happy! *shalala*

this week has been a blast...totally. i'm so supercharged up fer next week lar...recently many things happened, but just too many to talk about. but i'm still realli happy!

going to school was so fun...other than the muggin of cuz. went back on weds fer some self muggin...happens tt xianlun was there. and yar had a pretty fun chat wif jiali (nt being cheeky hor...xianlun har...hahax) *these shoes are meant fer climbing!* hahax...and wednesday was a flu i-n-g day (and lian ai i-n-g by mayday is a realli fun song!)...totally. went muggin wif xianlun and was sneezing all the way in the library. so loud lar...wished i had brought some flu medicine along, had some warheads which was pretty nice, but mi sour tastebuds are rather sensitive, so yar got quite a kick outta it. den went around the school wif xianlun (+one pasta + one bowl of mee...and i still wasn't full...sheesh) saw the workers taking down the walls of the council store and OAC room. must haf been sad fer xianlun and his fellow oac-ians...lotsa memories in the room (the eight tiles!) reminds mi of the npcc room in mi sec sch...reeking of ropes, maps, kerosene, pegs and many other stuff. i sorta miss that smell tho, and also the times in npcc...was rather fun making flagpoles, playing soccer and camps. *sighs* no point wishing i can go back, i'll just look forward instead.

aniwaes i found out those colored doors weren't made of wood, and the OAC store (or someone's playpen as they call it) was one of em. much smaller, but yar, closer to the basketball court...xianlun joined them fer games, and yar, we realli need that exercise. i tried shooting 5 basketballs and i got 4 airballs...sheesh. went back fer some short muggin before heading back...and hahax pizza! cannot eat...sighs, but nvm, the cheese lava is awesome! go try!

thurs was gp, but went earli just to do gp...the last nite was just another flu nite, meaning you just cannot do anything else but sneeze. seriously! it's kinda bad when it comes lar...but what to do...sensitive nose mah. so yar, saw stead in sch and she gave me this realli realli warm and long handshake. was realli happy to see her being so happy (but yar...you jiayou kays?) and cheering mi on. it brings out the energy in mi...or sorta...but it's realli refreshing to see her lar! i promise next time i wun cry okie? hahax...saw mad and jianann playing the piano. both of em are gud lar...i rarely see any of the rest of the grade eights playing in our class. eh showcase your talents next time kays? it's nice lor, even tho the piano in sch isn't tt gud...met seng ee and sixun in the oasis, den started muggin. jim came later...and until i unveiled tt piece of news...hahax second time means it's gonna be worse! but nvm lar, can mug in school mah...gp was as usual, another screwed compre, den had lunch (and shiwei had to come after gp lar...hahax when all of us were abt to leave) and left fer home on another bumpy 67. as always.

yesterday...was just great. actualli i figured sunflower seeds make good tidbits while studying. realli! as long as they're nt honey coated...it's disgusting lar. aniwaes went to orchard at around 4.30...had enough time to finish reading 'The Terminal Man' by Michael Crichton. must say it's a good book, cept tt the ending's just too abrupt. a little too documentary bout the procedure part...but yar it's still a great book! and as usual, orchard MRT is home to what i call the 'charity mafia'. it's like once you step in, you get 'mobbed' by these people, coming to tell you that they're frm so and so...and "we won't ask you much, $10 will do" tt kinda thing? so yar, the mafia part's because everytime, there seems to be two different groups of organisations (last count of total number was eight people frm 2 organisations) and yar all of them come to you if you just stand there, even if you're doing something. ALL. yep hahax met jim and we siamed to the staircase, where there were 2 groups of ppl sitting below us. so we faked tt we were reading the new paper...but apparently they had this tactic of coming in twos, den they asked the people in front of us. after asking, the groups below naturally disappeared and then they came to us. help! hahax den we crapped a little, jim hid our crest, den we said we were doing pw...so yar siamed dem. fortunately bern came later, we went wisma atria to hide...from those mobbers...ahh! should impose a law there lar...no charity organisations are to step into MRT compounds, as it brings inconvenience to the commuters. sheesh...

met ruth jiali and christine later...so everyone knew. *sighs* but at least it made things easier...so we had dinner at 'Pepper Lunch' (okie lar you're quite fast...hahax) had the salmon pepper rice which was quite nice. the thing there is, they give you raw food, and give you a hot plate, and a few sauces, and they charge you 9bucks just to mix it yourself. den someone was saying we set up 'Salt Dinner' and we charge a tad cheaper than theirs. hahax...just having dinner wif em is so fun lar. watching em talk is just naturalli farni...it's just realli farni. you haf to be there to witness it yourself...too many things to remember liao. but the dinner was nt bad (the service hahax...) rather original and rather ex. so yar had nuthin to say...bern and her taogay, ruth and her revenge, partner and her looking to the other table, jiali and her kicking, and jim and his d...never mind. but he's still his farni self...must take po chye pills lehz...take care!

went out and partner wanted to do a yaah cheer cuz she saw lotsa nj ppl in yoshi...so happens that stead walked one way while we walked the other...den christine shifted her vertical finger towards the horizontal position and shouted...hahax. eye candies...haiz, nvm lar i'm sure he didn't hear your name. rachael. hahax was totalli hilarious...so what if he knows lor...it's okie mah. okie maybe not. hahax...but it's darn farni lar! walked into (issit royal sporting house or another sports shop) and they were playing this song and happens tt they were showing espn (some soccer highlights) and there was this person talking such tt he seems to be singing tt song...okie tt was realli farni lar! cept when we found tt he was lip syncing...chey...hahax but was realli farni. and gals were looking at jiali's present...and jim had tt...i dunno who did it look. or bought it as a matter of fact. hahax.

