happi teachers' day!

happi teachers' day once again! maybe it's nt time yet...but yar...teachers' dae is nt onli fer teachers, it's also for those who have guided people thru the way of their lives...so yar, happi teachers' day to you guys!

todae was great...esp NJ's celebrations! so fun! it all started out wif the usual morning...but you see lotsa ppl wif presents and stuff. it's refreshing...to see people in different colors looking happier...and nt muggin. hahax...and i guess colours do make a better dae! so todae...we had our aces dae (is tt how you spell it) and we had kickboxing! apparently mr neo and also mr chris ho were the instructors...so naturalli it was just gonna be realli funny! just imagine them sleeveless and wearing shorts...wif gloves...hahax! it's just realli...erm...cool? hahax...but aniwaes, at least this year it was still better than last yrs. we got lots more participation cuz the moves were...nicer? and yar, we realli did sweat it out. *i love nj!*...box box box box...*you love nj!*...box box box box...*we love nj!* it's just realli funny, but i tink it did bring out the spirit in us...esp wif chris ho's *ha!* and *hur!*...and his stylo-milo moves...more of fake kung fu and poser-ism, but it was realli funni and cranky! overall it was a success...so the otherside of teachers...:D

later we had some performances, but i must commend the MCs...who are pretty farni sometimes...wif their remarks and stuff...the *angel* and the *devil*. both choir items were great, but it's the PA who screwed up again and again...wif volume control and track skipping. sighs...council item was pretty nice too, wif alfred doing the lion roar in front of the stage (like the start of every looney tunes and you haf the lion roaring...and he was wearing a lion costume! wif a tail!) realli funny, and wif some MIB, and partner and stead were acting as plants! hahax! but they were realli funny popping their heads outta the canvas...wif their hands as leaves and petals! realli cute! hahax! and andre wif mr menon's trademark PE suit! other performances like the IP band (playing collide and you and me) which was pretty farni cuz tt guy was blatantly lip-singing with the person behind him singing for him! but the item was realli funni and unique! and also malay dance wif *dun phunk wif my heart* must sae tt it was pretty well done!

and yar...overall it was realli great! esp the class party where we had pictionary, and gave miss ng and the rest of the teachers their present (including miss yee and...yar...the siren...and car...thingy...)...and mad made wonderful bronies fer us! so nice! and lotsa chocolates meaning lotsa endorphins! hahax!one person i'll like to realli congratulate and praise is ruth!! you've done a great job for this teachers dae! and also the rest of your com as well, you guys did a realli great job! now you haf more time fer yourself, muz bao zhong okie? dun want to see you suffer again! :D

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i tink i'm missing the old times...those swiss periods. but i guess we all hafta move on...somehow this passion for mi secondary school has died. maybe it's because most of our teachers have left...maybe it's because we're all in different places. or i feel my view of life has totally been altered. the life i am living now is totally different from what i was before, some for the better, some for the worse, but i've changed...so yar. if there are any swiss mates reading this, don't be disheartened...swiss has been a place where i have learnt the important lessons about friendship and relationships...let it be an inspiration for the rest of us...

aniwaes...went home after tt fer a short break...and headed out to Lot1 for Sakae wif xianlun sengee and shiwei...was pretty fun eating and chatting wif em, and got to know more of xl's personality...hahax! but i guess it's one of the rare times to eat wif em fer such a long time. i'll realli miss the class. maybe life isn't tt simple after all...wasabiko!

just remembered a quote from the teachers' dae performance...teachers are like candles, providing us light by consuming themselves. it's pretty true, and i just wanna thank all teachers fer being tt wonderful ppl tt you alreadi are! jiayou! *and please be lenient wif our scripts...hahax*

hahax...another thing...mass dance rawkx! can't tink about how long it has been...i miss dancing wif partner...but yar, it sure has been refreshing to dance wif someone else! sixun you rawk! hahax!

life in a soap opera

it all seems so natural to have life running like clockwork. even though the clockwork involves a lot...and a lot of mugging...hahax...shall not dwelve into that world anymore.

just woke up from a very long nap again...even though i had more than enuff sleep the night before...dunno wad's gotten into me either, but i shall not complain. i guess other than the flu bug, everithin's fine...desperately trying to resist the fever bug from my dad, and also from other friends as well. quite scary...there seems to be an epidemic...there's at least 4 people i know with the same symptoms...so get well soon! *prays for them*

shall not talk about gp todae...it's just too...nvm lar i tink i'm okie wif it but yar...dun tink i'll do realli well. but i'm nt worrying abt tt anymore...it's over and i guess there's nuthin i can do abt it. hahax...i tink i'm crappin, but yar, hope things work out fine!

aniwaes i guess everiwan's realli stressed up one way or another, so i shall help some particular company advertise...Swensens! their ice-cream is just so so so nice! can't stress tt...because they contain a lot...and realli a lot of yummy chocolate (hot fudge and yar...more chocolate ice cream!), which makes you feel realli happy (fer a short time onli of course...hahax...endorphins)! and sundaes are now onli $4 (till the end of august...which is lyke...erm tmr? hahax) just pschoed mi parents to go there to eat...and yep it's realli nice! ah!

