past 3 days revisited

these 3 days...i've nt regretted any of em...life in general is just wonderful right now, especially wif so many friends ard mi...nt feeling lost anymore, nt feeling that silence, nt feeling that hopelessness...

i see light.

weds was the start of the fluing...flu-ing...yep. jim's nose was leaking everi few mins, and was terrible as the weather was bad as well...rainy weather, and everiwan started fluing as well. had some leadership talk wif mrs cheng abt FISH! which was actualli quite nice, esp the video, and njc won the singapore quality class! cool eh? together wif some other sustained awards (aesthetics, fitness) and many others...i tink there was abt six den she said there was still one upcoming tt we'll hafta wait before we get a half dae...yays! hahax...suddenly she sounds nice, but naah...hahax. met fer a short meeting after tt to discuss the fried ice cream stuff, and went out to buy oil and syrup wif maeyue...happens tt we got everithin settled liao, and just needed to see who was free during which period so that they can guard the stall...yep, organising com handled it well yar? thx again ppl...

the first dae of sales(thurs) was amazing cuz we got quite a gud response frm the ppl, and everiwan was realli free and happi to help out. ponned gp to help at the stall, and jiacheng is so pro fryin the ice creams lar...need skill one lor...you need to know how long to fry, the colour, and the evenness...and even the pressure you put on the ice cream! was realli funny when he took the tongs outta the oil and turned towards weepin and scalded his arm...*ouch*...

5 Steps On Making A Yummy And Healthy Fried Ice Cream
1. Heat oil to 190degrees
2. Slip unfried ice cream gently into the oil without any delay after taking it out from fridge
3. Flip ice cream carefully every ten seconds and do it twice
4. Haul up the fried ice cream, letting its oil drip away, and transfer to blotter paper
5. Blot oil and voila! Serve with chocalate or strawberry toppings. *CAUTION : HOT!*

tt was lame...cuz ruth passed the fried ice cream to bernie, and said 'hot hot'...den bern replied after taking the ice cream 'ouch ouch'...i tot tt was quite farni by itself den weepin went to add on, sayin tt ruth was tellin bern she's hot, den bern said ouch...*sweatdrop*...but was realli funni. melvin and jolynn were comparin who looked sexier wif the tongs, gongjiao was busy tryin to freeze the bell (which he eventualli did) hahax~...and it was a veri lively atmosphere, especialli when people are so supportive of us...like the teachers who delivered a dedication to other teachers and didn't wanna reveal their identity...hahax~ hmmm...aniwaes things were just going smoothly, and so was the money...you wouldn't get this satisfaction if you're earning money fer yourself...it's a totally different story, and you feel realli happi when you know you've done your part in benefitting others... :) even tho oil splattered over our shirts (esp maeyue's and ruth...i din see any one jiacheng's...hahax), the sweat and the heat, we perservered. hahax~

was expecting a half dae on fridae cuz the rumors were spreadin abt...*happi*...but at assembly, no mrs cheng, veri upsetting...so no half dae...yep...i tot i could miss pe so didn't bring mi pe t-shirt along...shiwei got realli sick and couldn't continue, so he lent mi his pe kit...sigh~ the new pe teacher looks quite okie, tho she sounds fierce...hahax~ got to haf free games and den xianlun got muscle cramp...received treatment once and den cramped again, so the match ended just like tt...we were playin wif some j1 class which was nt bad...lost to them 1-0, but we had nice chances...sigh...nvm, good game...o yar, sock oso got sick, voiceless...everiwan's getting sick! arrgh! *sneezes*

continued selling fic till 8pm, giving some of em to CLDDS who were so nice to provide us barbecued food...it reminded mi of the barbecue we had at mel's. their marshmellows were veri nice (but ours were nicer...hahax...thx lots again zhongming and the rest of cldds! :) ) was realli happi when we found out we had $700++ of profits on the overall...at tt point was veri happi, because we're completed more than 1/3 of our target...hope the upcoming projects will be better! :) went to watch drama fest onli to realise it was the last skit...meltu looked hot in his white shirt tho...hahax~ but the last skit was veri farni...*ahem ahem*...hahax~ tt guy is just so...so...so many yi shu xi bao in him (aka art mithiclorins)...*here's our closing piece, opening night*...caught it together wif christine, ruth, jiali n' jim...we rawkx man! hahax...sad tt the rest couldn't join us, cuz it was basicalli free, didn't hafta show any tix to get in...hahax...

yep...life's great ain't it? time to start mugging soon, hols are nt all play, but nt all muggin either...i'm still wondering if there're S04 and maldives outing...still waiting...or should i just start one? hmmmm...alreadi having 2 camps and a NS medical...time time! aniwaes, i feel i've been veri quiet recently, dunno wad's gotten into mi...i tink i'm becoming mute...arrgh! i miss the old me again...sigh~ rest well i must...aniwaes, to all yall out there, hols are here! cheer up, i'm sure things will look up for all of you having problems...promise! :)

*touched*

i'm just realli happi...not because all this is over, somehow i wish we could still do it tho...it's just the satisfaction you get when you work wif a group of totalli wonderful ppl who are so committed and passionate abt what they do, cheering you up, not daunted by any problems...and still holding tt high attitude...

it's just that, when you think things aren't gng well fer you, there'll alwaes be this group of people there to cheer you on and motivate you to do better.