found something at some shop and apparently they sell that too at that shop, so yar...at least we got what we came for, i tink. altho probably getting something more, rite ruth? and i dunno, feel like gettin something too, shall wait fer mi bank to replenish first den i consider. took a stroll down to cineleisure and saw two lambogini's parked together...tt's just so rare lar. one black one yellow, but it's just for the eyes...hahax. just strolling down orchard road reminds me of christmas...one year ago just walkin ard taking photos, was realli fun doing tt wif yiboon. had this passion for photography once, but i tink it's quite impossible lar. hahax...but yar yiboon if you're reading dis, jiayou! all the best! haven't seen you fer a veri long time, but yar pretty busy wif mi stuff. it's been different since you shifted...hahax...

had a short ice cream break in between tt stroll...and dun worri bout the money lar! hahax it's okie realli...too bad you didn't see the offer at cineleisure lar. speaking of which, it was rather gross. and yar i was underinformed lar...dunno how long never read newspaper liao. there was an accident there wif lotsa...yar...eeks! who'd ever think that would happen lar...i can't say tt he deserved it for what he did, but it's just...i dunno lar pretty mixed. so we were lookin around for you-dunno-what's and yar, some looked nt bad... i just hope in the end it'll be so wonderful that yar...hope we make someone happy! took some neoprints there and then headed back home. and neoprint machines are so impatient lar...din even realise there was such a thing called the time limit...hahax. and you're like forgiven for the hand! hahax...

overall yesterday was a realli fun day...and we accomplished something! after a's hopefully we still haf time to do more dinners and stuff wif everiwan! *tryin mi best fer the chalet...13/14/15 any objections? or 14/15/16?* and probably ECP cuz the rest are almost fully booked...so yar...till den jiayou fer PW and A's!

*praying that all things turn out well. work well with your heart and soul...it might hurt to hear what they might say, but things come and go...jiayou!*

so we meet again!

*teardrop* just realli touched by ruth recently...i just realli hope you're okay! and i'm extremely glad to be part of your life! if all things go as planned...always. wishful thinking, but i'll continue wishing. and praying that everything will just turn out well!

today's been a rather interesting day. so yar met up wif karthick fer a q&a and muggin session at je library. looks lyke my mum underestimated the turnout lar...bluff me that there's space until 1 den when i go there i couldn't find a single seat! hahax o wells, happened to be looking around for some nice books and read part of michael crichton's terminal man, which yar was pretty medical until some point...shall continue reading later! so when he arrived, we walked up and checked around fer tables that we were desperately looking for, and guess what, we met thomas! then after that met ranon! and then vivek! hahax was quite a surprise to see so many of the swiss ppl still keeping contact...den we started talkin abt school life, revision and yar how terrible some papers are...shall go try MJC papers, heard it's a killer. was realli farni lar...thomas and karthick have so much in common, same combi, virtually same grades 3A1B and then taking the same S papers. hahax i miss having both of them in mi life, we were pretty close lar, always competing in exams (of course i lost out to both of em) and as cheeky as we'll ever be...i miss those swiss times together with them. ranon as usual was still himself, and still that farni lar...kinda thinking of the class and where and how's everyone now. all of us have like split into different places, some even in aussie. it's just so different now, we all have our different lives, different friends, different environments...hahax but it's just fun to reminisce. some things i'll never get to do again...i remember the ice-blended drinks stall we had, the paper fights, the teasing and the teachers' day dedication...i'll never forget that.

*photographs*

*and videos too!*

and i really suck at it lar...hahax! to think i was good enuff, luckily i had a pro singing partner tt time...aaron you rawk! (not 04S04 aaron...hahax dun confuse...)

aniwaes yar since they had the table, so we took the floor beside them. happens that there's dis uncle there doing nuthin much but reading i tink...we were like talking so softly we were straining to hear ourselves, and when we finished discussing some q's, den he came over and gave a pat...*hey if you wanna talk you can head outside okay?*

*sighs* i wonder why us...like there was another grp of students at the table further from him talkin so much louder than us and he didn't do anythin...some people just have nothing to do. o wells...but yar, finally found the lemon warheads i was looking for all this while, an excriciating time eating and then...it's still veri nice! should've taken karthick's face...totally in spasm. but had a gud time muggin physics and yep, hope we've more muggin sessions like these! found some organic chem book that provides a realli concise summary...should've found tt long ago lar...so easy to remember stuff...

nvm...heading back to school tmr fer more muggin, and hope to meet the maldivians and J2's again! *phew* in life, there are many traps and barnacles that hinder our path...some that really cut us and make us suffer, but i believe that when we get up after that fall we'll be lots stronger to face what's coming ahead. decisions are never easy, but when it comes to nadir (is that how you use it? hahax), we must be brave enough to step out to make the move. and always know that there'll be people supporting you...always! *jiayou sugarbun!*

that little something called love

still rather blur but after tmr, it's realli onli two more weeks to the you-know-what! ahhhh...*screams* just trying to make the best of these two weeks to come, i know it'll come, and hope it ends fast too!

today i finally found the stressball i've been looking for so so long. that yellow glow that brought back many happy memories...but it's been collecting dust under my bed for about 3 to 4 months. o wells, when you wanna look for things so desperately they don't appear, and when you don't, they just do! hahax was actualli taking some time off from studies and reading some pages of my diary. those late nights writing those memories, no matter how painful they are, mostly painful of course, in the course of my life. just makes me look at how silly i was, doing silly things and yar, most of the time not following my heart. hahax i shan't wonder anymore bout' what i should've done...but yar, it's just funny. to think i stalked a girl home before. eeks! of course i've changed lar...i'm nt tt despo kia like before, but it's just funny to see what you've done before, those photos and those memories...some childhood!

sometimes when you just hang around doing nothing, you tend to think of some things you never think before. in my case, people! hahax...those people that have touched you, and also those people whom you've gone out totally for. those friends that care, share a tear, or even just a touching conversation about you life. hah...it's been a while. and also those people who you silently pray for, those who you don't really know (yet) but somehow you just feel attached to them in a certain way. i'm pretty sure you don't know who you are, but it's been a pleasure knowing you and i love you lots! too many things i want to say but not sure how to phrase it, but it's best that you and i stay as we are...jiayou! that little something called love...i'm hanging on to it!

