hahax...

walking down condo after condo and wowing at their nice facade, which all weren't where mel lived, we reached hume park, which somehow, didn't look anything lyke a condo at first. hahax...first the carpark was veri huge, which according to weepin looked lyke a loading and unloading bay, den there was also this entrance which was so country club lyke...there was also a bookdrop fer the library...is there? i'm still wondering. onli when we saw the swimming pool we were convinced.

it was the nicest condo swimming pool i've ever seen.

first there were fishes, live fishes, swimming just a glass panel away from you...it was just so darn cool, swimming wif the fishes. and also, the jacuzzi was so powerful, could see the jets from where we stood. there was also a path laid out fer us to walk on, on top of the water...could remember partner, ruthu and mi walking there and singing 'when you believe'...hahax...den lyke moses...hahax...there was a path fer us...okies tt was lame. hahax...moving on, we met up wif liyan and wanda there, and the bbq officially began. was quite hard gettin the fire started, cuz it was still raining. but we still did. hahax...tell you, it was seriously lots better wif the rain...was realli fun.

childish ppl lyke me, tryin to step on puddles of water and making ppl scream...and then jiacheng was chasing jim because of something...hahax...and jim fell on his ass...i could clearly remember seeing him slide for 1m...hahax...was realli fun. and then ruth and christine were on this painting frenzy. i noe you guys are frm arts cls kays, but the painting on mi face was terrible lor! hahax...no lar, they went ard wif their deadly charcoal in hand. at first zhimin shook hands wif mi and i tot wad happened...den he gave mi dis cheeky grin and i looked at mi hand. it was BLACK!!! ZHIMIN! o wells, den came ruthu who oreadi had charcoal hands, rubbing it on mi arms and on others...before you noe it, everiwan was black. cept fer yichuen who was far away. hahax...could remember the gals screaming when ruthu and christine were going ard painting their faces and were kinda freaked out...hahax.

aniwaes, finalli the fire got started thx to zhimin and weepin fer the constant fanning and blowing...okies, the gals did a good job too. happi now? hahax...but seriously they did the charcoal and stuff, sacrifising their hands...hahax...food arrived and yep, it started, and the "old sky god had eyes", it stoppped raining! yays! we started off wif the satays and the...wad's tt...i seriously forgot...hahax...but it all went smoothly! soon, everiwan came wif their marshmellos and tryin to get the best ones...jim and maeyue were comparing who had the best burnt marshmello. jim's one was awesome...altho it dropped onto the floor and wanda said it was realli nice...hahax...oops! den maeyue came up wif dis strategy of holding charcoal wif a tong and manually grilling the mashimaro wif the other hand...was nt bad, but still lost to jim, and den there was mi holding the lighter there fer 2 mins wif her grilling her marshmello...tt was darn nice. seriously. okies lar, cuz it was my work and it was realli nice. hahax~ but in the end, mi mashimaro was still the nicest. seriously...it was all creamy inside and yep...realli nice...hahax...

the eating session began and ppl sat down to chat...later, calista, melvin and richard came! so cool lar! so many ppl...haven't seen calista fer a long time, so was realli happi...ppl started enjoying themselves. it was realli funny lor...ruth and christine were out to make a fool of themselves by doing the ignis cheer over and over again...hahax...was realli funny and i was laughing the hell outta miself. cuz the other bbq grp was also staring at both of em...hahax...den after all the drinks were finished, we filled a 7-up bottle full of the melted ice water wif all the essence of uncooked food. and den edwin, the first unfortunate victim, took tt water and everiwan laughed...took him 3 mins to find out..hahax. michael took it as well, den he was laughing as he drank the water...too bad we din fool anione else. edwin was teaching michael some self defence...and the first time he tried, michael screamed...hahax...was freakin pain. hahax...but it went on smoothly after tt. then the choir sisters started singing songs. was actualli quite refreshing as i haven't heard them sing fer some time. and felt reali light headed.

List of various ways to loose fat.
1. jumping while you are eating
2. laughing nonstop to train ur abs...
3. getting chased by people
4. chasing ppl
5. standing near the bbq

den as a symbol of rememberance...okie, act of rememberance, we had the water splashing festival...first yichuen wif the bottle of water, ice cold water, which landed on jiacheng, and then the chase began...liyan's pants got wet as well, i tink by wanda...hahax...den weiling and ruthu wif tt bottle of cold water, splashed water on unsuspecting ppl's legs, making dem squeal...it was realli realli cold lar...hahax. den came the singing session wif the guitar (mi skills aren't tt gud yet, forgive mi fer screwing up time after time)...was realli happi when i saw all of em...singin as one...and altho we didn't do the mass dance, the full mass dance, we still did accidentalli in love...wif partner!! hahax...memories. and richard was puttin satay sticks into the bbq fire, and den adding satay sauce, saying tt the stick was dancing. of course there were ppl tryin to get the better of the fire by barbecuing their marshimaros...hahax...we also did a yaaaaaaaah cheer in the middle of a grass patch, and someone came out frm the window carrying something. jim tot it was a handphone at first, thinkin the person was complaining to the police, but in the end, we found out it was mel's dad...hahax~ taking a photo. relax...but we did our job well by calling suihang down!! SUIHANG ROX LOR...VOTE SUI HANG(40) FOR COUNCIL!...was talking bout the past swiss daes and miss tay...

what we ate? o...there was fish, black-pepper chicken wings, satay, marshmellos, banana wif marshmello wif m n' m's(weird eh), steak (okies gud job wanda...after beating mi fer so long...hahax), the satay sauce, otah...yum yum...seriously...cuz we're the ppl who did it...hahax...no lar...it was seriously nice. i tink the smell of the food overwhelmed the other table...and our enthusiasm too...the other table was apparantly celebrating somebody's b'dae...o wells...