thanx to ruth, christine, mel, jim, gongjiao, jolynn fer being so enthusiastic throughout the whole thing...thanx to bernie and jiali who still came back to help us even tho they were busy wif their rugby (which they won...hahax...dun see em small sized but they sure can do magic!)...thanx to people on the first dae, maeyue, jiacheng, weepin who helped the stall lots in the morning and sold the fastest batch of ice cream i've ever seen...thanx to the publicity com, keefe, richard, yichuen and melvin who pulled in so many people to buy ice cream from us (esp keefe, he rawkx lots, i tink he bought 3 himself, and pulled in many ppl)...thanx to the teachers who were so supportive of us buying our ice creams and helping us sell em too, and even sending dedications to other teachers...thanx to all the maldiviens who helped us sell tix, buy from us, or introduced their frens to buy...thanx all those who didn't know us, and yet stayed back to help us at the stall, you guys were amazing! i realli need to thanx dis ppl cuz they were veri enthusiastic as well, and even tho they didn't know us, they still helped lots...was realli touched by tt. thanx to CLDDS who were barbecuing beside us to provide us food, thanx to dance fer rehearsing beside us, keeping us entertained at the same time...and also not forgetting to thank all those who have bought ice creams from us, you did help us in one way or another...no matter how small your contributions may be, every dollar counts and i'm glad you guys bought from us!

i was realli happi by the end of it i almost cried...because we achieved abt 1/3 of our total target...which was a lot more from what i expected. not because i tot business would be bad, but i didn't noe the response was so overwhelming! hahax...and because of such enthusiastic ppl who sold the ice cream...everithin's just gng veri well now fer us! simple things that you do may just change a person's life...

ruth was telling mi abt how amazing maldives was...it was able to bond different people from different levels, ips, j1's and j2's together, which was absolutely true and realli amazing cuz, i can't even bond wif mi j1 class even tho i haf time wif em...and i've got to know many amazing people from there...the islanders, the kids, and also us...we've realli bonded. this is not some kinda superficial frenship, not hi-bye frens, we're one and we're realli proven that together we are an awesome team! i'm realli proud of those who truly made this possible, jiali frm organising com fer making this possible, the selling com (esp christine, ruth and mel) who were so enthusiastic, and just everiwan who gave us little bits of encouragements to motivate us...thanx to you, we're one step closer to our goal...

i cried when i reached home...because of everithin happening ard mi...they were tears of joy...for people who we've met 2 months ago and seeing them develop their potential, and becoming the veri wonderful people that they are...and also those people ard us fer being so supportive of what we did...my life has totalli changed...

shall blog later fer more...time to haf some breakfast...and quote ruth *i never did and never will regret going to maldives with such amazing people like you guys!* *teardrop*

check it out

shall do an online advert...

MALDIVES FUND RAISING EVENT
FRIED ICE CREAM : S$2
VISIT US IN THE CANTEEN ON THURS AND FRI

yep...please donate generously...it's for a good cause.

sunday was mi grandma's b'dae...went to yong chun yuan @ chinatown for celebrations. was realli fun meeting all of them, talking bout life, soccer, school and everithin else...also playing tricks on ppl. hahax...talk about rubbing shoulders...the food was actualli realli terrible...nt as nice as i expected, or as all of us expected. service was slow too...it took them a whole 30mins to serve the desert. the waiters were clumsy, first spilling water then tea, and didn't provide us wif vinegar fer sharks fin, so some of mi aunts who didn't noe used soy sauce (thinkin it was vinegar)...was laughing when they tasted and found out...the vinegar onli came AFTER the dish...sigh. but was still fun, taking photos, enjoying yourself, singing songs, watching tv (and seeing ru hua...eel...) it was quite a bliss...

den went home wif yisin, onli to find mi other cousin sitting outside mi flat...was here to settle old scores...kays, to continue our old tradition, mahjong. cuz the three of us started it abt 2 yrs ago...meet abt at least 5 times a year fer dis, and yep...things haf changed. but he camped outside mi house fer 1hr...lyke wad's outside? hahax...played from 10-1, and yep, lost quite a bit cuz i'm a little rusty on stuff...haven't touched tt fer 3mnths...i'm glad i didn't either...had our usual mee-break, wine, and yep, basically just enjoyed ourselves. later mi n' yisin went channel surfing while zhiyeu went fer gunbound, and we found tt starhub preview channel...was actualli showing HBO and hahax...it just looked so new and change is good...they din censor much tho...oops...hahax~ slept at ard 3...

monday was basically a totally slack day...didn't study, didn't care much abt work, just enjoy the moment. went to orchard in the afternoon fer some shopping and fer starwars3 wif mi cousin n' parents...the movie was aye...the effects were awesome but i didn't realli like the storyline...but yoda rawkx! hahax...4/5 bubbles...

todae was even slacker...first had maths test which i felt was okie (can pass but no hall of fame)...den was sleeping during chem lec. phew...the day went by just like tt...o yar, dis morn came earli to help ruth and jiali put up the maldives poster...super gao xiao...wanda, christine and bernie came along later...was realli funni cuz they tried to tie the string and the notice across the two sides of the canteen, tieing to the railing...as they were doing tt, those ppl walking up the stairs had to cross over the string which was abt two steps high, and hahax, was laughin...ruthu was tryin her best to get us to trust her, while partner tried to show her abilities...hahax...but we finally got it up. i muz sae tt the board was veri well done and is veri nice lor...serious...hope dis will boost our sales :) oh and mad cut mi hair todae -.- i dunno whether to cry or laugh. it started wif sock saeing tt mi hair was slanted (or uneven) happens that i brought a scissors todae (those hairstylist's kind cuz i needed to cut some twine, the other scissors are too sharp...) den mad gladly took it up and cut mi hair. hahax~ it was all over maisha's table in the end...was realli funni cuz she kept cutting the wrong hair, den...i din see how much hair i lost, din see how i looked lyke, but it's okie...hahax~

life has to go on, cherish everi moment of it...everiwan looks realli happi, i hope i'm nt seeing an illusion. cheer up everiwan! 3 more daes and tmr is investiture! hang in there ppl...if you're stressed, chill out and hold on...if you need help, ask mi anytime...jiayou ppl!