the pen and paper are actualli the most effective weapons created...they let you express your feelings when you don't know what to say. or how to say it. *sighs* but it's just amazing what they can do to you. *teardrop* it's just those letters that say thank you, blessings, or how people feel about you that really do touch you. thank you...today has been a rather quiet day. and another day has passed. but quote *i don't believe in saying goodbye because we've more years to come* totally agree with that!

cherryade, sugar mist, and a nice scare!

yawnx...finally home! it's been a realli tiring day, and maybe i realli do need a good rest! hahax, but today was fun...realli fun!

actualli today planned to go fer a shopping trip @ orchard, but yar got up late as usual and didn't wanna be zonked out at orchard...so yar cancelled it, but i tink i know what i realli wanna get already! just hope there's still a next time to get it...went school at around 2+ and nearly forgot mi tix on the way out...was at the bus stop until someone called me, and remembered the reason why i was going to school for! *bleh* but in the end stayed at home for another thirty minutes which were pretty well spent, considering i found out lotsa stuff i didn't know, and cleared up some remenants of sand. they're just so hard to clean lar...and dun tell mi vacuum cleaner...hahax lazy to take out. overall time at home was well spent todae...

today is h.a.l.o, and so you can see all those blood puppets (actualli i like the white ones, they're cute! simplistic but cute!) met mad jianann sengee and jim at the oasis fer some light muggin, which didn't realli work out considering mi mind was shut. had some high tea and fried ice cream (din see partner actualli...where were you? hahax...and i din see her ruth!) before going to the oasis fer sleep. and then h.a.l.o!

the atmosphere this yr seems a little brighter...maybe it started earlier or something, but yar...seems like more people came this year tho. aniwaes this year's tix was 3 bucks wif 2 bucks off haunted house and 1 buck off fer night trail. sounds pretty huan-suan rite? so met up wif mad grace jianann sengee shiwei jim...went in at ard 5.45 and yep, walked around a little bit (the food looked too appetizing)...overall it seems fine frm the outside, wif a great sound system playing hotel california like 3 times, great lighting and yar sugar mist...so was preparing to haf lotsa fun! met jiali at the drinks stall...tot she'll be gng around scaring people but hahax fortunately not! kiddin lar...but yar, the tank contained kerosene before! aniwaes xianlun if you're reading this, yar they used the same tank again...hahax but sure was cold! hope you made lots!

went fer some ghost storytelling session, and the teller was andre. so the atmosphere turned from scary to funny. hahax but the effects were good tho, people screaming, candle light and please don't take 156 alone at night...it's just scary. so yar overall it was great, but it's still funny no matter how you see it. andre = fun i guess...hahax! met a bobbling balloon after tt...shiwei was thinkin of painting it wif a person's head to scare...would've been a great idea but i'll be totalli freaked out if i didn't noe...hahax! later went fer haunted house at the hall, took some pictures (you and your flash...hahax!) and then entered in. at first we were alreadi veri tensed cuz last year's one was freaky! seriously...so yar, walked, and saw people bursting out, mums wif babies and yar the usual lying on the floor. and don't forget the smokescreen...mad and grace were totalli freaked out lar! hahax...so moral of the story is, if you go into a haunted house, bring gals in...you'll be less frightened...hahax! and then there's someone who dragged mi thru some door...eeks! was totalli freaky to see someone lie on the table in a chongsam...i tink. must be you lar! hahax...but o wells it's too dark to see anything...but it was a blast! *screams*

later we went fer the night trail which lotsa ppl queued fer...waited almost 30mins but talkin rubbish wif frens is always a good way to waste time...so yar it passed rather quickly. saw ruth at the counter, wished she was scaring ppl tho...nice make up! waited and read some poem (and more flashes...and i'm not going to take the sickle again! hahax but was pretty cool lar) and den went in *lignum rawkx!* we were lead by concillors on some trail, from the canteen to the tc blocks via the grassy path behind the barb wires...huilin (i tink) was talkin abt some glow she saw during OAC...eeks! but yar, the light sure was bright on the other side of the fence...aniwaes walking on, 2 scares at TC block, more screams, and then towards the TA blocks. first we passed by lt1, was pretty freaky cuz it was all dark, and yar you couldn't see whether they were hiding in chairs...bag grabbing and more screams...to the top of TA block, walked inside our class to find a fan mysteriously turned on, then towards the com labs, towards the rooftop and then back to the canteen. last yr's nite walk queue was just too long, so yar...rather fun indeed!

stayed a while fer the dance party to see some breakdances and yar western dance ppl, left the school and met jolynn...speaking of which i need help! someone pls help book the maldives chalet because i tink i can't! and you must be over 18! yep...and then off to serene macs (o wells it isn't tt bad waiting at the bus stop fer 15mins just discussing) saw lotsa ppl playing cards and reminded of the last encounter wif jack neo. hahax...

had lotsa fun todae! just a little incoherent now...mind is in fragments of different realities. but yar, was glad to have spent this time wif the gang and also some of the maldivians...it just feels realli great! *yawnx*

sunflowers and sunflower seeds

okay...now i really have an important notice to put up for 04S04...realli important! and yar...check sulphate groups fer more details!

aniwaes todae's mi first day back at school after final assembly. morning breakfast with jason was superb! not the food, but yar had a pretty nice chat wif him (i'm nt mentioning the fast food chain...hahax all you haf to know is that they legally conned mi money! arrgh...hahax but i'm nt blaming them, print the words *all fish sets available next month* bigger! oops!) had this bacon thingy and this mash potato (or what'd ya call it?) and yar coffee. i'm never going to study law...ever! hahax pretty freaked out from what i heard...o wells hope you get in! i know you will! *binded papers!*

so went to school for gp todae...was rather fun actualli, other than someone *shall not glare* sitting beside me, but was realli farni lar. somehow i'm startin to like gp...it's just pretty fulfilling to know you can do an essay like...i dunno. hahax haven't written any since prelims, so yar, miss writing though! writing crap took up most of mi time in sec sch...but definitely not that good at it! hahax nvm i'll stick wif bloggin fer the time being to satisfy some...needs? hahax so yar gp was pretty fun, considering it was a lecture and cut short by one whole hour, and there's still consultation next week wif her on mon. yep it's all going as planned...