todae was a pretty slack day...direct from gp...i tink everiwan is lyke...finally...or shucks i'm dead...but aniwaes there's this little feeling of relief. woke up on the wrong side, and ended up in sch sleeping...had a hard time walking up as both legs were numb. some relief tho...todae was quite fun i tink...more relaxed than any other day. no GP, and also nothing much to do...sadly to say i didn't see anyone this morn...nor throughout the day which was kinda shocking...other than bernie who was maktabbing, melvin wif his grin, weepin and jiacheng...nvm it's okie, i tink i'll get to see em tmr!

speaking of tmr...which happens to be teachers' day eve...makes me remember of lotsa sec sch stuff tt has happened. our usual soccer meets, toilet breaks, terrorising teachers and also creating havoc...hahax...remember those times definitely, where we did things like there was no tomorrow. running about like free radicals thinking we were invincible...ah tt was so long ago...but i'm not forgetting those times. i miss my old school, but i seem to be missing nj more even though i'm going to sch everidae. it seems that time has been sorta shortened...and i feel tt veri soon...we'll be leaving. i hate that feeling of seperation, esp frm mi closest friends...and mi inspiration...it just happened so suddenly. our lives are bound by it...time...haiz...

and it just occured to mi tt we may get whacked by certain teachers...a certain teacher...soon...fer what we gave to her...hahax...i shan't say who, but the gift is just...right for the occasion? i dunno...we'll find out soon, hope she doesn't whack us...hahax.

went to pan pacific todae wif xianlun and jim fer the UK universities fair...must say this is the second time i'm gng to tt area this week...gonna be a third soon! but aniwaes, reached the Milenia and saw watches wif 32k price tags on em (like...what the...yar...) and then went fer the fair. apparently it just started as some guy was sticking the arrow on some direction board for the fair...so we went in, koped a few brochures, and talked to Mr Stuart Holmes...admissions tutor or...wad's tt...from University of Manchester...had fun talking to him abt chem engine, and he made jim feel so outcast because xl and i were aimin fer chem engine, and he was the chem engine teacher...so was psychoing jim to change his mind. aniwaes i tink i got a better insight on chem engine...and also the life. but first...A's! dun tink so much first...prelim's aren't even over yet...sighs...

coming back, there was no other uni of choice, so we collected the prospectus and walked out, filling in a survey...and got a free wrist band...another one...and all i hafta sae is xl is a cheeky guy...shan't elaborate much...hahax! so much fer action at the esplanade...so it's the place where they bring kids to visit during the day to spice up the action. esp the library...so contrary...the teacher was shouting for the kids to keep quiet outside the library. but must sae tt it's a gud place fer music and dance...shall go there to refer to some scores if i haf the time...it's pretty nice and sweet...and realli good to slp, provided i don't snore...o yar...to publicise fer another company...PAN PACIFIC BUFFET! FULL OF FRESH SEAFOOD, OYSTERS, STEAKS, FISH, CAKES, DESERT, AND EVERYTHING ELSE! but yar...quite ex...but it's darn nice! and it's a gud place to slp...hahax...

chocolates...are realli ex! 100g fer $13.20, can you believe it? but o wells...fer a high class chocolate...i haf nuthin to sae...so the cheaper alternative is alwaes swensens! hahax...went home after muggin...slept on 171 all the way till bukit panjang plaza where we got something finally...it's within budget and nice! went fer swensens after that...leaving mi with those endorphins...sighs...but i'm feelin high!

*i have nothing to prove to others; i have everything to prove to myself* shall blog more soon! feel lyke i'm losing touch...cya!

what a life...

okie...i guess time has caught up on mi for some reason. time to buck up! realli scared now...and it's onli 3 daes to GP prelims! arrgh! *panics*

aniwaes todae was a pretty great dae...quite ironic actualli. felt happy and sad at the same time. guess because todae's our last PE lesson! sighs...as we were happily playing the most possibly last floorball game of JC, or maybe even in our lives...just had tt thought. it just hurts to think...these are the people you had your smiles, your enthusiasm, your cheers and also your friendship with. the sweat...the saliva...the blood...all for your class...it's just great. life will never be the same without PE...i bet i'll miss it...so will many of mi classmates and schoolmates.

and i din see stead todae. i tot i would see her...but apparently it rained todae! just sad...because after the rain the skies were just so clear...why couldn't the rain wait fer later? *sighs*...haben seen her fer two daes...o wells. at least i can feel she's okie!