no more carolls...

yep. if you're read bout it...it's disappointing...considering the effore put in by man u...bet guanwen must be realli happi by now...

aniwaes, last nite's match was nothing but unlucky. went down to mi neighbour's house to watch cuz his dad and parents supported man u...hahax...no lar, couldn't get down to chijmes so went there...*salutes* cristiano ronaldo, ruud van nisterooy and wayne rooney for playing fantasticalli...esp ronaldo who scared the shits outta the arsenal defense by drbbling past 3 players...arsenal's defense was realli terrible and had 4 shots on goal in total...while man u had 15...and the ref contributed by nt giving a penalty for a blatant handball...sigh

o wells...tim howard wasn't inside so we lost the penalties...ended up penalties 5-4 to arsenal cuz to one save by lehmann whom i muz commend...was on form and yep, did his job by saving lotsa goals...sad but...that's how the things go...

looking back at time...i've realli changed. some people indirectly reminded me on mi state of mind rite now. i guess it's happy to know that there are people who realli remember you even tho you were nt close to them in the past...if you're reading dis, realli take care kays? i'm just realli sad that i've nt gotten to know you better earlier...and hope our friendship realli lasts. it has been a realli enduring journey for all of us, crying together, times that tested our limits...and you made it through. realli happi for you and hope things realli go well for you...you've suffered a lot, more than anyone, that i can say for sure...and yep, tho i may nt get to see you anytime soon, jiayou kays? realli miss you...

hope you're nt too stressed wif stuff...and yep...maldives meeting in june...dunno where, dunno what...hahax~ ideas...jiayou everiwan! one more week to the hols!

gimme your best shot

an interesting day...point of views changed suddenly, changing perceptions...

todae was actualli quite fun. looking at our timetable, it was quite slack...for maths mi mind wasn't working...was slacking during lectures...had physics SPA which was quite okie...den had GP which was more brainstorming (and was physically and mentally stoning)...yep...

something's wrong wif me...

A*s are coming and I'M NOT TREATING SCH SERIOUSLY!!!

maybe it's the pre-hols syndrome. or maybe the post-collegeday syndrome. or you can just call it plain slacking.

o wells, i better wake up...or else i'll be realli screwed...

was quite tempted to scream...pull my hair (not much tho)...anything...

i even slapped myself in an attempt to wake myself up...of course it was just an attempt...

*ouch*

nt used to seeing things going past me without me doing anything...muz get back to work! arrgh...aniwaes, todae's was the semi's between NJC and VJC...and the first bus left at 2pm, but apparently someone told nair bout tt (which i tink nair tot was a ploy to pon gp) so in the end our class was scheduled to leave at 2.50...just because of tt...and when we reached there, we missed 10mins of action...

kays...it was 0-0 when we reached...but the atmosphere was tense...because VJC were the defending champs from last yr...so it'll be quite a feat to even come to a draw...everiwa was cheering, and even tho VJC had stronger drums, dressed cheerleaders...we had our council...which of course had lots more enthusiasm than that group of...i dunno, VJCians? but heck tt...had people screaming in all directions, people cheering on specific ppl (lyke daowei...dunno whether tt guy was his dad or wadeva), referree kayu's, and lotsa stuff you'll expect if you are a patroitic NJCian...including those things...yep...hahax. was quite fun hearing tt, cuz no one minded (or i tink) and it was 'for a good cause'.

NJC had the first goal due bad defense on VJ's side, but VJ retaliated 1min later wif a corner...and they repeated tt twice, to give...erm...sadly 3-1 to VJ...but but...we tried our best...salutes to no. 27 and also daowei fer playing such a great game. it's not whether we win or lose, it's the experience tt matters...but we need to improve on our defense, set pieces...if onli...nono...muz look forward now...3rd place up fer grabs! hahax...NJC JIAYOU!

left there for great world city wif rizal xianlun sengee shiwei for a drink, den left for home via orchard 190...saw shihua at the busstop after the highway, walking home. actualli was realli happi when i did...i realli miss mi old frens lots, but time is never ard when you need it...sigh...

life...is it an illusion? or a disillision? *hmmm*

inspiration lost

it has been almost two months since i've been back, but i'm still missing it. i can't believe it, but withdrawal symptoms never go tt easily.

sigh...i miss the simple life...

time seems to just pass ever so quickly. things never seem to stop. i've lost a part of me to the battle wif time...i guess it's time to grab it back before i lose myself.