at the end ppl started leaving and we went to the playground fer the last time, playing wif the swings and also the seesaw wif richard and weepin moaning away...hahax...zhimin and jiacheng too...hahax...too sexualli explicit to explain...RICHARD, I HAVE THE VIDEO EVIDENCE LOR..hahax...playin wif swings was also realli fun...childhood memories...i miss tt...left soon after...

sometimes...some things tt you do may affect others in an adverse way, the way you feel, the mood you bring, and also what you do...so dun be sad wherever you are, or things may get worse than you expect. you may never know when someone else out that infers and gets guilty fer everithin...so smile alwaes! *sniff sniff*...i'm realli sorry...

jellyfish~

living in this beautiful world...i'm seeing things i've never seen before. sides of ppl i've never seen before. suddenly i'm seeing a more beautiful world of optimism...yays!

todae's nt bad. cept the sleeping during phy lec, cept mi nearly sleeping during maths tut...i suck. but o wells...it's realli tiring. tmr wun be animore...tmr will be veri veri energising...i'm pretty sure. we got back our pw results todae...i got a 2! but tt was quite comforting considering that the other group in front of ours was extremely interesting...aromatherapy...heys to mi group...you rock! Thx lots...forgot to thanx you all just now...realli guilty...arthur esther jim tammy...you ppl rock! joel's grp got 1...everiwan...it's just so pro...congrats!

aniwaes, continuing on, we watched the day after tmr fer gp..rox lar...and pe was okie...

just veri tired nowadays

losing mi inspiration and vigor

but i'm sure tmr will be lots better

cheers!

*paradoxical*

hey...nt bad! i passed mi gp on the overall! yays! 50.5...okies, tt's nt too gud, but judging from experience, if you sleep half the paper, you won't expect to pass...thx to mi summary...

aniwaes, todae morn started wif guitar...for the first time, i'm gng for morning sectionals. i felt energised somehow...hahax. was quite okie, cept tt there were few guitar ones...okie, maybe they came later. was quite okie but screwed up part F...o wells...shall go home and practice.

started assembly in the hall and den lectures. lectures were realli terrible, was sleeping during chem and maths lecture, realli sleepy. maybe i'm too used to mi thurs-wake-up-eat-den-sleep-den-wake-up-and-go-school routine, so nt enuff slp...o wells...was okie during maths lec, and gp was not bad...tt's because i got back mi paper wif quite okie results...hahax! yays! aniwaes, tt's just great...todae's nt a bad dae after all...

uncertainty
deception
lies
pointless arguements

my dark past
all that profanity
all that senseless hatred
all that mindless love
all forgotten

i guess i can sae i've matured to be a more sensitive person, tho sometimes i still cannot control miself. i'm realli sorry if i offended anyone todae...it's realli mi fault, i'm still learning how to be more sensitive...o wells...nitez yall...and may our strong friendships stay as one. it's hard to build a good frenship but yet it's easy to break one, so cherish it! our lives are bounded by each other, and i believe, we'll all be good frens...even till the veri end...we've seen thru so much, and we're lots stronger...nitez!

simplicity is bliss...good luck fer all the council elects! those reading mi blog...
VOTE FOR JIALI, MAEYUE, JOLYNN, DENCY, CHRISTINE, RUTH, DOT, MICHAEL!
hahax...yep...vote fer them...remember hor...hahax.

*smiley face* reminiscence...happi reminiscence

hahax...todae was awesome! tho mi energy's running out fast...but i'm glad to haf known these ppl...they have just changed mi life so much. i just feel so invigorated bout dis stuff...there's alwaes something new to look forward to everidae. quote from bern after seeing us *you guys made my day...* hahax...yep...we did, but she made our dae too by saeing tt. hahax~ it's just so...haiz~ hard to describe...

todae started out wif a bang when we heard chinese dance got gold wif honors for syf! nt long ago, indian dance and malay dance also got gold wif honors...how abt guitar? hahax...i'm sure...from what i've seen todae...we'll achieve what we want...gold wif honors! yays! o well...i'm just realli optimistic bout stuff right now...

den later went on wif the lessons...nuthin much out of the ordinary as we went thru tutorial after tutorial. cept tt pe todae was quite slack...ms lim let us play games! yay! fer the first time...relax before next wk...o wells...fm test was terrible...i totalli screwed mechanics...i tink i'll fail...screwed...o wells...

den came up wif the maldives stuff...met up wif jim, jiali, maeyue, richard, melvin, bernie, ruth, christine, dency, jolynn, wanda, dot, michael, meltee, edwin, colin, yichuen, keefe ...hahax~ was quite fun...shouting the kudafari cheer...and the maldives ooi...hahax...the enthusiasm was overwhelmin, and although we didn't get an overwhelming response but it was overwhelming...it has been so long since i shouted wif tt energy and vive. den we watched the video in both lt1 and lt5...the pictures were stunning...the video was totally awesome...okie, i admit, i realli wanted to scream and cry...cuz the video footage was just so cool and...o, michael, if you're reading this, you did a seriously good job...thx fer putting all our memories together, and also yep, we're still waiting fer the final video!!! hahax...you rock!...hahax...kays, it's alwaes the memories...we were tryin hard to control our screams...lt1 was christine and dency, which was pretty cool...tho the audience wasn't tt enthu as lt5...lt5 was michael and dot...they had perfect chemistry...now i understand why they belong wif each other...hahax...seriously...we had sacks and more sacks, and it was realli exhausting...try reading tt eh? hahax

o wells...guitar was up next...and nt bad...i felt we improved...and it sounded realli nice. nt bad guys! well done! gambate and we'll get gold...our small grp rawkx too! grp 4 rawkx...aniwaes...todae's just awesome!! so looking forward to tmr...