*inspiration lost*

forgot what i wanted to say...but *someone* gave me a great idea on what to write. hahax...kidding. actualli there are people ard us that are realli great. they hide their sadness and pain, showing you a smile just so that you dun worri...sometimes we just want to worry so that we can help them, but they prefer to keep the pain to themselves. *sighs* but deep inside, they're wonderful people, and they are alwaes there to brighten your dae!

one example is...partner! from the time i knew her in maldives till now, she's never changed much...being that super enthusiastic and cheery person, tryin her best to make our daes. it all started wif tt dance...sure was a dance to remember. hahax...mass dance lar! but i knew her because she was open and so ready to help people...so did i pick you or did you pick me? hahax...aniwaes so as it went, she patiently guided me along the way, and even tho i'm still screwing up the last step, she was alwaes there to give me moral support. she's seen as an inspiration to her peers, alwaes tryin to help and clearing important concepts (hahax...sounds so testimonial-ish)...she's also veri wonderful because she has been coping with all the workload by herself...and made quite a lot of painful decisions by herself. i guess, it just hurts to know what one has to go through at this point of time where time is no longer a luxury...moving so fast, but i'm glad she's going thru this period of uncertainty wif confidence and optimism. i'm sure it will lead her to greater heights, because she's just great! she's alwaes willing to lend a helping hand to her frens, and spurs them to work harder...all i can sae is...for all the times and for all the memories, for all the happy moments and for all the inspiration...i promise i'll save the last dance for you!

hahax...shall blog bout others soon! so check back here and who knows, you may be next! hahax. time a neverending concept that sometimes degrades to something that seems to end quickly...and painfully. *lead me through life...that voice is fading...*

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time's passing by fast...somehow this time, even tho prelims are coming closer, and mi results are still like...yar...i'm not feeling much pressure! there's something wrong...panic!

aniwaes...today was talking to jolynn with jim and she saying that she's seen us grow up...that made me think of the two years that i've spent here in nj. i guess after the years, our lives has totally changed...first 3 months, maldives, and now's the final stretch. it's just painful to think that the year's coming to an end soon. in nj, i've forged several bonds...many which are life long. some people have made my life so much more colourful and exciting, giving me something to look forward to...ruth and christine for their heartwarming smiles and enthusiastic waves...[yahooligans] fer alwaes being there to make mi dae lots happier...maldivians and also other schoolmates. lastly not forgetting the wonderful class i've been for these two years. it sure has been a wonderful journey and i thank every one of you who has contributed to making my life in NJ much brighter.

and it's just when things are looking lots better...then time comes to haunt you...it just reminds me of the song "at the beginning". we sure were strangers when we first came in...new environment, new people...but after that we grew closer and set out on a journey to bond as one. i could vaguely remember the first 3 months...being pretty chaotic but the class was intact and great...it just seems like we're much closer bound in this last 2 terms. many of us realise the importance of each others in their daily lives...i guess this concept of time is pretty true. time is a double edged sword, when you get happiness, sometimes it makes you suffer as you have to leave.

it just seemed that a wink ago i was at maldives, dragging the trolley of ants infested cockroach crawling bricks...and another wink more i was in the first 3 months, dancing the mass dance and tryin not to make a fool of miself. can't believe that time is just so abrupt...i guess what "say goodbye" said was pretty true...*nothing lasts forever tho we want it to*...i'm trying hard nt to think of the depressing fact tt we're leaving soon...i can't imagine life without certain people. those who i've been close with in class, and also those friendships forged 6months+ ago...i wished i've known you wonderful people earlier and it's realli sad i didn't know you guys at first...realli wish i can spend more time with you guys because you guys are just wonderful!

ahead lies NS...and then maybe UK or US...some lame joke made by jolynn todae...
jolynn : where you guys wanna go?
jim squirrel : either US or UK...
jolynn : i wanna go US too! i'm going NUS...
*sweatdrop*

it's just hard to leave...the very people who made you who you are...these two years have been the most enriching and emotional for me i guess...i've learnt a lot from the friendships and matured quite a bit i might add. nt realli mature, but yar...mi thinking's changed. aniwaes, there are many things i'll miss when i leave...not muggin of cuz (even tho mi cousin in NS complains tt muggin's better than NS...hmmm) but the friendships that have been forged and the memories, no matter how sad...even though we might be seperated by distance, i promise that i'll keep in touch with you guys...because i can hear the beautiful sound you make in my heart! we'll show the world that time will never break us, distance can never destroy us...and show them that friendship is the strongest bond in the world (chem...bleh)...

before i end i'll just like to say...i'll realli miss all of you and thank you for all the wonderful times...i tink this song will be realli meaningful to most of us...i heard it now and i cried...it's just so sudden...and i wish i had more time...*though it's the hardest thing to say, i'll miss your love in every way. So say goodbye, but don't you cry, because a true love never dies...* jiayou ppl!