*sweatdrop*

yesterdae was track and field meet. and the large gang of guys (xianlun jason jim shiwei sengee jianann) were timekeepers fer it. was a realli slack job, and was actualli quite fun cuz we had a better view of the competition from the timekeepers shed (or wadeva you call it) even tho we were nt close to our house, but some aeries ppl were saeing their house ain't gonna win either, so it was funni to see frm both sides. of course we hope lignum won...(which of course we did, but lemme get into the better details first)...some of those who were running : wanda, liyan, suihang, aaron and of cuz bernie. actualli i tink the ips cannot do their best cuz they were oreadi brain drained cuz they had ct's earlier in the morn, which i heard wasn't tt easy...but you guys did a good job fer tt cuz you still ran. especialli liyan, who ran 3 races...800m gals, 4x400m, and 4x100m(eh...nt too sure). durin 4x400m, she was the last to run, den the gal before her crashed into her before passing her the baton. apparently when she fell, her shoe came off as well, but well, she ran wif one shoe...hahax...realli pro...erm, dis shows perseverance? hahax.

to other races, aaron ran for the 800m but didn't top the charts, suihang ran for 4x100m ip boys, wanda and liyan ran fer 4x100m, and bernie ran fer 4x100m house and class...and jim happened to be timin tt lane (who so enthu xia...hahax) but cannot cheat cuz got dave ard to double check the timing. was fun as we tried to compare timings...and it was amazing when our timings were exactly equal...we also had other items lyke 4x100m invitational gals (which onli had two contestants, sports sch and queensway...isn't the winner oreadi obvious) and 4x100m boys (which was realli fast)...and staff race of cuz...was desperately awaiting pauldavidson to pop up wif his jurrasic park shorts and running wif a basketball...didn't happen, realli upsetting...hahax...

at the end the prize presentation was quite okie...ppl spotting fer potentials, and also for familiar faces...in the end lignum got first for the sports meet on the overall, winning solaris by 3 pts...phew...but we still won, so that still counts fer something. was awaitin fer mass dance to be played, but nope...a little late as well, and had test todae, so yep...went home to mug.

i'm now hearing out the views of some ppl and how i can change...because i believe that's the onli way you can improve...things never seemed so crucial. i'm changing, everiwan is...it's onli how we view change as. i love the expericence, it's onli whether i change for better or worse...i want to be...i dunno. someone whom i see in others, and to improve on what i've lost...

and i'm tryin to talk more, cept tt mi mind's blank this few daes...gimme a few daes to recover...i'm seeing a different side of ppl...stressed ppl, happi ppl, caring ppl, cold ppl...and yep, tryin to adapt...change, is good...inspiration lost*

tired...still me

so happi tt nj finally gave us a break from sch life...and it's just after college dae! hahax...

slacking on a monday morning...is just so shiok...haven't been out wif mi mum fer some time, so had breakfast wif her at JP McCafe...2 cheesecakes, 1 Mochaccino, 1 Capucinno, 2 Sausage McMuffins...yumyum...alwaes so good to go out wif mi mum...hahax. i'm tryin to treasure the time spent wif mi family, nt tt i'm forced to, but it's just realli fun to be out wif em...esp mi cousins, who unfortunately are all busy at the moment. went ard window shopping and entered liberty mart where i saw stuff i've never seen before...different dressings, bacon bits and many european stuff...esp the wine. =) i love wine, but i'm nt addicted to it in any way...it's just plain nice if you noe how to enjoy it.

went to KAP later to meet up wif the guitar ppl to mug, which unfortunately onli 6 ppl turned up. sally, kaiyun, amy, kk, joeseph and shiwei who came later...xianz...tried to do chem bonding but died of exhaustion...yawnx~ and yep, went home at 3...

and currently now listening to charged particles lecture again cuz i dun understand a single thing, and still nt absorbing any...to the ips, gud luck fer your assesments yar? jiayou...and i still haf no idea on wad to do fer the pubstunt...sigh...

everiwan is like a ruler, there's a limit to how much we can bend before we snap

mi/kk/joeseph

leeping/amy/sally/kaiyun/florentina/mi

the final days

okies...the long nitez period is finally over. i'm so looking forward to the rest of the year...

then again, it just seems so stupid...are exams realli fun?

*sweatdrop*

kays, shall take back what i said...hahax...aniwaes, college dae was yesterday and of cuz it was tiring. pain, sweat, frostbites, and even tears...haiz~

but it was all worth it. i noe it sounds really cliche, but it's true...i was so happi that finalli one dae, i got my 8hrs of sleep...haven't had that in ages. den was slacking the whole morning, on the web, thinking of things that were about to happen. i've pictured this years college day to be fun and exciting, full of vive...and yep, when i reached school, what i pictured was just a small portion of what happened.

most j1's were there, making preparations for their foodfair...was quite entertaining seeing them play with watermelons and aluminium foils...while the performers were busy preparing for their various items. the usual high pitch, the usual instruments, and of course guitar. i considered myself early for the first time, even tho i was onli five minutes ahead of time, and reached the container, onli to be greeted by notes and more notes...homework...yep...muggers, but everiwan's experiencing the lack of time, so can't exactly blame them fer doing what they did. it's onli ppl lyke mi who choose to slack...there's alwaes sunday and monday rite? hahax~ *smiles to self* met joseph after that and i tink we slacked for a while, asking rizal for cakes (cuz the angklung instructor gave each one of em free cakes...sheets...hahax...and where's ours? *i shall be nice.. =)* ) we shifted our practice to lt5 where it was realli freakin cold, freezing mi fingers and even the bongos...i swear my fingers hurt when i plucked the strings, felt like i was back at SCH...memorable...

went back to CA later to watch russel peters and leeping showed mi some clips of her bro and mi...aiyah, both of em haf the same characters, and pardon mi fer stealing your slogan for mi blog...*si3nt bu+ vi0ent*...but i came up wif the design :) ...later went to the foodfair and stoned there wif shiwei on the steps of linkway...apparently ms ng took our wallets and cells for safekeeping at 4.15, so we were penniless...den when ppl came up to us we'll just shun them away...o wells...i din get to eat anythin and walk ard...maybe cuz i was too tired, but yep...sigh~

gng back there, we had a final practice and left for the hall, where whitbey was asking us to move our arses cuz we were late. went up and did our stuff...a few glitches here and there, but it was awesome...well done guitar! realli gud job lar...it sounded realli good, even tho something fell backstage and the condutress's stand was squeaky...hahax...*hiak hiak hiak*...went back to CA for a short recording of granada, blackbird and brazillian street dance...was realli cool, and i'm waiting for it to be posted...i want it lor...to keep as memories...