apparently there's maths remedial today, so yar stayed back till 6 to do maths and practice stats, utterly disgusting...but actualli when you know how to do it, it's pretty fun! just need to be more careful with my working and yar, it'll be okie. *crackles* had quite a lotta fun talkin wif shiwei jim and also ms ng...and yar the rest of the dudes were there too, so it was aye. life is looking up this moment i tink...but even in darker times, when you feel lost or uncertain, it might help to let it out...it'll help a lot. our lives are always full of obstacles and challenges, so when you face them, and you fail, what matters is that you get up on your feet again and try harder. whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger! jiayou!

on my way home met kaiyun and her friends...and also met stead and partner! ahhh...but sorri i was realli zonked out, and realli needed to rush home so yar...you guys look rather tired too. was freaked out by huilin at first, but in broad daylight...hahax i wonder what will happen tmr. i mean today! hahax...persuaded a few more ppl to go...i realli realli REALLI hope there's mass dance today (even tho i cannot dance it fer nuts...realli!) because i miss those times lots! *it was how we first met...awww...* hahax kiddin lar...but tonite will be fun! and jian ann is realli pro playin the piano tt he caught mr koh's attention...oo...hahax!

sometimes all you need is a sunflower. as we all know, sunflowers are those yellow peteled and orange centered flowers which tilt their head towards the sun. whatever you do, think of a sunflower, always looking up...even during a heavy downpour! and they cheer us up too! other than smelling nice of course...it's just great having a sunflower by your side that alwaes looks toward the sun...and some know this fact, but sunflower heads contain seeds in spiral patterns, one going clockwise and the other going anticlockwise...counting them reveals the fibonnaci number! that 1.318 thingy...yep it's perfect! so yar...whenever you're sad or down, think of a sunflower that's bright and yellow...and always smiling!

feels different

it's just been two days, but it feels as though a part of me has left me...seriously! it really feels different to be away from school, after such an abrupt end.

two days ago was the first seniors farewell, our last assembly together with the rest of the school, and seemingly the last goodbye for some. of course it brings back memories with the slideshows and touching messages by mrs cheng and the various teachers, i'm sure we'll miss nj very dearly, and hopefully we'll come back with greater strength than before for our final challenge, the A's. yep it sure was a day of mixed feelings.

in one sense after seeing those photos and comments, it sure has been a fruitful two years in nj.this journey has definitely changed our lives; not just in studies, but definitely we've learnt more life skills and values than we've ever learnt before. friendship, teamwork and perserverance. i'm just glad i got to learn it the easy way...and it's really enriching. i'm happy and proud to be leaving nj being able to say i was from this school, no matter what others think, because deep inside i know i've changed more than ever, thanks to the wonderful people around me, maldivians, 04S04, guitar club and basically everyone who knows me. it has really been a blast. the friendships gained, the lessons learnt and also the joy and happiness has been invaluable, and it's more than words that can describe.

on the other hand, leaving is never easy. just when the class is getting really bonded, we're about to leave. in the past few months, we've tried our best to have as many meetings as possible, as many pe lessons and outings, and it has definitely brought out the best in us. looking at the various photos, from the first three months with us in various uniforms, to teachers' day, to the photos now...faces have definitely changed, but the spirit has also strengthened. all good things have to come to an end, but every end sparks off a new beginning...so even though we had our last gathering as a class yesterday, it's not the end of the road! friendship is something once acquired can never be lost. it's just a priceless jewel that can never be lost, and (quotes ruth) *everyone is a single puzzle piece in this great picture of love*, so i really hope it carries on!

and it has all come down to this day hasn't it? all the mornings at the grandstand, the friendly and enthusiastic waves...of course i haven't left you out! stead...it has been a really short journey, these 7 months...i'm just devastated to leave you all of a sudden! and yar do not thank us just yet, it isn't over until the fat lady sings! this journey has just begun, it hasn't ended...it has been a short but enduring journey, and from the looks of it, it will never end!

*teardrop*

i'm just realli lost for words...to ruth jiali christine and bernie, thank you all so much! you have been a bundle of joy, and the friendship we have is priceless. it'll not be easy living our lives without your hellos, smiles and waves. it'll not be easy living our lives without just seeing you, a touching encouragement, or just some heartwarming words. as much as i dread this day to arrive, and this inevitability, things happen. the sense of meaning is somehow lost. the atmosphere seems different. but we'll definitely never forget. it'll never be over.

there's so much to say, but i'm not sure how to phrase it, so i'll just do my best to put it in three words.

love ya lots!

and yar we'll be coming back, even though it'll never be the same...it's hard. realli hard to adapt to this new...schedule? i dunno...life will definitely be different without you people.

aniwaes carrying on with the usual release of results and lotsa photo taking around the school...was realli fun, but i tink it's necessary to keep these memories close to our hearts. *and yes we didn't reach a 100 photos xianlun, did you?* went fer a movie wif the usual gang and had the whole cinema to ourselves. *goal!* can't wait fer the sequals...and later a short mahjong session at jim's house...mandatory i might add.

it just feels different. i can't wait to go back to school tmr. when you think you had enough of nj, you really haven't. and when you think it's over, it really isn't.

it never will be.