S Club - Say Goodbye
In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

[chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World i'd make this last

[Chorus]

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

just a thought

life is a miracle
something sacred, something real
something everflowing
but never frail

we may choose different paths
different roads, different streams
but actually life is
basically more that what it seems

not just another game
not just another routine
not just monopoly
built for elders and teens

what we might see
what we might say
might change our lives
in every way

but don't you worry
it's not always bad
even though there are things
that really make you sad

look on the bright side
it's always better to have a little light
so that you can focus
and have all goals in sight

try to make other's day
a pat, a hug, or even a friendly smile
some even go on
to walk the extra mile

what life brings
may not be for us to predict
but what we do
might be something historic

so make the best of our lives
try your best, chase the desire
for this life full of passion
will fuel this ever burning fire

waah...

just woke up...can't believe how the daes will go...sleeping on the job...o wells i guess i'm getting used to it!

aniwaes colours award yesterdae was realli nt bad! but all i hafta sae is tt the sch should have more bathing rooms...or people like us hafta wait fer a long time to get a room...hahax. cuz the last lesson was PE, which was great...floorball! jianann is realli veri pro at this...some hidden talent, scoring two and yar...he rawkx! our attack (jim, sengee n' jianann) and defence (ruifen yunxiu and grace) were realli good...and nt forgettin boss our keeper! hahax...in the end we won 4-1 i tink, but nearly ended up wif another squashed ball again...hahax...actualli dis kinda games, like volleyball and floorball are quite class bonding...the gals joined some of us after pe fer some volleyball...so yar...everiwan shouting, cheering each other on...it's just so fun! :D

back to colours, we took abt 30mins walking ard sch to find an empty bathroom...maybe tt's because i never bathed in sch before, but at least we found one in time...so after tt went to the hall and waited fer quite some time before the thing started...quite prom like, and i tink i was quite outta place...couldn't even see miself in there, and yar, it looked rather formal to mi...aniwaes, the first performance was some solo guy playing the yangqing, and he was realli pro...if we could do that in guitar...waah...realli pro, seeing him shread like the strings weren't even there...and then mr koh's speech, followed by prize presentation...and yar, everithin was nt bad...after all that...angklung and malay dance were great! indian dance was nt bad, cept tt there's 'some guy' who was 1 second lag behind all the rest...just refuse to mention his name, but he's a bigshot in council and was also in the indian dance performance on NDPeve in sch...so yar...when people jump, he looks at others and then jumps...wow...quite commical actualli. imagine the whole hall noticing him and den laughing when he moved slower than the others...had food and apparently choir couldn't eat cuz the had to sing later...i tink maeyue was veri gek, but i'm sure they'll get to eat after tt.

went back in to watch the choir performance, which was great! hahax saw ruth up there moving and singing...mus sae they were in perfect harmony. and then the guys acapella for "leaving on a jet plane" and some other song was nt bad too! so after the guest of honor's speech and prize presentation for the sports groups including gymnastics where sean did a backflip after saeing thankyou (which everiwan waah-ed...), we left fer home...

on the way home, noticed tt todae was 15th on the lunar month, with a full moon...realli beautiful and just lighted up mi whole night sky (okie everiwan's...hahax) and den the usual curse of 67...frequency of 30mins at nite...and also didn't noe tt there were so many others living near mi area! hahax...saw many njcians dressed to their best on the bus...overall the dae went well...

do not dread the weeks ahead
they may be pretty tough
all that you have learn
will be gone with this puff

no matter how hard it seems
please hang in there
and dun forget
there's no room for despair

good luck to all
J1, J2 and IP
because the final lap
is seldom filled with glee

kays tt was lame...hahax...aniwaes jiayou all! *the spirit that never dies...you must hang in there...for us!*

that passion, that desire

haven't been here fer quite some time...i guess it's the late nites, and also the exhaustion, but overall yar...realli tiring...just reached home...

lotsa things happened over the week...but i guess all will go well...aniwaes this week has been a pretty busy week, so yar, realli sorri fer nt updating...

sometimes, when you're feeling blue, or really feeling confused, i guess it's alwaes best to think through what you hafta do...maybe talk to people ard you...and work it thru, and i guess things will be better. maybe things are not as bleak as what it seems! and yar people pls take care of yourselves, go fer the health screening next week...hahax...stress is all ard us and it's alwaes better to have the weapon of health in our hands! so take care of yourself guys...3 weeks more to prelims and promos coming up soon, so everiwan take care!

things have been much more serious after national dae...with 3 tests dis week and another 2 for the upcoming week, and also heavy preparations, the heat is gettin into everiwan. but inspite of all that, i guess we still find some time to relax. hahax...thx to the e-hub which has many mind games and stuff...actualli tt place is pretty fun...even tho the games are more fer the alreadi tired mind...but yar it's quite fulfilling when you solve them...like math problems...bleh the double science thingy is getting into mi...hahax...

aniwaes, how's things gng on fer you ppl? i tink i shall blog later bout other stuff...but you guys take care kays? all the best!

fireworks of my life!

i'm just realli so touched...and realli happi.

sometimes i tink it's great to leave the troubles aside and look at what you have now. i have long given up on self-indulgence (nt meaning eating chocolate fudge at swensen's, but if there's anyone who wanna pei mi fer this, msg mi kays? it's realli nice!) and also temporal happiness...but there are alwaes people that try their best to make your daes!