*blank stare* reminiscence...bad reminiscence

i shall be nice...hahax...let's just sae todae was an interesting dae fer mi~ *sigh*

*shudders*...had a gud start wif so many ppl saeing hello to mi...hahax...never had that many 'hellos' in a morning...was realli happi. sorta.

todae was...hmmm...i dunno lar...i guess life has it's ups and downs sometimes. i guess i'm just a piece of iron, easily induced by whatever force is exerted on mi. if mi fren is sad, i'll be sad...but then again...some memories are not worth remembering. o wells...it's okie i guess (and i swear i'm nt blaming anyone...) these things are here to make you tougher...haiz~

aniwaes, congrats to the council elects! realli hope you guys go into council and make a difference into others lives...cuz you ppl have already changed mi life, which i tink is riddled wif mi hideous past. i'm lots happier now, but i'm still trying to learn from mi past n' not look back at it. i dun wanna be sad because of it again. and suddenly, i feel realli confused...time and time again i've told miself nt to look back, but yar...reminiscence...dun worri bout mi...i tink i should be lots better tmr...

maybe it's because i used to susceptible to dis kinda stuff and now this is sorta lyke a test for mi...i'm just a good magnet, easily induced but yet hard to lose it...i'm trying nt to be so stubborn nowadays...things seem lyke they've just begun, and yet i seem to have been in dis situation fer a long time...i must be dreaming.

*slaps self* back to this ideal world, i guess todae's realli quite upbeat n' stuff, after the chat wif jiali, ruth, christine n' jim in the afternoon. hahax~ *sweatdrop*...i haf absolutely no comments lar...*zips mouth*...hahax...

still haf much stuff to look after, still haf much stuff to do, and still haf much say...i'm running out on mi inspiration, but i guess it's just a transition phase...past, present, future...all lie in my hands...now it's what i want to do with it...

guitar todae was okie i guess, we were in grps and stuff and i think we did nt bad todae! hey...we'll definitely get gold lar...it's onli whether it's wif honors or not...hahax~ o well...todae was a nice day...

quote : as usual wenhao is gigglin n smilin all de day... dunno wad he tinkin(winkin at christine)
*of cuz i noe wad i'm thinking...hahax...christine, you rock! cancel the all day part...* *confused squirrel*

*smile alwaes!*

todae's qing ming...fer mi family. woke up at abt 6.30 (like the last time i woke up on a sun at this time was close to 2 yrs ago?) and yep, took a cab to mi grandma's house. and todae was mi lucky dae (i guess i look at things a little too optimistically nowadays)

the taxi broke down halfway...wif white smoke coming out frm it. and there was a kinda chaota smell...was quite freaky actualli. and i laughed when that happened.

hahax...maldives has made mi too happi. aniwaes, was laughing all the way to the bus stop and yep, took bus 100 to telok blangah...eventualli reached there at 7.30. saw many of mi relatives and cousins there. it's just rare to see them altogether, tho we visit our grandma everi sun, but we come at different times, so it's realli rare fer everiwan to see...well, everiwan. had wanton mee, which was veri nice, nice noodles n' nice soup...boarded the chartered bus...it just seems that it's getting bigger year after year (2 yrs ago it was a little bigger than a bus-plus bus, den now it's lyke a primary school bus, good aircon and lcd tv...wonder if we'll get grassland one year...hmmm) aniwaes, first went to mandai and then to bishan...i tink it was a spiritually enlightening trip fer mi...it just seems life is so short, cherish it...maybe it's because i didn't know both well enuff to cherish them, but when it comes to dis kinda stuff, i guess i'll be praying the best for them.

of cuz the trip wasn't just routine praying n' stuff...i see each year as a new experience...you see how much your relatives change, and you see how much you've changed. it was just rare to have this chance to talk and chat wif em, cuz i tink we were closer when we were young, but due everiwan's seperate hectic schedules, i guess it's hard to keep up wif the times. so yar...i sorta haf missed them, tho i last i met them lyke one week ago at the wedding. o wells...i'm beginning to cherish everithin...

and for once, you feel warmth. nt because ppl are lighting jossticks or burning offerings, it's just tt there are many ppl there to pray fer the deceased and you just wonder that one day if you pass on, yep, ppl will still be there. it's just hard to see the future now...and you see so many people around you that actualli care for you, and it's that fact that make mi feel realli realli fortunate. friends, family, and even strangers...wish all of dem well...

and todae's sky was the best. azure blue cloudless skies wif the burning sun. it realli reminded mi bout maldives cuz of the scorching sun which i gladly welcomed cuz i wanted a tan. wish i was at sentosa todae...i wanna grow darker! o yar...did anyone see any wooden cows of various colors at open grass spaces? cuz i saw some at bishan, and then i saw some at buona vista...somehow it was quite refreshing and yep...wad kinda advert is tt? hahax~

went to mi maternal grandparents and then i was realli glad to see them both veri healthy. i guess i'm realli lucky to haf such wonderful ppl in the world. they took care of mi when i was young, talked to mi, ate wif mi, and they just feel happy when i visit them...*yays!*...it's realli hard to think all good things in the world hafta come to an end...haiz~...*shudders*...*teardrop*

aniwaes, yep...look on the bright side! our lives are filled wif such wonderful things, it's only that sometimes we dun see it or maybe it's just too normal to us, so yep...be happi with whoever you are and wherever you are...just remember there are alwaes ppl having worse stuff than you, so cherish it! *smile alwaes!*

*oildrops*

sometimes i wonder...is it what i eat?

or is it just my genes?

haiz...look at most of the photos on imagestation...

mi face looks red and shiny...

shucks...i haf too much oil!!!

arrgh...an oily squirrel...

anione has any other way to remove oil permanently? or maybe just to reduce it...other than washing you face a thousand times...

and i'm nt considering going for any operation...

yep...it's just irritating when you lie down you see a dark patch after tt...and it's oil...*shudders*

hahax...aniwae...i've been dreaming bout kudafari...seeing the sand and the sea...somehow i feel serene after dreaming and i woke up to quite a gud morning i guess. was supposed to meet sengee and ivan at cck mrt at 9, until abt 9.30 sengee msged ivan tt he'll meet us at the pool...*dang*...actualli the original plan was tt we were gng running cuz diyong was coming, den i went to the mrt station and saw someone lyke diyong, and i nodded to him...and den he gave me a weird stare...5 seconds later i just realised i nodded to the wrong person...hahax...starting laughing to miself...den ivan told mi diyong ain't coming. *sigh*...den *lol*...diyong wasn't even coming and i saw diyong's look alike...*sweatdrop*...i guess tt's cuz i haven't seen him fer so long liao...dunno how he looks lyke...