left fer serene after that, apparently caught in between 3 groups, guitar, maldives and S04 gang...hahax...went to serene wif S04...and met maldives ppl after tt cuz they came later...o...met ahsoh as well...btw, xl and jim were tryin to squeeze into the kiddy seat, all on photos...den partner was sittin on a kiddy ride. was telling her she had no childhood cuz she put 2x10cents in instead of 1x20cents...hahax. luckily there was no one ard xcept us...were talkin bout I:)3As and their (realli lame) logo...and i finally got the maldives tag! so cool lar...overall, it ended up wif a rainy dae...rainy but warm...

to all the backstage people...thank you lots. i can't say how much appreciation we leave you with, but can't believe you ppl haf a camp todae...it's realli tiring for you guys, and i just wanna sae, you've done and awesome job and yep, hang in there fer the camp...to everiwan else, jiayou fer the weekend, hang in there, i see the hols coming nearer. missing you, and take care yar?

revitalised

a gud dae's rest...finalli. i tink i sorta deserve it...hahax...

to all those preparing for college dae tmr, yep, rest well tonite, especially the stage crew. without you, all this wouldn't be possible...and to all performing members, let's rock the world tmr! hahax~

i tink the long routine has made me someone i despise, easily irritated and looking tired...i'm tryin to change my image, my attitude, but it just seems so hard...maybe it's all in the heart...i need more rest~

then again, rest doesn't seem so enticing now...with this new element of surprise. i feel as if something wonderful is gonna happen soon...some surprise, and i can't wait for it, but i don't realli know wad...hmmm

o wells, life's games...i'm missing myself again.

i was actualli so looking forward to todae, as we end earli, and there's no GP, no training, no PE, and could go home earli...of course the latter was true, but yep...

Quote from jason...'the stupidest thing i did in NJ'

apparently we had to clean the porch...the one near the atrium...the one where the VIP was arriving tmr for college dae. apparently we had to sweep the carpark...fine enuff...

but sweep the carpark clean of leaves? (which according to jim followed a Poisson distribution)

lyke there's any use...we sweep todae, leaves will still fall down later, especially when there's a naturally big fan in NJ which apparently is running on an infinite power supply.

so it's clean, 1 min later 3 leaves appear, and so on...it's just a cycle that refuses to stop.

and another thing we were supposed to do...clean the pillars near the atrium for black spots...

reason why i see this as a means NJ finds to torture us...they painted the walls which some of them cannot be seen inside the college...and nt the walls outside. why? can't they just paint the walls that are MORE visible before they concentrate on what is hidden?

and yep, NJ's color combi is realli terrible...

outside the hall, you can see a rainbow of tubes...blue, green, yellow, red...and they had to paint the overhead LAN casing pink in front of the white background...

see the pictures in melly's blog? it's just horrible...and to think that the painters smoke at the same time...we could even smell some of the leftoevers from the LT3...smokers...it's even worse than smoking instead.

so yep, we were just the bunch of followers cleaning the walls, and mopping the floor, which i knew made esther and sock realli irritated...

honestly, i would scream if i were them.

after mopping the floor, people would follow up wif their diry footprints before the water evaporated, and then the cycle continues...mop, step, mop, step...arrgh...

later when we left, met maeyue, weiling and florentina, who were supposed to clean the flowerpots...what next? the big leaves in the atrium (which jason was carressing throughout the cleaning process) hinted tt it reminded us bout maldives, and they took the wet towels and tried to smack mi...hahax...

and later todae, someone told mi this little bug called TB is spreading in NJ! arrgh! it's just scary when outta blue you find this kinda stuff happening, and you knew nuthin abt it before...ARRGH! *we must nt panic*...

kays...tt's mi 50cents worth...shall go back to slacking...tmr's college dae..jiayou everiwan! :)

*dead beat*

i miss those days...freedom. going home early. having enuff sleep. gng down to the park just to clear my mind. writing stuff. listening to music.

but i'm sure they'll be back soon.

ironical it is, but i'm awaiting college dae to come and go...come because i can't wait to see others perform, and also to perform (mi fav bongos...tho mi hands hurt now after all that beating and drumming...sore fingers)...go because i'll be free after tt, no more late days, no more training, finalli some time to spend wif mi frens, family and myself...hahax...i'm just missing those times...

days haf been tiring. yesterdae's full-dress rehearsals were gud...whitbey din sae anything much, but we managed to play chinese dance's piece on guitar, some parts...hahax...had a realli funky tune to it...and actualli i love the music and their moves...realli cool...

kays i'm crapping...

but aniwae, todae was terrible. totalli PMS dae fer mi. realli...had a bad mood from the start of the dae, and was realli tired till i started playing the bongos at 5...maybe the pain made me awake, but yep. todae's realli terrible. sorry if i offended anyone...after rehearsals went fer dinner wif mad, grace, shiwei at serene macs. hahax...they wanted to go toa payoh at first, but i persuaded em nt to...hahax. thx again guys! but was realli fun talkin to you guys again...mad was lyke mixing sugar, salt, chilli, coke and curry sauce together...den grace couldn't eat properly, alwaes some food coming out frm her mouth...lyke someone i noe...hahax...but was realli fun talking to you ppl, remembering those times we had and stuff...