::Tag Reply::
to y'all that said that the poem sucks...you...grrrr...hahax i agree lar. i suck at words, hahax! just trying to feel what it's like to write a poem...in short nj rawkx!
Ruth : hahax thanks! *fer being so dishonest...hahax* no lar i'm just terrible at that, you haf it in you tho! i cried when i read your letter...it's realli touching! write one back soon!
sixun : *i love nj too!* and yes explanation above...where go lihai...it's rubbish lar hahax! thx aniwaes!
mai : okie no more! dun tink i haf any chance other than this tho...hahax...our class rawkx!
gw : some teacher still tot i was sec 4...how can i blame him? hahax tt shows tt you're prominent mah! :D
jim : so will all of us...but it's not over yet! chalet! *hafta go all the way to east coast to book, sighs...*
christine : yep we'll haf plenty of chances...i din get to see you on monday! *sighs* but we'll haf plenty of chances! heys take care aye? and it's not ending...it has just begun!

okay gp! can't wait to go to sch tmr! *unextinguishable flame...we'll continue burning for you!*

don't turn away

there are always times
that lead you to the dark
especially at times
when you wish for a spark

even though time has passed
so fast, so soon
one day you're reaching for the skies
and the next you're at the moon

remember those quiet times we had
under those wriggling fans
remember what happened
to our hopes and plans

remember life
as it never seemed to be
remember fun
as games during pe

how life has changed
physics, maths, chem - subjects galore!
what we thought impossible
has now become folklore

all the canteen visits
right beside the various stalls
what about hearing boring talks
at the various halls?

it has been two years of school
nothing much to it
but what we leave with
is the S04 spirit!

don't turn away
it ain't over yet
we may have our last assmebly
but we will never forget...

the times the memories
and everything in between
but for now fight the war, mug hard
and we'll definitely win!

*the end...for now*

believe the dream...and the NJ spirit!

so it has finally arrived. ahhh...dunwan to go army so early...but it's gonna come soon aniwaes so yar. at least i'm going in wif boss shiwei and also mi old pal! hoping to hear more soon, but yar i can feel the urgency all right...

hahax yesterday was open dae! brings me back one year at that exact date...happy birthday liqi! aniwaes i tink the open dae was veri well planned dis year (i din say last yr was bad, it was great too! cuz i was in it of course...hahax kiddin)...all activities went smoothing i believe. and yar, hopefully i still can come back next year for open day as well! this year seemed...i dunno, fewer people coming? it just seems like there wasn't enuff sec school people ard as compared to last year, which was darn packed. didn't even have space to walk around the compound, but hey, maybe dis year's batch is more well informed (or probably muggin fer their o's...sighs...) i mean the school has already put in lotsa effort, putting adverts on the bus which was yar, lots more than last yr, and yet the turnout was pretty disappointing. o wells...

and yar being at open day as an outsider (or okay, looking like an outsider) is pretty gud...people judge you from your face and stuff! received pamplets from chinese dance when i went in (as expected...haiz) and then fortunately partner and her fren were at the booth or else i'd have gotten the free bags! hahax...she looked famished tho...but still veri happy and enthusiastic! like beating me when i went in, screaming and yar...still her if you ask mi. realli miss that enthusiasm, i guess that's the thing that nj needs. more familiar faces as i walked ard...saw jiali at the fried ice cream booth! and she was yar also veri enthusiastic...her usual self. reminds me of our fund raising...fried ice cream oei!! hahax was pretty fun wif the rest of the maldiviens, and now i finally remember something. there was some councillor that was helping us for like 3 hours at that stall during our fund raising...and now i remember her name! unbelievable lar...hahax it's tran! i forgot how to spell your full name, (and i doubt you'll be even reading this...but yar, thank you again!)...see how things look back at you? *grinz* overall they had new flavors, chocolate chip chocolate strawberry and i heard yam and vanilla as well...*hope you're feeling better!* but i tink we were more skilled at frying the ice cream lar...*sniggers* hahax but okie lar, it's considered a pass and it still tastes great!

there was some performance at the linkway (just like every year) so went there to haf a look and met miss ng! hahax reminds me of last year's performance, we rawked the world man! *and bongos rawk okay...hahax* but besides that, there's gonna be some revision to guitar i heard. introduction of new guitars, and different groups are going to be trained. not just guitar...more of an ensemble, with percussion and all that, so i heard it's gonna be realli cool! *to think she asked us whether we could come back fer guitar performance next year on friday...hahax...NS here we come!* pity i din see guitar's performance...went to school early just to see that, guess i wasn't tt earli after all...

walked to the atrium, saw many other exhibits...and yar this year's different because the students hafta go to different booths to collect their goodies, not just receiving all at the start, so the councillors were like all over the school. actualli i tink it's a gud idea...nt because it helps you burn fats, but it lets you explore more of the college, so you can really see all the facilites. i mean, you hear about sigma labs and all the things we have in the college, but if you never get to see it you never know how great they are...so yar gud idea! say maeyue and andre de-jaying at the atrium...but last year there were lotsa ppl there, so yar, as i said, this year's turnout was disappointing. went up to the hall and met jolynn and meltu and dot...hahax heard them discuss council politics and treasury...o wells meltu can be a school advisor next time! wanted to take photo wif the lion mascot, whom of course was none other than alfred! remember teachers' day and he came out wif that costume and roaring? hahax...was realli farni, and i tink he's sweating like sheet inside or something...walking around in that suit fer dunno how long, and he was escorted by two gals lar! tsk tsk...what a cheeky job! hahax...saw bern and her sister and her sister's fren as well...hahax wonders if all of them take german or smth...

xianlun was of course in school as well for oac...met him and yar walked round the school for a while, the oac structure that he asked mi to climb (which i din of cuz...but saw gongjiao on top...reminds me of the time he climbed trees during orientation and throwing water bombs at unsuspecting people. and later met ruth at rock wall! ahh...but she was giving away super 3-in-1 coffee i tink. had a good chat wif her, and we're definitely going to miss you lots as well! write about that a little later but yar, still pretty sad...and it's nt you that's the problem lar, the camera screwed up! tsk...wanna take photo wif you but yar, stupid camera. and eugenia told mi tt mr gwee tinks i'm a sec 4...*freak*...hahax but it's gud to be young! saw xianlun scale the rock wall, but got stuck on the vertical part...it has been ages since i've scaled tt, was during games fest last year, and i wanna climb, but must give the real sec 4's a chance mah...hahax! there was a mini band there as well, and looked pretty cool, but didn't really hear them play. was so tempted to try the drumset there...i miss playing the guitar full time! and i am not se okay...hahax what se look? *swimming booth ar...still buy fried ice cream from you somemore...tsktsk...* okay lar you're pro for guessing who's xianlun and who's shiwei...the shiwei look and the xianlun look! saw shiwei later, and yar left with him fer the rest of the school after ruth's shift...