reached the pool at abt 10...den when we called sengee, he jus left his home...*sweatdrop*...another wait...abt 10mins later...he reached...but apparently due to his earli b'dae, he's 18, so legally he muz buy the adult card...hahax...aiyah, dun care lar...and den came in wif a kiddy card...hey...it's $1 diff lor. okie, i'm cheapskate...wadeva...was so happi when i reached the pool...

it reminded mi abt the maldivien seas...

clarity...and i could look underwater without goggles! and there were lotsa happi ppl! and there were waves!

okie...of cuz it would'nt be perfect without you guys...i realli miss you ppl...nvm next sat shall be unique...and realli fun!

back to swimming...we did our usual stuff (nt anything dirty...but i shan't elaborate) and yar...it was fun alrite to be back in the water...totalli enjoy it...remember the memories we had there...keefe acting as if a shark got him, looking at corals, trying to catch small fishes, throwing sand balls, taking photos, hunting for crayfish (or wad was tt...gongjiao's big catch)...i just miss tt...

the day went normalli den...tho it wasn't so normal...i'm starting to see the point of existence in school, and i now haf an aim in school...sch's a medium for interaction...and yep...

MALDIVES ROX! I MISS ALL OF YOU!!! I MISS THE HEALTH POST! I MISS THE FOOD! I MISS THE GOSSIPING! I MISS THE SKIES AND THE MOON AND THE STARS! I MISS EVERITHING ABT THE TRIP!!!!! (wif mi squeaky voice)

yep...*clears throat*...yep...life's just so special~ cherish it! and dun get too stressed out abt stuff...it's just sad to see ppl so sad when i'm happi...i'm nt doing mi job well! arrgh...time to infect ppl...and i'm nt the professional to make ppl happy easily...*sigh*...o well...all i can sae is...dun be too sad...time's almost there and we're almost done wif tt, so yar...dun fret k? i'll be here if anyone needs me...as in...willing to lend a listening ear...all e best guys! smile alwaes! =) (tryin mi best nt to look spastic...hahax...)

squeaky squirrel~

poor soul. can't even talk properly...hafta squeak...

and ruthu was laughing her lungs out when she heard mi squeak...

had tt realli constipated look...hahax...but o wells...she looked veri farni. and i was laughing wif mi squeaky voice...

arrgh...

I WANT TO TALK PROPERLY!

oh well...the medicine seems to be working better. and jim was conducting a survey on the extent of mi viral infection. abt 10+ in onli 5 daes...wow...2 per dae...i'm a running supervirus! *shudders*...aniwaes...todae started wif mi tryin to walk properly. i tink mi thighs sorta gave way after the 75squats on weds. can climb stairs but cannot get down from em'. yep...i'm sure everiwan who did tt (except fer a certain few who're used to this training) feel the same. it just hurts...and can't run. can't walk properly. hahax~ o well...met the maldives ppl earli in the morn...and i was realli happi to haf see em. it's just...i'm addicted. were talking abt seeing us on tv last nite...it was realli refreshing n' stuff...you ppl just brighten up mi life. it just brings back memories to see you ppl...realli can't wait fer the final video! went fer lessons as usual...cept tt after fm things started gng downhill wif mi abt to sleep. physics s lecture was FOS. no...he's FOS. he was just wasting time talking abt why we're in the s grp, explaining stuff tt he said should be self read, showing results of the lowest ppl while saeing tt he's nt saeing the name...*sigh*...he's nuts! i'm just realli tired during tt and prac was even worse...after gp, i tink things started gng alright wif mi tryin to walk properly again...wif shiwei and jim trying to prove their theory...wif ppl talking about pudding and also gud banking facilities...yawnz~ i'm tryin to stay awake. haiz~ aniwaes, after pe was drinks, as usual...i just love the new tehcino...realli nice lar...just love the taste of tea...cold tea...den went fer maldives meeting at the student centre...saw many familiar faces, but dis time they were doing a project. fer nxt wed's frenship dae! hahax...joined in and looked at the photos...was sorta reminiscing what we did...i'm still tryin hard to remember what happened and come up wif an anniversary blog entry...*grinz*...i thought of it first hor. hahax. i'm just paranoid...ignore mi...hahax...

before i start digressing, was there trying to see what way i could help until mi throat went beserk. i couldn't talk properly...it started hurting all over again and thus...the whining, squealing, worms-like speech began...was quite irritating at first cuz i couldn't sae many things tt i wanted to sae. that sorta brought mi energy level down...*sigh*. i couldn't convert the overenthusiasm frm dis morn into effective output~ i'm trying to be better...but i'm in the intermediate step...tryin hard to be happi all the time...and also making ppl ard mi happi...if i can...which is a veri hard goal. nt impossible, but realli hard, meaning i've to put mi heart and soul into it. i'm just inspired by keefe who alwaes keeps his composure and talks to anyone. simply anyone. tt made mi feel happi...i still remembered the first gp lesson wif him. i was tryin hard nt to laugh loudly cuz of wad he said...so funny...and he's veri enthusiastic...alwaes cheering ppl up and boosting our morale, and also acting as our fellow counsellor, helping calm situations n' also as a gud dancer. creativity is his key...and he's a real gentleman who mixes care and entertainment perfectly, creating a somewhat serene envrionment what some people know as peace and happiness. okie...i tink i should start a KEEFE FAN CLUB...i tink he rox! and richard too. first he's realli funni if you get to know him...especially what he did at maldives...ask colin and he'll laugh his socks off before remembering anything. and he's also realli nice and stuff, finds it easy to talk to ppl and his personality is realli funny...i guess sometimes he's a second part of mi tt i desperately wanna be. jim too...*quote : crap-generator*...a funny one i might add...i guess there's alwaes a part of everiwan i wanna be...okie...i want to be as lively as mel, as cute and also lively as jolin, as easily tickled and as all rounded as ruth, as skilled at dancing and as easily red as christine, as easily tickled as colin, as funny and as caring as zhimin, as happy as bern, as crazy and funny as jiali, as professional in cameras and as skilled at many stuff as michael, as crazy (a little to the sadistic side...hahax...no lar...etna) and as little sweatdrops as dot, as community-involved and as corny as yichuen...and of cuz many more tt i haven't tot off...if i missed any of you...i'll try to include you in the next blog! i'm just tryin to write what i'm currently thinking off...and i'm also a little tired, so bear wif mi long-windedness...