maybe it's the time factor, but i'm seriously missing everiwan. i dun want those days to die off, i'm still dreaming of maldives here and there, the sand and sea...missing you ppl because you ppl are realli veri special and yep, haf a realli gud heart...will try nt to let the kudafarians down...we will raised the $2k, one way or another, for all the heart and soul and things they've done for us...

tt's all...a simple thought...mi blogs are getting worse...tryin to revive the spirit...pls gimme some ideas on how to improve...i'm running dry...thx lots and nitez (-.-)

*grinz*

nt being cheeky here, but hahax...just realli happi nowadays...still sick and tryin to find miself, but i'm getting the hang of it. trying mi best to recover from my loss...i'm just being me again, but todae shall go on a higher note...realli nice song...and even tho we got a halfdae todae...wasn't tt happi...maybe because i expected it liao or something...hahax. but i brought barney the meh-meh back wif mi todae...dun worri, it's in good hands...:)

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finalli...

waah...finalli...took me three hours to figure out how to get mi first blogskin working. cuz i'm nt all that familiar wif html and stuff, so yep.

at least it looks nice rite? hahax...

yep...thx lots fer the comments...took mi quite long to find a good blogskin, and i'm pretty sure i've found one! hahax...

happi mothers' dae everiwan! to all mothers out there...thankx fer all the unconditional love and concern you've given to us, and also the things you've done for us! you've surely changed our lives...and to all those mothers-to-be...it's realli great being a mother! (and we need more kids for our population as well of cuz...hahax...)

was just messaging ppl todae and was realli touching. yep, i realli miss those moments we had in maldives, free from stress and stuff, right christine? hahax...could still remember the dae where we were supposed to select partners for mass dance...and yep...was glad that i've chosen you! hahax...kays...but i'm nt saeing the rest we're gud or wadeva, everiwan's just special in your own ways! :) den i kept screwing up the steps over and over again, but you kept saeing tt i had improved...your enthusiasm is just veri refreshing lor. it's who you are that makes you different! realli miss those times, walking on the sand, hanging out by the seaside, watching the waves crashing into the corals...playing with hermit crabs, seeing them crawl over your hands...smiling to each other, knowing that the warmth is true...looking up into the sky, clear skies...having a boat ride towards an unknown island, enjoying the sea breeze...having an open barbecue, swimming over the whole island while waiting, having fun seeing corals...sigh~ i realli miss those daes...but i'll nt give up everithin fer it...i will never give up the amazing friendship i've forged wif you ppl...i realli miss all of you...

woke up immediately when it rained cuz the window was open. i can clearly remember us the nite when it rained...i remember i was opening mi mouth and a drop entered...and den heard someone shouting to close the windows. was so fun...cuz it was realli cooling after tt, and there was a window which cannot be closed...hahax~ memories...

went down to mi grandma's house fer mothers' dae celebrations...was quite happi seeing those familiar faces...quite sad tt one of mi cousin couldn't make it cuz he was sick at home wif his 40degrees...sigh...tonsilitis...i just recovered from it...heys yisin, take care yar? i also wish i had 2 daes mc, but...hahax...

things are looking great, and college dae is just round the corner...chant fer full dae tmr kay guys? hahax...aniwaes, to all kudafarians...yep...grandstand center 7.30am...i'll be there...cheer up guys...things are opening up...and we'll show em what we're worth...

*burnt out*

still busy as usual, and now i'm totalli burnt out...realli tired nowadays...most of the time i dun even haf 4hrs of slp.

yep...sorta held up by guitar pracs, college day rehearsals and also food fair...

i'm so looking forward to the end of next week...

even tho that means tt i'll haf no more guitar pracs, i can still meet up wif em on a less regular basis...i miss guitar pracs, but it's still realli tiring...

and to make it worse, rehearsals like todae's up to 9.30pm...without dinner...

can't wait...to get mi own time back, to get mi time to find miself. i tink this hectic schedule's getting the better of mi, and losing the more enthusiastic side of mi~

arrgh.

o wells, soon~...real soon...

i guess i'm realli missing what i used to do...the time i used to haf...slacking in front of the tv, gng downstairs to enjoy freshair, chatting on the phone wif frens, gng out wif em, and also muggin (ultimate goal : slack later)...yep...time, a commodity most important in life.

nvm...hang in there ppl! we'll be happi ppl after college dae, i tink...hahax...

back to mi life, i guess my viewpoint is starting to shift...it's mi body's tt's getting into mi mind...i'm sorta losing mi consciousness, losing what i had...o wells, hope to change it back~ but it's those little things that get into your way in life...even tho you're quite certain bout what you're doing, it just seems to alwaes backfire on you...but it's the fatigue i guess...i'm getting lazier now, lots lazier, more tired, more easily irritated than before...shall rest and revert.

o yars...todae during maths lecture, ms ng was tryin to explain some vertical circular motion stuff, and den she brought two sheep along. the grey one was called barney and the white one was called bernie...*sweatdrop*...lol...kays, ms ng's veri creative wif names...hahax~ den after tt she let shiwei take care of barney cuz yep, he just wanted to hold it fer a dae...it's realli cute lor...at the end of the lecture xianlun jim n' i were taking photos of both of em~ veri cute lar, and veri fluffy...reminds mi of mi childhood daes...do you remember the first soft toy that you ever got? hahax...i tink mine was a catapillar...a pink one...but was quite fun to play wif it tho...shall go find it again~ hehex~

later, physics was actualli quite long...stupid prac we had, den peter thia kept announcing fer the j1 classes to get ready so loud tt all of us in the prac block and possibly any other block could hear it...was darn irritating but quite farni also...o...cuz todae the j1's were supposed to go to OCS (i tink it's fer S-Cube Seminar), den they left the sch earli and stuff...yep...but todae fer physics i was supposed to present...sheesh~ was okie presenting, but was tiring as well...was enduring the after-effects of late nite sleep~ i want mi slp, but i just can't ignore mi work and stuff, even tho i'm startin late at 11...sigh~ life's hectic schedule...even boss was hoping the lesson ended earlier...was waiting and counting down...