went back there, and yar still lotsa ppl buying stuff...since there was another open day at rv, so walked wif shiwei to the bus stop and saw that lion again...den saw jim rushing out as well! hahax *i can't believe so many people know* but i guess it happens like wildfire! aniwaes your book is realli veri nice...so is global warming real? and i couldn't eat after reading the cannibal part again...but it's still nice! went back to the school again and yar walked around somemore before i got pretty tired, watched a few more performances, ate more stuff (yes maeyue...the floss is realli too sweet...eeks! sugar rush...) until i peng...and den walked outta school (just a tad earlier than the ending time lar...shudders lar i should've stayed longer fer them for the mass dance! partner!) but overall this year the planning was great...but the turnout was disappointing, so as long as you've done your best, yep you deserve a round of applause...*claps!*

later had another fund raising dinner at sembawang...mi uncle invited mi to it, and finally met mi cousin again! zhiyeu! hahax had a fun time chatting wif him bout army stuff, about genging and going to ocs, our mahjong meets, songs and basicalli almost everithin. heys sorry i was a little tired yesterday so seemed restless, but i'm feelin better now! can't wait till tomorrow nite...not what i meant okay? hahax...and there's still that constant ringing in my ear cuz of people shouting, voice blasting and the whistle-beside-your-ear thingy...bascially that dinner is like erm how do i say it...they place some items fer bid (biao dong xi...chinese dinners), and you shout the bid...reminds me of those times in tiong bahru wif mi grandparents...thx again!

overall that day was a realli tiring one...and had a total of 12 hours of sleep that day...but it was really fun! aniwaes what i wanted to say is this...

it's going to be tomorrow...our final assembly, but i know that we'll still keep in touch! we'll definitely miss each other...i'll definitely miss the waves, the smiles and your beautiful voices, and definitely your company...it has realli changed my life! i know it's going to be hard...but we'll go thru it together kays? the heavens has given us such wonderful people, and i'm glad i got to know you angels in my life! *and yar, sometimes i'm not that nice as you think...i'm not perfect either, i have my flaws, but i'll try my best for all of you!* it has been a short journey, but it feels like ages since we've known, and i'll forever remember these times because i feel really loved! we're happy to see you become who you are, and we're sad to leave, but it's just a physical feeling. we'll be with you emotionally kays? you'll alwaes be in our hearts!

yar...*teardrop* we'll definitely come back, but we'll definitely miss you! it's just a mixed feeling for tmr...happy and sad...*and i'll sing the school song loudly for you! and also the college of course!* continue believing in the dream...whatever dream you have...and hang on to it...because it's something that will never give up on you!

so we hope!

school life is really about to end. i tink we realli had our last pe in nj todae...quite sad actualli, we have been together for two short years, and all this is going to end soon...sighs. just hope things will be the same after A's, even when we know it really can never be.

in our lives, along the path, there'll definitely be people who impact our lives one way or another. when they arrive, sometimes the next minute, they're gone...leading different lives and just leaving us in the dark. there'll definitely people who make our days, by a simple hello and maybe even just a smile...those days will definitely be rare.

maybe at some point of our lives, we may find that people who had a deep impact on us resurfacing in our memories...that somehow they are still wishing the best for us. smiling at us. thinking about us. those little thoughts, just so powerful sometimes, they can make life so much better and even guide us through hard times. just that thought, just that light...

those people, no matter how different they are from us, no matter how busy they are, are some form of inspiration for us. so when we're going through our darkest times, just think of them, and everything will just be so much better. life is not that bad after all, ain't it?

those familiar faces, that laughter, those memories, that joy, those dreams, that desire.

you know who you are! thank you once more!

*just a photograph...*

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo that was printed on my bedroom door
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me

-nickelback - photograph...

just another memory...just another goodbye, but definitely not forever!

starry starry day!

ring ring!

it's the last week of studies! *sighs*...and today has been pretty fun. the j1s had their games day, part of the post promo activity. was quite fun last yr, did rock climbin and also played some other games lyke frisbee...dis yr seemed more focussed on mental games and finger games lyke five stones, chess, taboo and lots more other stuff. must be quite fun too, you see all the j1s walking ard and stuff, seeing things, laughing...it's a totally different thing before this...realli. that stressy look, and yep, muggin hard, but yar, it shows they know how to play hard now! aniwaes, all the best for you project work, once it's over, you'll be so much free-er to do your stuff, and you find there's no work to do! whee!

then later we had some pearls thingy which in the end turned into chaos wif lyke almost half of the school wanting to amend one thing after the other...and yar the system's pretty screwed up. *o wells* but yar, hopefully i can get a C after the whole thing. heard some ppl got 29...eeks!

so yep, after school we had a mini guys lunch wif jim shiwei xianlun and sengee...so we went to macs, onli to see some mediacorp actor cum director...jack neo! in serene macs! using a laptop, probably koping internet access or smth, but yar...so jim and shiwei were like taking turns to walk around macs to verify tt it was him...and yes it's him alrite! so we were like discussing inside macs, which was so filled wif st marg and cj ppl, and yar, he was outside at the non-aircon area i tink...talking about whether we wanna take photo wif him, invite him in for open day and stuff. it was just funny. and then he came in and sat cuz there was an empty seat at the entrance area, so he brought his stuff in and sat...incredulously soon after, chen liping and her son came into macs as well! xianlun was like 'liping!', and den jack neo had some lag time, den 'liping!' hahax and you can stop looking at her face i tink she saw us through those dark sunglasses of hers. we were like some paparazzi lar...taking snapshots using camera phones, shiwei's k750i and also noticing other ppl *hahax*...overall it was just farni lar...

left there fer home on a 67 that made mi realli sick and quite dizzy, hope you're okie too! den just woke up and feel pretty refreshed...ring ring! *yawnx* shall start doing other stuff...