thx stead fer tt note and tt bunch of cookies! now mi bag has the smell of it, and i'm glad! i get to smell your love everidae! :) i dun tink i'm gonna touch em...it's so nice! *teardrop*

and also to those who brighten up mi dae wif your smiles, your hello's, and your enthusiasm! (partner, jiali, bernie, weepin, jiacheng, meltu, jolynn and many more...you know who you are) also to those who are alwaes there fer a chat (04S04 rawkx!)

todae was tiring i suppose...but that will change everidae! because of those little packets of love and friendship that will light you up for the rest of the dae...it makes life so much better! physics S lecture was pretty crap i tink...maybe can catch another broadcast on KM. and o...andre was realli pro todae at the feedback session. strong and right to the point...and adding bits of humor, but yar...nvm lar i guess it's his style.

i still can't help thinking...what would've happened to me...if i didn't go to maldives?

will i still meet these amazing people? will i be the person i am now?

i think i should stop thinking...

because i should be realli happy and grateful for what i have now! it's the best i've ever received! thx guys!

aniwaes looking back at yesterdae...fireworks fest 2005 closing wasn't tt great...the fireworks were more of low level ones, and yar...nt as heart pumping as last yrs. and also, the place was stinking wif the mixed mud + additional human stuff frm the past 8 daes of celebrations, and it was veri soft.

imagine walking on a waterbed, but wif the smell of...you-know-what...

rite

but overall i tink i still enjoyed miself...a break frm there...and another chance to squeeze into the crowd especially at the mrt station...phew...

so it was 30mins travelling there, 1hr waiting, 15mins fireworks, and 2hr travelling home...but i tink it was worth it!


fireworks of mi life! thx fer alwaes being there fer mi! and jiayou fer prom nite...wondering how many vouchers left...hahax...

so i didn't do anything after came home...right...but aniwaes just found a cool site...if you're bored of cuz.

i remember some years back there used to be this film called AI and mi fren was lyke gng thru sites and finding AI on the net...talking to bots who really respond well i guess...so seems tt they've upgraded it but somehow some answers dun realli match of cuz...aniwaes if you're interested go to http://www.a-i.com/ and click on the *alan speak-a-tron* thingy...it's just weird i suppose...nitez! and take care!

feeling satisfied

i tink i'm quite happi fer todae...considering i've done quite a bit of work liao...phew...

figured out most of data analysis in the morn...maybe completing later. and then did the 2004mc paper fer NJ last yr (figured it was pretty okie...paper 1 onli of cuz...) aniwaes so todae i went to the library to mug wif one of mi sec sch frens and den met some nj and rj ppl there...most indians (nt tt i'm racist but cuz mi fren is an indian...so yar...) den we were lyke looking fer a place to sit down. we saw a table empty, cept fer one guy wif two laptops...so i was guessing there was another person (most probably a gal...) sitting beside him and coming later...but mi fren decided to just sit beside him cuz it was a table for 4, and we didn't haf much choice left aniwaes, so yar...sat down, did some work, and one hour later this gal came and set beside him (figured they were both in poly...so yar) and i shot mi fren wif tt "i told you so" look.

so we started giggling a little...nuthin much to be farni abt, but it was lyke...okie the gal was pretty chio and stuff but tt's nt the point...and then they started saying some mushy stuff...so we laughed but tried to conceal it...tt stuff went on and on and on till we couldn't take it...nearly cried...and those two ppl were just opposite us and we're laughing at them. took us another 5mins to settle down. wondered if they ever noticed us cuz they continued tt while we continued laughing...so they left abt 1 hr later...talking more mushy stuff at the end, but yar, they left...some people alwaes provide the right entertainment...

*winkx* alwaes better to deflect the arrow to someone else who needs it more than you do. =D shall revive maldives soon! and yep, man u just beat everton 2-0...go red devils! great beginning fer a better season!

a nutshell...

well todae was just like no other, wif maths test which is kinda pokked cuz the test was...atrocious...

bleh...quote miss ng on something..."stock up on your vitamins and drink lotsa water! and get your 6hrs of sleep!" to all those people gng to exams, or any stressful occasions, muz take care of yourself, or you'll be like falling flies from the ceiling. stress...arrgh...and health is important! tt was what she said before the test of cuz wif a cheery attitude...nt sure wad will happen after she marks the test...

maths maths maths...it's just disgusting lar. especially tt's why we see for 3/4 of our dae..including our homework...physics is just another form of maths...sighs...

but o wells, since i chose it i guess i'll just hafta make the best outta it. :D

and so looking forward to after A's...too many things coming up.

but then again...just received tt NS letter...i'm just so worried of when i'm gonna get enlisted. hope it's later so tt well...more time to slack i guess...

and looking into the mailbox i found something! Singpost is selling the Uniquely Singapore Monopoly set for 46.50 i tink...and free delivery of cuz...i tink i'm buying...esp since there's the merlion and some farni new cat which i never seen in singapore. o wells, nice tokens tho...