aniwaes, moving on, went to lounge to play uno during break...uno...family game? hahax~ actualli was realli fun...reminiscing the past...altho i never won a single round in a five player game, but it's still fun to +2 in a chain to form +14, and also purposely putting the colour your opponet doesn't have...hahax~ but before long it started pouring outside...could see a waterfall at the steps of the amphi...was realli cool, but mi camera sucks...but it's still realli cool...was freezin cold btw...

ate pasta for lunch, which wasn't any nicer than the noodle stall's...noodles...was quite sick actualli...had to release after pe cuz of tt...and it wasn't tt nutritional either...hahax~ was realli cold as well, cuz the fan was blowing, and it was still raining...brr...mad was busy taking photos of stuff wif mi phone, and yep...photo taking began...it's time you got a camera phone...hahax~

after pe was tech run...and was realli terrible, altho whitbey's scolding's were scary yet farni...was realli tiring...tt's where i'm left now...i'm sure those who were there will say the same...esp the backstage and pa...gud job done~...but todae ms ng learnt how to hit the beat for bongos for 'brazillian street dance'...was realli nice...but i'm still the bongoist of cuz~ hahax...

went to kap to meet the kudafarians fer discussion, but i reached there lyke 10pm...was freakin late...met dot, mic, bern, jiali, jim, mel, meltu, yichuen there...i tink you guys haf seriously done a realli good job on tt...thought bout everithin, and it seems to be working out well...dun worri kays? college dae will be a success...thx to you ppl and also jiali who's in charge...you did a seriously good job kays? leadership...you can do it!

to sum todae...i'll seperate the day into the realli good...and things that can be better
HAPPENING THINGS TODAE:
BAND GOT GOLD WITH HONORS FOR SYF CENTRAL JUDGINGCOMING MON WILL HAF HALF DAE
BERN GOT 3RD FOR HER 200M RUN
SETTLED FOOD FAIR STUFF
WHITBEY DIDN'T REALLI SCREW US! a little...but tt's veri gud liao...

tmr will be a better dae:
dot nearly lost her phone
din hand up either physics stuff
jiali lost her phone
mr koh faked us saeing todae's half dae

for all the not-so-good...all i can sae...tmr will be a better dae, and sometimes, life plays around wif you...just make sure that you're nt totalli affected by it and cheer up! looking at things more positively and stuff, being more alert (meaning rest more first...den can be alert)...positivity...nt everithin is your fault...things in life are just like that...ups and downs are meant to build you for the better! cheer up kays? nitez ppl...realli tired liao...:)

congrats everiwan...

and yep...todae's just one of those great days for us they were talking about.

daes where dreams became reality, daes where aspirations became truth...

of course it's not me, tho i hope it was...but i already had my great dae less than one week before...

but i'm still realli happi for all of em.

congrats to choir for gettin gold in syf central judgin! hahax...realli proud of you ppl, and veri happi too...
congrats to chinese orchestra for getting gold as well...realli happi fer you guys as well
congrats to jiali fer being iDeas head...hahax...told you liao, enjoy your new post! =)
congrats to michael fer being Feedback Unit head...lol...gonna be a total new sch...hahax~
congrats to dot fer being secretary...our etna gng in...realli happi fer you too!
and pending congrats to band for getting gold...pending...but i'm pretty sure...

an auspicious day...i'm glad i'm in njc fer tt...meeting such wonderful ppl wif such potential...kays i'm crapping but it's true lor...i'm realli happi =)

back to sch...sch was gud...i tink...wif ms ng and miss ow still on course, we had lum for maths and a scary chem teacher for...erm yar, chem...lum was...as usual...wif his constipated squeezed voice...but the chem teacher, i shan't elaborate...todae's pe was quite fun actualli. we had high jump fer pe, and we learnt some techniques and stuff, which was quite fun cuz we realli got to jump and altho the mat was hot and rough, we still had fun watching one another...in the end it was the showdown between rizal and shiwei...152cm...rizal's realli good, but of cuz shiwei's too...hahax. carrying on, maths lec was just lidat and den during civics discussed a short business proposal fer college dae food fair wif melly, tho she was in a rush...but aniwaes, good job...

guitar prac was actualli quite slack at the beginning cuz there was onli 40% of our total strength as many had bio SPA todae, so yep...first time guitar one's numbers seem significant...was kinda weird and a little screwed up. wonder how the j1's felt, but then left fer the brazilian dance training...nt the dance, the song...was playing bongos fer tt and i tink it's realli cool! the tune's realli funky and also the bass runs...but i'm still glad to be part of it of cuz...:)

aniwaes, life's like tt...still coughing...all the best to band fer syf tmr and bring home the glory...cheers everiwan...and we're all meeting on fri night fer dinner! hahax...7pm at kap kudafarians...cheers! so happi lar...haven't seen everiwan fer a long time liao...

system down

i tink it's time i changed mi template...it looks pretty...eel...hahax~ so anyone who spots a nice template out there pls tell mi kays...

o wells, aniwae's syf's over, and the treat yesterdae was fantastic...i guess...

it's marche for goodness sake, of cuz it's good.

aniwaes, thx to the gold during syf, ms ng treated us to marche which of cuz was one of the most expensive restaurants i've ever been. one steak cost $11.20. you may think tt's cheap, but what if i told you it was jus fer the steak alone...the piece of meat which is smaller than an A4 paper. $11.20. Wow. And how about a bowl of soup for $4? Or a plate of sitr fried veges for $6.90, barely enuff for you as an appetiser? Wow...