*winkx! i still don't see you guys!*

the wrath of mother earth

just another short blog entry...but i'm just realli sad to hear news like that at a time like this. for the path three months, we're received disaster after disaster...two hurricanes and now an earthquake. it just seems like mother earth has been angered by man recently, unleashing its wrath on the innocent...

the death toll now is around 30000, but unfortunately it is predicted to rise. innocent children have been burried alive in collapsed schools, and as time progresses, the possibility of survival is reduced. many villages in pakistan have been entirely wiped out due to this massive earthquake that registered 7.6 on the richter scale...it's just realli saddening that, month after month, day after day, you continue to hear disasters like this, and you wonder if mother earth is really that forgiving and great after all...life is just so unpredictable at times. when you feel like you're doing realli well, something like this happens and it just realli brings you to the lowest point of your life. the control we have...seems limited.

but there's the light. it's heartening to hear that many countries like japan responded immediately to the disaster, and many other countries are pouring aid as we speak. of course singapore is doing it's part as well by sending our team of civil defence personnel there to help in the cause. the love and aid that everyone pours in is just great, and i'm sure they will see it true. it's these times that really makes people bond...but is this the only time? just a small thought...

aniwaes...yar...realli praying for the survivors and those still trapped...and also families that have lost their close ones. it's totally unfortunate, and even though we will never be able to feel their intensity of pain, we'll try our best to comprehend...and realli wish the best for them.

*prays*

recollections

it has been almost 3 months since i've been back at the stall, but yet it just seems like yesterday that we moved from one shop to another. i realli miss the old times...

actualli after looking at some short home-made movie, it just brought tears to mi eyes. to think that i've been with my grandparents for so long, working hand in hand, playing with rubber bands and also smelling the usual air of chinese herbs (not feng you...hahax...) i think i spent most of mi childhood there, helping out, koping bottles of yakult, eating gan-cao, and yar...it has been quite an impact on mi. i think i'm pretty close to mi grandparents fer tt reason...

aniwaes today was a pretty fruitful day...the good thing about going down to help is, you get a great breakfast (cuz the food there, lyke the zhui gui and tao suan is just fabulous...), you learn new stuff, you realise your mum speaks in a total of 4 dialects and two other languages...yar, it's just realli fun! hahax...walking ard the market which i grew up at...seems lyke everi other customer knows me cuz of mi mum, which i haf no recollection of. oh and i tried the famous fried shark nuggets lor mee...honestly if you haven't tried it, go try! the shark meat is lyke so tender and fried nicely, and it isn't too oily! for a first timer, it's great!

it's just that no matter which life you live, which story you play, or which adventure you enter, the happy times seem to just pass by *click*, just like that. maybe that's the way life goes, maybe it's just how we see it...but i believe in due time, we can realli see through this! maybe if we see it in a different light, and cherish whatever we have, everyday will be a happy day! still trying hard to live that life...and hope it will happen!

yesterday was fun! purely fun i mean...other than i got a U for physics s...pretty expected and that tyco kia strikes again! *grinz* no lar you're just too pro...had some dry swimming and cards before heading on the lau pa sat to have dinner before supporting lao shi! she was having some karaoke competition at party world ktv close to tanjong pagar...and yep we (jim xianlun sengee shiwei and guanwen) being the nothing-better-to-do people...hahax no lar we're veri on when it comes to class stuff...went to support! lao pa sat reminds me of night cycling fer obvious reasons...the halfway point in the journey from pasir ris to boon lay...quite fun actualli. but yar, you hear never-heard-before songs, and the atmosphere wasn't tt gud either. but yar, laoshi's voice was veri gud but her tempo wasn't there...so yar, but since 30% comes from audience support, hope she still gets in and wins a trip to genting! hahax...another fun dae...

one after another...promo's over, now IPs! jiayou guys!

*hmmm...wonder how does chalet at east coast sound?*

snakeskin

wonder if it's painful if snakes moult...esp when you see tt one patch of dead skin after it has finished moulting. eeks! just seeing us peel off our skin piece by piece is lyke the scariest thing ever...and it's still itching lots! realli hope it comes off totalli soon, it's just weird looking into the mirror...everiwan who went sentosa is like peeling

recently the class has been bonding (or so i tink) cuz of sentosa, our own pe and also our own new sense of fun (peeling skin is not included) and yep, this fridae's gonna be another one! laoshi is having some singing competition at party-world...so we'll be going down to support her! after passion pursuit dae we all know she's a veri gud singer, and i know she'll do veri well! it's just this little things (okie nt tt little) that make us haf a chance for an outing even during this period. i realli wish this will never end. today in class mi and xianlun were taking pretty freaky photos, okie we were the ones being taken...but i guess for the fun of it why not? brings out the other side of mi (no not gay...hahax...if you're meaning happy, definitely!) and also creates some fun...hahax i realli love the class! and nokia camera phones are better than sony ericcson in terms of photo editing...hahax!

it's just so strange that in about one week later, all school will end. no more official lessons, but more of self-studying and consultation...considerin whether to come to sch and mug (and at the same time see the J1s...cuz i tink i'm realli gonna miss them...seriously) there will definitely be many things i'll miss about school. morning maktab, seeing the class and the whiffs of you-know-what...hearing the band...hearing annoucements. i guess there are just too many simple things around us that we really take for granted, and yet somehow we'll miss them when we leave. i'll definitely miss that, and of course many other things...sitting at the grandstand looking out for ruth christine and maeyue (cuz bern and jiali are alwaes so earli) den weepin coming to whack mi hair or something. seeing mi classmates...and also going for coffee and stuff. i still remember the first 3 months at the benches. realli miss those times by the pond. it's just so...special that somehow after 2 years, we've become great friends and i really cherish and am grateful for all this. NJ rawkx!