oh yar...den after tt went the presentation...i muz sae the video is veri well done and also the photos...thanx to the Powerbooks that were supplied...by michael and dot...i tink those rox! i wanna get one as well...but too ex...aniwaes, the video...i muz sae...it's realli veri touching...seriously i was tryin nt to be emotional when i saw tt...the stuff that i was thinking off...the reminiscene...shan't go there again. okie...i can verify dis...richard was whacking jim's thighs throughout the 2hrs we were there...apparently jim was also a victim of tt vicious pe and yep...thigh pain...and den screamed (okie...i shan't use the word moan here...hahax) so yep...yichuen joined in wif stroking richards legs...*sweatdrop*...luckily i was silent...for some reason tt was gud...

left the sch at abt 7...den couldn't speak properly...so i squealed...and squeaked...wadeva...and everitime i did tt...ruthu was just try nt to laugh...which most of the time she did...it's just like a laughter vending machine, when i laugh, she laughs...was realli funny...i can speak properly, but it'll be realli low and sometimes it'll be itchier...so i had to use mi falseto (is tt how you spell it)...thx ruth...you brightened up mi dae! serious...hahax...later went home frm there...

o wells...nitez ppl...need mi slp...i'm sick but still alive...and friendship is now the main key to mi life...i dun believe in senseless seeking for lost love animore, and i'm nt fulling prepared fer the responsibilities after seeing certain ppl...all e best to you guys den...and it's just one more week...to the grand reunion~ mark your calendars ppl...16th April (sry fer the error)...catcha maldives ppl there! we're just a family of ppl that wouldn't let go...of what we've done and what we see...happiness! *winkz*...*squeak*...

maldives on tv!

i guess everiwan who went there...muz be realli emotional. after seeing those pics about us being in maldives doing work, pulling the trolleys, dancing...and after interviews wif keefe, richard n' edwin...all the emotions just came back from nowhere (okie...maybe somewhere)...seeing people teach stuff fer the first time...seeing us so enthusiastic bout doing work...seeing us doing mass dance...seeing us enjoying ourselves...seeing the friendship that we've forged...seeing the kudafarians...and seeing just everithing that we did on that little jewel in maldives...just brings me to tears...and also brings me to the point where i wanna go back there again and spend not onli ten days...maybe a month wif all of you and the kudafarians!

it's just so rare you get a chance to do this...i suddenly feel how lucky i was to get chosen...how a few months ago i heard the announcement about the maldives trip and seeing kevin sim fer the first time...how i was praying so hard to get into the maldives group...how worried i was to take the tetanus jap when i read the form...how i felt at the meetings at the student centre...how frustrated i was fixing the stupid computers which screwed up on us, which also frustrated logcom fer waiting fer us...how i was contemplating on ponning the dance training which i eventualli did (sry ppl...hahax...sry colin...)...how we met at the student centre just before we left...how we wondered if mrs cheng would arrive at the airport which she finalli did...how we tried to get past the security wif our pcs and lucky emirates saved us before jacky became bloated...how we waitied up at gate C49 fer a long time, wondering why they had to scan everiwan tt came thru the gate...how we camped at colombo airport, playing cards, trying to mug, and trying nt to sleep...how we tried to find the missing packages at the airport which contained kevin sim's reel...and how i drolled on the 5hr boat ride...how we were shocked that we had to swim to the island till the boat arrived...and how we were so welcome...*sigh*...i miss everithin...

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yep...it means the sky's nt raining...i'm seeing a mirage.

i'm nt confused, onli tt i guess time and age has been getting on to mi. and mi emotions too. in the morn i'll jus be mi sleepy stuff and suddenly sometime in the day, i'll become veri veri happi.

i'm just like tt...go figure.

aniwaes, todae~ *yawnz* a little late fer blogging...shld be slpin by now~ was actualli quite okie, cept fer the video on euthanasia where i was tryin hard to slp but in the end couldn't. i'm nt haunted by it, but i jus feel strongly against it. tho ppl are in pain, i mean, i just can't see the reason why they want to volutarily end their life. it's so hard fer the ppl ard dem and also themselves. maybe i can't totalli understand their pain n' feelings, but yar...tt's how i feel, for now...maybe in the singaporean context i dun see so many of dis things happening. o wells...pe was quite slack, except fer the 75 squats...can't walk properly now...nafa in 2wks. *sigh*...need to train liao. o well, at least i made (okie, we made, rite jim?) someone's dae todae...hahax...you made our dae too! thx lots.

the uni talks were quite okie. went fer the ntu engineering one...was quite okie cept tt the speaker seemed to haf some problem wif nus, talking abt how the starting pay of ntu students are better than nus, how ntu flag dae dis yr is one day earlier than nus...*shudders*...but tt's wad competition is abt i guess. i'm now havin second thoughts bout chem engine...judging by my results, i dun tink i can get in...futhermore, if the impossible happens tt i get 4A's, i might nt get in cuz there is onli a small enrollment~ *sigh* o wells...maybe aeronautics...and i tink i'll minor in psychology. went fer guitar...was quite slack todae and felt tt we've improved quite a beat, tho we just switched to a new and much faster tempo...veri nice. brought another guitar home cuz it needed seasoning (as in, play more...) and was a better guitar...hahax...