and trip downtown was quite fun...tho my mouth is now quite full of chocolate fudge stuck in between mi teeth (thx to swensens) which was having the $4 offer for all sundaes, choco towers, and i'm nt sure wad...but lotsa stuff from 5-7.50 for only 4 bucks! and it's available on weekdays, so go for it! it's nice! but yar..veri fattening of cuz...tons and tons of chocolate...yum!

yawnx...immune system down...everithin's down...mi mind is sorta self shutting down...i guess i need some mental boost of some sort...chicken essence perhaps? *sighs*...entries are getting outta point i guess...

but aniwaes, yep, still missing those old times...alwaes have flashes of them when i enter the swimming pool...remember swimming in that deserted island which was full of corals...and we were busy catching fish! so fun! and running in the sand, people shouting some things (shall be discrete) and yar...swimming rawkx! maldives rawkx! 04S04 rawkx! *self-indulgence*...kays i'm feeling better but still tired...guess i'll catch an early nite...

::Tag Reply::
jim : aim? *grinz*...should've pushed mi lar...hahax...it's nt her btw...
kyo : still tryin to change mi blogtime...tt entry was 1am this morn...so yar...
ruth : c'mon lar you can alwaes go fer...your eye candy? hahax...or mee! :D
christine : took mi sometime to remember his name...but somehow it's still easier that minister tharman sharmugarthnam...oops...but o wells...imagine them shading ovals fer their names...quite tiring actualli...

*cupid's gone...but i know i don't need him for the time being...i'll be searching for more frenship! :D*

yawnx

well...data analysis is just crap...sorta given up on it...just a thought before i went to slp...

was looking thru mi old entries and was thinking...was it worth it? would i change?

and then started looking thru the old photos and seeing how so many people have changed over the months, and many even the years...so yar...somehow i'm quite sure everyone changed for the better. there's alwaes things that are making our daes, some things making us down...but on the whole, i guess what matters is that we've experienced these spices of life, making it all the more interesting and more lively. we've been thru a lot, learning thru our pain, and also indulging in our happiness...so yar, i guess everiwan's better off after time has passed, no matter what they've gone thru...

our lives do not just revolve around people...most of the time they do, but most of the time they revolve around the things that mean to us most...our morals, our priorities, and our life. basically life is not complex, it's just because almost all of us can't view it's simplicity. we take it as a complex thing, which most of the time is true, but sometimes, if you sit down and listen to the birds, or maybe close ones, you may suddenly hear that beautiful sound in your heart that tells you that you've found your motive of living and why you lead your lives...your existence is not for a reason. people count on you to live, you make many people happy just by giving them a smile, and you may cause some others pain.

lead the lives we're leading now wif pride...and you'll soon find yourself realising what you're all about...

nitex...

stupid cupid

bleh...how was national day? *grinz*...must have been quite a blast fer some, those at the heartlands, those at the padang, those at marina...it was great wasn't it? the fireworks, the performances and stuff...*sighs*...wish i was there...watching it on tv is definitely nothin compared to what happened live, especialli the fireworks...

aniwaes i must sae i'm proud to be a singaporean...nt just yesterdae but everidae...after hearing our PM's speech, i guess we've been thru quite a lot and prosperous times are here to stay (for the moment). we should'nt let our guard down, but at the same time, rejoice for the path our forefathers and elders have worked out for us. and i must sae tt dis national dae parade is realli well organised and well planned...the goodie bags, the layout, the special effects, the people...all of em were great! and also the air display of cuz...it was awesome...the one at the preview i mean. bleh...

so yep...after national day...the real muggin starts. i guess revising isn't enuff for now, so i tink we hafta put in our full effort...and i haf a feeling gp prelims is gonna be postponed due to voting...elections for our new president, which i hope will still be president S.R nathan...he's gud lar...o wells...27th august.

i'm realli sorri i felt this way...i shouldn't have...time for a change of mind...*stupid cupid*

happy national day! soon...

national day eve...a day to remember, especialli fer dis yr...04S04 rawkx! it's rare to haf class outings, and it's just so great to be wif the class again (outside school i mean)...must thx grace fer organising dis...well done welfare rep! :D

aniwaes, it started wif the usuals...a mini parade wif npcc being flag bearers and i tink ncc as PC...and later the recollections...(we had no right, we had no say, but we bound to be free one day) national dae speech, and also the playin of the latest national songs which many (okie onli a few) people were dancing to...muz sae everi year is full of surprises...last yr was well done by pradeep and keefe as MCs...it rawkx lar, followed by mass dance, and fireworks of cuz...ah so distant and yet so near, but aniwaes, this yr was nt bad too...community service dae, where classes were supposed to take care of elderly and also kids frm homes and some schools. too bad the elderly we were supposed to take care of came late (lyke at 9.45? 45mins after the supposed time, so in the end we were left abt 1hr+ to settle wif the ppl) hahax...thx to mad and jason, i tink it all went smoothly fer our group. watching old ppl sing karaoke is quite fun actualli, and yar...even tho we had problems communicating i tink it was quite okie on the overall (and yar...green bean soup) good job guys! actualli the more i see kids the more i wanna get close to them...i mean...they're so cute! and so huo po..."unexhaustible energy"...hahax!