But it's a treat, remember?

So what if the treat's onli $12 bucks? it's still a treat rite? hahax...it was realli fun seeing everiwan (or most of us back together) for the first time, on non-cca stuff. everiwan seemed happi, or they seemed happi to me. but was quite sad as mr koh was sick and couldn't come, even tho he got a partition for us in marche (swiss wad?) den we went ard getting food, walking round after round, looking at the prices and den moving away. haiz...indecisive we were, but in the end we settled for rosti (national dish of german-switzerland)...mainly just potatoes sautered in butter, but it's realli nice cuz i love potatioes! hahax...it cost $4.90, but den later we went to get other stuff, like rib-eye steak and calamari which added up to abt $20++ dollars, but cuz 3 of us shared (sanjay shiwei mi) den it was quite worth it. the steak was awesome! could feel the tender medium rare beer, and the calamari was nt bad (better known as sotong)...as in fried calamari...was tryin to get sambal stingray but apparently there wasn't so we were thinkin of seabass (not bass, could remember sanjay and shiwei tryin to enact playing bass in water, and den shiwei even asked the fish to gif him a good base run...*sweatdrop*)...o wells, and in the end they asked us to enact or replay out the Russel Peters clip. for those of you who haf nt heard, it's abt this indian comedian talking on the stage for 45mins.

sounds boring? think again.

i watched the clip 7 freakin times for goodness sake...and still laughed at it...

realli realli funni lar...he was discriminating every race, jamaicans, chinese, indians, canadians, italians, south africans...realli realli funni. he could fake out the tone of every race veri well, and his face expression was...hahax...realli darn farni. the one video clip you must watch if you wanna die laughing...hahax...was tryin mi best to sae the chinese scene...thirty five dollars...o wells, happi you guys were entertained...den we played zhong ji mi ma and murderer (aka mafia) (learnt tt frm first 3 mnths) and in the end we played bout 3 rounds before we left to shop for ms ng's, mr toh's and mr koh's pressie...amy and kaiyun were beggin to play again...hahax...desperados...

shopping for their pressie was quite fun actualli...gng ard gift sections at taka...kays, maybe i'm just hahax...quite a shopaholic and looking fer mi future too...hahax...go figure. seeing soft toys just make mi quite happi, n' hahax...was looking for something to give mi fren...but couldn't find it there. sigh...but was still real fun. tiring but fun, but of cuz we couldn't outlast the gals who spent abt 45mins there...hahax. eventualli got the stuff we wanted and then headed home wif kaiyun and amy...

started off wif a cough todae morn, and the maths test was quite okie, cept tt i couldn't do the last question...and in the end felt quite screwed. but after tt, jim got hyper. dunno why, just hyper...was quite scary actualli...i tot i used to be veri hyper, but he's just lots worse. hahax...o wells, we haf our up and down daes...went to west mall to eat and now i'm home...yawnz

to those out there, esp christine, ruth, maeyue, fenella and sixun...GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR SYF! DUN WORRI KAYS, YOU'LL DO FINE! hahax...yawnz~ take care yall...guitar prac tmr! yays! and yep, i wanna haf a maldivien lunch...missing you guys lots...

*sabretooth squirrel*

smell the fresh air...ahh....

i'm beginning to see what lies beyond that silver lining. how precious that something can be in your darkest moments, in the times of fear, in your chain of doubts.

hope.

any hope is good. hope, something you can look forward to, something to make you perceive a better future, something that just makes you feel good and having an aim in life.

a silent dream, a quiet vision, a hopeless thought, a strong desire...

hope.

i'm been clinging onto that for mi whole life, looking for something better, something that'll change you, something that you can alwaes look forward to, even after 20000 years. hahax, was watching ice age and quite impressed by the persistence of mi buddy, sabretooth squirrel...holding on to his acorn frm the start and even when he was frozen, he was still abt to get his acorn back. and when he unfroze 20000 years later he tried to get his acorn but the acorn floated away while his limbs were still stuck in ice...and he got pissed, realli angry, but then hit a tree and a large coconut dropped and he settled for tt...which means it's adaptable and willing to change fer the better. it's so cute lar...tho it alwaes ends up getting into trouble everitime, cracking glaciers, getting struck by lightning, beaten by sabers, and losing his favorite acorn and den causing a volcano...so cute lar...

aniwaes, life is looking gud fer mi...looking forward to the future, but we muz haf an outing. muz meet xia~ long time haven't had a chance to see you guys all together, other than tt time during bbq...i want another...sigh...o wells, things...life...experimentation phase...muz get everiwan back, tho everiwan is busy wif almost everithing tt you can tink of...college dae, syf, tests, life...everithin...so it's realli hard...sigh...realli miss you guys and the daes we had...under our piece of maldivien sky...

o wells, to zhiyeu, our guitar rawkx...to guitar club, we all rock...and so looking forward to tmr...tired, but it's the first dae of may ain't it? happi labour dae guys...enjoy tmr...and things gonna be alright...:)