nitez den...muz go into dream land now...reality is still nt as gud as the 10daes wif u ppl! hahax~ addiction...and to reply some tags...
Melvin : dun bother...i'm nt telling...and you just had to sae tt...
meltee : yep...of cuz...kudafarians were simple (lifestyle, nt meant to insult) but yet they were happier than us...
leech : scandalous? waah...nt bad...you're infering well! hahax...
jiali : thx lots...and yar...ruth, cheer up k?
Ruth : i'll try mi best...cept tt it comes wif some of mi germs frm mi cough and flu...i'll try if i can...you seem happier now
mel : hahax...jim...i nv sae anything dis time ar...
zhimin : thx lots! hey, you be happi too k? or try to be lar...dun be sad becos you are far away frm us, we're still in ur heart, tt's the main pt...and dun doubt tt we miss you...hahax...
jim : *sweatdrop*...sounds a little bit lyke you...i can help falling in love...it's just a crush lar~
to those at the bottom wishing mi well...and to those who tagged...
THANKX LOTS!

yep...i tink tt's all fer tonite~ yawnz~ i wanna see a mirage...
<< Soon, the Metropole was in sight, but something else caught my eye. She was sitting there, under the maple tree, and crying.
���Hey, it���s me���please don���t scare me���what happened?���
Turning her head towards me, I saw her two eyes, bloodshot. Tears were flowing down her cheeks, and the sight of her made me feel terrible. Lifting my hand, I caressed her face and wiped the tears off her face. Her cheeks felt hot in the cold weather, and I sensed her suffering. Reality was undeniable with the feel of the truth.
���It���s alright, I���m here���care to talk?���
She continued crying and it seemed there was no way to cease her pain. Smoothly, she laid her head on my chest and I was baffled. The opening seemed near, but I guess she was just tired that she needed something to lay on. Embracing the moment, I kissed her forehead and soon, she fell asleep under the azure afternoon sky.
Could this be? I guess it seemed natural for me to take care of her, but with this fairytale-like backdrop? I was baffled...seriously baffled...(inspiration stops here)>>

simple things~ *exhilarated*

after maldives, i tink i've realli gotten the true essence of life there. i'm laughing more often, smiling more often, missing frens more often. i can't and never will forget the memories i have wif all of you. even when we continue wif our lives, i believe the maldivien spirit runs in all of us! hahax~ suddenly...i'm happi...there's nuthin more i ask of myself...i dwelve in the simple pleasures now. someone once told mi what a simple hello meant...and i guess that was the best meaning i haf ever seen...
[H] How are you?
[E] Everything all right?
[L] Like to hear from you!
[L] Love to see you soon!
[O] Obviously i miss you!

okie...maybe it sounded kinda lame at first, but i tink it was the [O] tt mattered to mi...simple things. okie, i tink too much~ hahax. aniwaes...i'm just veri veri happi todae...all of a sudden. it's just as if i was a two year old kid gettin a large lego set. okie, maybe more than that. lots more. i guess i'm beginning to like this new lifestyle, and was realli happi by jus thinkin happi thoughts and smiling all the time. i'm finalli infected wif happiness...wonder if i can spread it. hmmm~

todae was an exceptional dae...maybe just for mi, i guess...in the morn was extremely tired~ could barely open my eyes...had a short nap at sch and den woke up wif more life...den jim n' i left the grandstand earli for the podium cuz richard had keefe's b'dae card...hahax...met bern and jolynn on the way and had a nice talk wif em. i dunno lar...seems lyke i hafta see some of the group a day fer mi to be charged up, i'm nt sure, cuz i've been seeing them lyke everidae...yep. den mel came, and then richard who apparently was 'looking for someone' and was late...den kept asking us to write faster...hahax~ was fun seeing tt expression on his face. sang a belated b'dae song to keefe and then went fer assembly.

den came lessons. physics was aye wif mi nearly sleeping. maths lec wif lum was terrible, so was physics lec wif tek...ms ng was on course so we had to see lum a second time fer maths tutorial...*sweatdrop*...still laughing after how he tink he saved us wif his stats formula. den was gp. got back mi gp compo and barely passed...wasn't veri shocked considering mi sleeping thru half the paper periodically. felt tt todae's chem was the best lesson of todae cuz it wasn't tt boring and it was the last lesson of the dae...yay! den the exhilaration started...started laughing all the way from the canteen to out of school for no apparent reason~ felt as if i had taken lots and lots of chocolates and was in a state of euphoria. seriously...went to kfc fer lunch at bp wif jim shiwei and sengee and tt was the end of the dae for mi~ i'm still feeling happy...

it's all an imagination...i can see a mirage where i stand...it's just so impossible...
<< Walking down Rue De Lac, my mind drifted apart towards the rustling of the maple leaves. It seemed as if the wind were blowing me away and I felt weightless. The past few weeks had been tiring, and this sudden invigoration led me back to my normal self. The familiar smell of fresh air, the indisputable silence and also the feel of nature, all so familiar to me. Opening my eyes, my mind was cleared and the life I wanted was back in my hands once again. Skipping, I hummed a joyous tune which was a refreshing addition to the silence.
Abruptly, I shifted my attention to the task at hand. I was still concerned about Moon; it was the first time I heard her so depressed and worried. I could not decipher what she was going through, but I felt the severity of the situation. Well, I had always admired her for her ability to solve any problems and take on any challenge. She was an adventurous girl who was accompanied with good looks, and she was also very sweet. Maybe it was obligation, or maybe it was fate, but the fairy and the toad became best friends. We chatted everyday about absolutely everything, and we were always happy with each others company. Without a doubt, she was the perfect match for many guys, and even though I denied being attracted to her, her charm was unquestionable, and of course, I was falling for her. >>