so after sch we were looking at cars...speaking of which i'm sure jim's fantasy is a gal who can drive a car at his age...lolx...and then we headed on to taka seoul garden. it was pretty fun on the bus, wif boss counting how many people leaving the bus and stuff...and then when we reached shiwei found out tt he forgot to hand in the pink forms so he rushed back to sch...*sighs*...actualli being NE rep is quite tough, good job! :D when we reached found out seoul garden was full till 2.30, so we decided to dine at Breeks (The American Restarant which doesn't serve american steak...) took quite long for orders so decided to haf a full roasted chicken leg wif bbq sauce while jim had one wif honeyberry...their ice blended coffee there is also nt bad, comparable if nt better than coffee bean, so yar...it's nice...turns out tt honeyberry is a sauce tt's pretty sweet (as honey sugests, but honey baked is a different story) and wif salty chicken and hot chilli sauce, yar you get wad i mean...bbq was nice...overall the meal was cheaper than seoul garden, and had quite a lotta fun playin modified zhong ji mi ma which only one person would get saboed and it was decided by us...ocean milk shake + mysterious ingredients...*grinz*...but it was quite nice except being choked by a lemon seed...bleh...even tho the portions were quite small, it was quality food lar, so yep, quite fulfilling!

left for marina bay after tt, taking 400A to some ulu bowling centre...apparently there was much activity there cuz of fireworks fest (F.I.R! and 183 club and lotsa other stars...wish i were there but yar...MONDE) and could see APC's and tanks spoiling the road wif their tracks...and also more fire engines...there was also a drag showdown between mitsubishi (lancer evo VI) and subaru (impreza WRX) which yar...still waiting for NFS most wanted to arrive on com in the month of november! (sighs...A's! and also harry potter and the goblet of fire, and i must sae emma watson (hermione granger) has grown quite a lot!) so yar...bowling was realli farni, wif mi being the worst (hahax...i dun mind actualli...but getting 2 frames wif all zeros is just wrong...) and aaron after drinking the magic juice became pro...148 on his second game, a little shy from his target...the gals were nt bad too...overall their scores were all more than mi (nt sum, individually...tt's how lousy i am lar...hahax) some pros as well, boss, esther, guanwen and also shiwei...jim's alwaes inconsistent and grace is just too tyco...hahax...so overall it was a game full of fun and laughter...left fer home after tt...

happi national dae guys! still waiting fer one more kar to come before MONDE starts! or should it be MOND? hmmm...shall wait fer mi booze! let's reach out for the skies (stretches hands and dances...:D)

reach out for the skies...

2 more days! can you believe it...national dae's round the corner, and i guess everiwan's in the mood. even mi block's having decorations (wif one 2D merlion spitting out water...realli farni...) and lights all over the place as if it were christmas (ah...how i wish it was christmas...presents!) of cuz national flags everiwhere in different ways...even hanging many of them to form a vertical 40 sign (which i hate to sae is realli er xing...nt the flags but the design) so bright! arrgh...can't stand it...shall just stay in mi house to watch ndp...

but yar, tmr's the ndp celebrations fer all schools i believe, so it's gonna be fun! (or yar...so i tink) having some community service day wif us helping old folks, playing games, celebrating our nation's b'dae wif a bang. and together wif tt, the launch of the much disputed cultural mapping (and the end product is realli nt bad i must sae...good job everiwan!) and so looking forward to class outing tmr! :D and also not forgetting the mandatory MONDE (mahjong on national dae eve) wif mi cousins...hahax! so looking forward to tmr...

todae was grandma's b'dae...went there at abt 4pm and play wif mi niece (shudders i feel so old...) which was realli veri strong lar...carrying anythin in sight, and was realli farni. then mi cousins and uncles came over...practiced some guitar and den dinner...which was awesome...nt cockles, but those things you need to put a toothpick into the shell to dig the stuff out...bleh, but it's realli nice! prawns, chicken wings, and hakka yong tao fu! yumyum...wonder if everithin's gonna come out before tmr's seoul garden...*grinz*

a silent dream
a burning desire
that can ignite
this lost fire

this passion never dies
it never will be
even if cooled
by this deep blue sea

this love this courage
that fuels the change
is something that so powerful
that can overcome pain

don't you worry
leave it to fate
but most importantly
you gotta have faith

let's all continue believing in our dreams! reach out for the skies, and who knows, your dreams might just come true!

phew...another long rest

everidae i look into the sky everi morning, wondering if one day there'll be something magical happening. sometimes it indirectly sends messages, while most of the time nothing happens. but i know that magical things are happening everidae.

how much enthusiasm some people have...thx to christine and ruth fer alwaes making mi dae wif their super enthusiastic hi's! (and waah...yesterdae partner's fren har...hahax...thx again! quite lost fer words that's why i didn't sae much...)

how caring people are...thx to ailing fer keeping a constant check on mi (wonder if she ever reads this blog) but yar, realli miss her...haven't met fer a long time.