*silence*

finalli touched mi diary...collecting dust fer abt 3 months liao, and i miss it. haiz~ looking back at it, it's quite depressing actualli, looking at those sad entries and the senseless chasing...i sounded suicidal back den. o well...things have changed and i've moved on...yep n' i'm sure ppl ard the globe are mourning, christians and non-christians. realli sad tt dis had to happen~ it's just hard to say goodbye to such a person whose good deeds cannot be contained by words...and how he fought for mankind. *observes one minute of silence*...

suddenly, i feel i owe everiwan an apology fer being so quiet fer these few days...i wun give much excuses, cept tt i was clearing my thoughts after something brought mi back to mi dark past for some time. i'm lots better now, i still can't talk properly cuz of mi throat and still feeling sleepy, but i'm tryin mi best to recover. dun worri bout mi, worri bout yourselves...muz stuff yourselves wif lotsa vitamins and stuff cuz the bad weather's arrived and it's better tt you ppl take gud care of urselves before you get sick~ i promise i'll open my mouth when i've recovered...all the medication's makin mi drowzy...

2 wks haf passed and i'm still stuck in the mood...i definitely miss the times we had together, working together, joking together, gossiping together, eating together...of course i see those happy faces in my mind, in those millions of colour pixels, in those sheets of paper...but nothing compares to first hand experience. of course i dream of us being back together again, laughing our hearts out to richard's jokes and meltu's rolling eyes, freakin out to meltee's comments (you noe wad...) den laughing, doing mass dance in our beloved health post, sleeping near to each other and waking up to find that your lips are onli 3cm away frm others, smelling the fresh sea breeze and the salt in your eyes...yep...of course i miss them...shall do a recap soon...one wk later...i'm looking forward to the bbq 2 wks later...i can't wait...can we meet fer regular dinners? pls pls pls...hahax...o well gtg mug...take care yall~

how i wish some things would just come true...
<< The snow-covered willows, swaying freely with the chilly wind, dropping confetti of leaves into the peaceful lake. A silent ripple surfaced, followed by swift but gentle waves of a graceful koi, causing the water to stir and twirl a little. Staring at the gray cloudy skies, I enjoyed a sip of espresso while enjoying the panoramic view. The medieval castles created an ancient and yet modern look in comparison to the white cottages behind it, while Lake Luzerne added a touch of gold to the already extraordinary scenery.
Swiftly but steadily, a yellow leaf descended slowly onto my maroon tinted hair. I removed it and gazed at it for a moment. The network patterns reminded me of the cosmopolitan lifestyle that we had, but the yellow lamina gave me a message. In this hectic and busy lifestyle, there is something underlying that gives us the strength to live. Carefully, I slid it into the inspirational book that I was reading all this while, using it as a bookmark and as a regular reminder that life does not constantly revolve around work, but something more complicated, more unique, and yet of more significance.
Soon, I looked around me, and thought for a moment, ���Is the stressful lifestyle we are living through just for money, fame and glory?��� I let out a huge sigh, and thought again, ���People nowadays still do not understand the true meaning, the true value, and what lies behind the cycle of life.��� Taking another sip of black coffee, I savoured the precious moment, feeling relaxed and calm for a minute. Taking time of the painful cycle of life was a luxury. ���Phew������ I gave out a soft breath. >>

say it isn't so~

took me some time to figure out why i didn't wanna give up at first...i guess life wasn't tt simple back then. looking back at those memories, i guess it was merely my imagination. all that was between us was nothing but friendship and i had overestimated my resistance to false hope. time after time. o well, at least everithing's over now, and i still haf my inspiration wif mi...in the past, when i was sad, depressed, or maybe just bored, i wrote lotsa stuff, some pretty unrealistic stories...looking back at "The Past, The Present, The Future" i guess i was pretty foolish to see things so blindsidely, and then came "My Past, My Present, My Future" which wasn't any better. Overestimation. Stupidity. Silence. Monotony. Biasness. i guess i've surpassed that. yay!

last night was superb...something beyond words. yesh, tt means i was there at the dance party. i'm glad i did, tho i nearly didn't last thru the nite. reached sch at abt 5.30 and hit the toilet immediately~ *sigh*...seriously muz take care of miself liao...aniwae, reached the canteen and saw jim n' bern coming in together...apparently they went to orchard wif jiali n' richard to get stuff fer our mini-picnic den JR left as they had to prepare fer the dance party (i tink)...den yichuen was there saeing bout jiali being a filament tt was abt to blow~ hahax~...

i tink mi first impression from what i saw at the parade square was...what? looked pretty small to me, there was no turn-table...hahax...okie, maybe my expectations of hired dj's are veri high, but tt's just mi. but after seeing the lighting and the smokescreen (somehow tt vapor is so addictive, so sweet smelling...lyke candy...and induces you to let go...), well, okie, maybe it's nt tt bad...

okay it was superb...happy? hahax~

the music they played was quite gud...suited the atmosphere and was veri upbeat. we were also welcomed by many packets of chips and bottles of soft drinks, which i did nt hafta pay a single cent for (eh...if you guys want mi i dun mind...) and together wif the 2 packs of chicken, it made a gud picnic. i tink mel's fren also bought some nacho dips fer us which was pretty nice (of him and the sauce was oso nice...hahax). of course we also went ard to cope ppl's pizza (hey, we're nt cheapo's, but cuz there were extras...hahax...) ppl also came over to our mat (ppl had tables and we had a mat...hahax...) to cope chips and drinks while we were busy dancing our butts off. speaking of which, i realised tt there were many gud dancers among us...hidden talent. keefe is simply the best i've seen so far...seriously, he does many unique moves on the spot which are realli cool, some kungfu stuff wif some western, incorperating east and west (sheesh...i jus had to do tt...hahax) bern's moves are veri disco like (wonder if she's ever been in one...she looks pretty experienced) and together wif jiali they made some smooth steps. zhirong is a seasoned one, shakes lyke there's no tmr and is actualli to mi considered dirty dancing. maeyue is also veri creative (remembered she told mi, or someone told mi tt she noes how to do dirty dancing...) and tried hard to learn the mass-dance-com's dance (which i tell you was pretty cool...seriously...) i was tryin my best to shake but everitime i did my pants dropped lower and lower, which was partly due to ppl lyke jiacheng tryin to pull em down...ppl who came were bern, jim, keefe,christine, ruthu, meltee, meltuu, jim, liyan (she's pretty gud too), richard, zhimin (YAY!!), dot, michael, tin weiling, dency, dev, weepin (wif his yar...), jiacheng...was realli fun...and den one of the songs they played was '��辨��' and somone took wenhao's shirt off (tan...nt mi...i had enuff being a half-naked squirrel)...den they were playing monkey wif his shirt...it took him abt 5 mins to get it back but i guess everithin was already caught...(are wenhao's destined to share the same fate? *sigh*...hahax...) prada was taopoked, and den (i forgot who liao...frm maldives)...we also received a dedication, and they played at the beginning (rox! hahax~ suddenly i start to like dis song)...