and apparently, these things don't just happen magically. i was wrong. they happen everidae!

it's just some form of blessing on earth...that happens everidae! i'm so glad fer this...

optimism's good.

aniwaes, todae i was planning to go town to get some strings, but apparently mi dad came back and started sleeping...sheesh, induced sleeping in mi as well...so together i haf 13hrs of sleep todae...waah, and i just woke up...bleh. sleeping is infectious. and i haven't done anything today. great. other than channel surfing in the morning of cuz...which ended up mostly on kids central heh heh...

ndp's ard the corner and many preparations are coming up. first i would lyke to thx the class committee who've done such a great job fer the wrapping of the pressies and stuff...(and sheesh i feel so slack...) and grace fer organising the class outing to seoul garden (speaking of which...the money! arrgh...) and next, to all those people working behind the scenes fer our NJC NDP, jiayou! know you guys are pretty stressed but it'll be over soon! so looking forward to it. jiayou to those who are also preparing for the real NDP, motivators (jiayou bern! :D) performers and also the pilots (hahax!) and everiwan else in it, jiayou!

everiwan's gettin real busy...i should too...cya! :D

time to brighten up!

i tink it's been some time...time to brighten up.

yar everiwan's gettin tired, so it's no excuse to haf tt blur look on our faces. but i guess it's time to put in lots of extra effort to smile. it's one of the easiest things to do, and it's realli healthy!

i hear voices deep down inside my heart...something that has never happened before. suddenly i realise that things aren't that dreadful as they are...and maybe there are realli many things in life, even in muggin (nt tt i'm enjoying it now but will try to haf a positive attitude!) that are realli great.

todae was great...i guess everidae is! make everidae a happi dae, and you'll never hafta study a dae in your life...(...) but yar, things are looking better i guess. maybe i've been thinkin too much, and maybe i'm just too caught up by the otherside, but yar, it's time to change. make me change me.

todae was ruth's b'dae. partner was planning a surprise fer her...lyke onli some of us were gng to turn up, and in the end more people arrive...so yar after sch ended we went to black canyon (jiali partner stead jim and also melvin who hahax...took the earlier bus) and we were talking bout sch stuff, the usuals and was pretty fun lar...i miss those old times, i alwaes do, but there's alwaes something to look forward to! so yar i guess things were gng well and then jiacheng and weepin came in wif the cake and candle (thx to both of em again...you guys were great...sry fer any inconvenience caused) and then weiling...i tink there's alwaes a dae tt's "hearing problem dae"...meltu was having some problem hearing...i tink he was hearing frm both sides of the table so yar...some confusion but was farni as ever. and also weepin wif his "lactose breaks", jiacheng wif the trademark cheeky grinz, jim as himself as alwaes...partner was also realli farni lar, and we all had a lot of catching up to do...so yar, everyone enjoyed themselves lots i guess...esp ruth! realli happi fer her, but i tink she realli deserves it fer being such a wonderful fren! :D glad you're realli happi! and thx to partner fer making dis possible and also jiali fer tt pressie we got fer ruth!

in total...life is a road i wanna keep going. i'll never forget that dream, that passion, that flame...something that burns deep inside us...a bright time has arrived...:D

-.-

yawnx daes are getting lengthier and yar...more tiring as we're approaching the dreaded prelims and also A's...there has not been much improvement in mi quality of work either which is pretty worryin now tt it's onli lyke...erm 1mnth+ to the prelims? sheesh...

aniwaes i'm losing track of time...it just seems that everythin is zooming past tt i dun even take note of the things happening just around mi...too many things happening, too confusing. i guess i'm somebody who can't realli handle such situations when things arise, but i'm tryin to grasp the meaning of this game once more...many things have changed for us, for all of us. but i guess after some time, we'll be able to feel the true passion within that we're missing our on.

i've been tryin hard to absorb what's been going on. i guess it's time to take things more seriously, mi studies and also mi personal life...it just seems that things are going in the wrong direction for the moment, but i guess they'll be "sunshine after the rain"...i miss the old times...i alwaes do...

it just seems that i want to know so badly how my mind is working, especially at the juncture of this confusion. because mainly, it doesn't seem to be working and things are going way off from what i expected...but maybe i'm expecting too much and trying too hard. shall try to relax for a while, but i've a feeling i'll gain no results...and it's all fading away into the moonlight.

can't help but feel lost after some time of self-reflection. somehow i've become someone i despise beyond all this brightness...am i realli feeling what i'm feeling now or is it a illusion? am i now numb to what the outer world feels?

there's something i can do abt it i'm sure, but what? is it leading me to where i want to go? will it be bringing me into someplace brighter, or leading mi to the grave? i guess i shall not think so much but to try what i have...

make the change...

to make me change into someone i've never known before...

::change of plans::

why not start from what i have...and then make up for lost time...still unsure of where i want to go, but i'm pretty sure after some thinkin and time, it'll clear up in front of me...and i'll be a happier person. i'm happy right now, but some things that happened have made me think of my decisions in life...what have i done?

*sighs*