of course they played the mass dance song (i tink 4 times) so sad i still cannot perfect tt last step where i was supposed to twist the gal ard fer 'accidentalli in love'...hahax...sry partner! i still tryin hard to learn, but the rest is still okie rite? hahax~ you rock! midway thru the party, the dj's, steven wong and the student council collaborated fer a April Fool's Joke...saying someone had drunk beer, den steven wong went up and held a can of 'beer' and said tt the party was to be stopped cuz someone drank some alcohol, and he sounded veri strict, saying tt dis wasn't an april fool's joke...and ppl had to leave now...den gongjiao said it was ginger beer while jim said it was root beer...hahax~ den the council jumped out frm the podium and then "HAPPI APRIL FOOLS!" *sweatdrop*...and den the party continued on thru the nite, wif more dancing and more shouting and more singing and more sweating~ phew~ went to our usual place fer makan...and hahax...shan't sae more...

i guess that nite was a realli interesting one~ i shan't sae more...saw another side of life~ and i'm still happi, sick but happi~ the sky's clearing up~ the beautiful moon...o well...say it isn't so...this is nt goodbye, this is starting over...whee!

looking back~ self-reflection

i realli wish i was in school now...with all of you...

tt doesn't include the teacher's tho...hahax...cept mi maths tcher...she rox! (wonder if she everi reads blogs...hmmm)

and i'm finalli sick...took blue slip in the morning and still tryin mi best to recover. well expected, but i realli hope i'll be well enuff fer the mass party tonite...i miss all of you(lyke i've said this a thousand times oreadi)...hahax...seriously, looking back at miself, i tink i've grown a lot and many things in me have changed (mentality lar...hahax~)

let's see...more than one month ago i wrote "Truth" which was seriously veri depressing after some incidents which i shan't go into. i guess now these things do not realli matter to mi animore...i see life as a whole new world of happiness and challenges, not selflessness or blind love or pain or suffering. it just seems that i haven't opened my eyes wide enuff to see the various things in the world. happy things. enlightening things. i've been biased to the world and also myself fer all dis while...and suddenly i feel...so happy tt there are just so many simple things around me, so many ppl who care, so many ppl who actualli brighten up mi life wif small comments, so many ppl who laugh (whether with mi or at mi...hahax) so vibrantly to lighten mi spirit...so many simple things. time is not an excuse for enjoyment, pleasure...i dun dwelve in those computer games and senseless gambling anymore (nt tt i haf gambled, but cny seemed nt long ago...hahax)...finalli realised...i should've seen this earlier. i should've been more naive and not think too much abt the past, the present, and the future...i dun believe in 'living the moment' anymore...i believe in 'living the commitment'...living the friendship i've made wif you guys and devoting time to you ppl...it's all been worthwhile. as what yichuen said, 'it's not for the hours' as 'if it's for the hours, i wouldn't have met you guys'. *salutes yichuen*...hahax...

i believe everiwan here has problems, no one can deny tt, but it's onli how you see the problem that seperates you from being depressed or still being upbeat bout things. it's how you perceive, how you feel...i tink i've matured in this phase...shameless you may say, but ask any of mi 34 frens and they'll say the same. to those ppl out there chasing dreams, go ahead and chase them wif everithing you have. to those ppl suffering, reflect on the simple things (or just take a trip to maldives...hahax...) and try to change your angle of perception...it may be hard at first, but after a while...things will be better (or your mentality back in 30daes...). yep...

wanna thank lotsa ppl out there wif all those simple comments...you noe who you are...everi simple thing makes mi happi now, even the fact tt i'm sick makes mi happi...i'm still alive! whee! catcha at nite den...shall try mi best to recouperate...

*sniff sniff*

no i'm nt cryin...i wish i was...after all the times we had together...i just can't believe i'm blogging when i'm sick...and you ppl still in sch muggin.

and suddenly, dis evil thought just comes up...MUAHAHAHA...:P naah...i'm nt tt sadistic, i wish i was in sch, nt fer the lessons, but rather to talk...den dis stupid sorethroat, flu and cough comes up and knocks mi silly~ now at home recovering...hopefully i feel well enuff to go back to sch fer dance party...sounds weird eh? but yar...i'm devoted...todae's lessons are realli terrible, so yar...it's nt tt i wanna leave sch because of em, i wanna study (nt what you tink, i just want to learn new stuff, not go thru borin lessons...) fer the fun of it, but it just seems lyke a typical routine now and it's getting realli boring, i guess. and now, i'm still sitting here in front of the al-mighty com...lethargic n' i feel jellyish (wonder if there's such a word...) feel lyke eating soon...

aniwae, thx fer all the concern you guys...i'm tryin mi best to recover, but mi immunity's sorta failing...it should be okie i guess...some vitamins n' medicine should do the job~ and congrats to mi cousin yengyeng fer finalli getting married to the man of her dreams...wish you all the best in ur smooth marraige, ��藉ご������锛���╃��guizi(i dunno how to write..hahax...) o well...shall go rest now and hope to see mi later! =)