was talking to sock just now and yar...actualli feel tt i wanna do a lotta things after A's. problem is, time is alwaes a factor...cuz we guys haf something called NS, something which i hope i'll enter in march or something. o wells, see how it goes. i better save my blessings first then...must do what i want to do before the end of this year! that includes maybe a treat or something...hahax see how lar, financially crippled at the moment after collecting piles of notes, which about 90% goes to the karang guni in the end, and 50% which i dun read...hahax nvm. everiwan's broke. aniwaes, i predict a family trip, and den 2 chalets if we ever get to book it, and maybe more wet and dry swimming sessions. hopefully another sentosa trip! this time, tanning...hmmm...looks at skin...second thoughts...

was watchin yummy yummy just now...nt bad actualli,but yar, they hafta voice over every characters voice, which is like so darn irritating and fake! and stealing a road sign from holland road is just crazy...hahax...o wells it's ah ben. (den xianlun will be like *jump! jump! jump!*) basically even though it crashes with mi two usually-watched shows like lost and now charmed, i may consider it over charmed...but lost, definitely not. i tink this show has been a little overrated, but we'll see how the rest of the plot goes!

aniwaes to the J1s who are still having your promos, jiayou! dun scream when you see the paper...and yar, the paper is just a paper, it wun do anything terrible to you (not lyke gongjiao lar...hahax...and 75% engineers become teachers i tink)! try your best and yep, all the best! slp earli!

*shriek! i miss you!*

*faints in front of mirror*

next time when we go suntanning, remind me nt to sun my face. it has serious repercussions...seriously.

now mi face is lyke full of peels...layers and layers of darkened skin peeling off, it's just disgusting. o wells, never had that in maldives tho, kinda weird. but yar...must apply suntan to mi face next time if i wanna get dark but without peeling, or eeks! kinda scary actualli...

looking through the VJC prelim (fer FM...and yes we've started mugging again), i tink it's quite okie, but i need more practice cuz i tend to forget stuff. o wells, that's just me...seriously, especially when it comes to exams and you blank out totally. can't help it...need more practice.

seems like another quiet day back here, nothing much seems to be moving, cept tt J1 promos are coming! i know all of you are like superstressed and trying your best for it, and some of you really want to get your s papers, so just here wishing you...all the best of luck, if you put in enough effort and study the right things, you should do fine. but even if you don't, we'll love you all the same...hahax. we'll help you along the way kays? all the best J1s! and if you're reading this, WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE? GO MUG! hahax...kiddin lar, muz destress too...and yep, realli hoping that you guys will be more relaxed after promos, even you're muggin harder than us...keep the spirit alive!

wonder if dreams will come true...sunflower bed, butterflies, two people running across the plains hand in hand...

naah...that will never happen...

will it?

*smiles*

sugary desire!

was so fun yesterday...really! birthdays are always something to remember! and definitely this one!

it has been quite some time since we've been to black canyon (okie maybe nt so long, and i've onli been there lyke twice) but yar, brings back lotsa memories...ruth's birthday there was also a blast too! seriously, this just makes me miss maldives even more, because of the bond we share, the lives we lead are intertwined in our joys and memories...

but hey, it's still jiali's birthday! happy...shalala...hahax

we ended up at black canyon, the usual birthday place close to school...and yar it was realli fun! cuz we're like the most enthusiastic and lively people over there until the black canyon people couldn't take it...it was realli farni...meltee looks hot in pink i agree! alwaes the fashion statement ard us, and yar i believe that she will become a rich tai-tai soon. glad tt jolynn brought her cam along fer phototakin, and also her funny quirks about school. can tell tt ruth and maeyue were from choir cuz they were like shrieking throughtout the whole time! hahax...but yar, both have nice voices so i dun mind them shrieking anytime! maeyue's also a veri gud guitar player who i wanna be too! weiling the mastermind of the *soft as a feather* cake...hahax actualli jim maeyue weiling...great job! even tho we realli added in a lotta sugar...but it's nice! must post the recipe up kays? i wanna try too! bernie came later, but yar, hope your exams okie! c'mon lar it can't be tt bad mah...can't be worse than f maths or smth...i dunno...:D

realise i'm talking about the gals all the time...that's because i'm stuck in the middle of the guys and the gals! *sweatdrop* so realli dunno which side to listen to at any time, but yar, was realli funny! aniwaes looking on the other side of the table, jim again getting teased fer buyin the stuff and hahax...actualli if nt fer the b'dae, we wouldn't know that such a thing is hahax...yep. jiacheng was alwaes there grinning away and his comparison if richard's fish or his chicken was longer (oops!) keefe, (congrats again) our hero in grey armor, was his usual self being so humorous! seriously, and he's so nice, we tried to make him say *sacks* until it became pronouced as *you-know-what* so hard, and he didn't say it! he's realli deserving of tt award cuz he's so yar multitalented great personality individual! richard and melvin were lyke crapping abt brit-tannica which was a total joke cuz (try to find brit-tannica on yahoo or google...good luck! it's nt the encyclopedia btw) imagine melvin acting lyke a total indian and planning to go to india fer further studies when we know he got 4A's lar...hahax! weepin, this time finishing his cup of ice-cream AGAIN, and also my prying partner fer todae, sourcing out bits and pieces of info, but yep, *i still don't tink so! or else something would've happened you know...*

the cake is just so nice lar! *senses some sacarsm* hahax seriously, if nt fer the overburnt part, we would haf a nicer cake, but with the cake being burnt, it just got realli funny!

descriptions for the cake
1. soft like a feather
2. concrete hard
3. jim's *excretion*
4. melts in your mouth and not in your hand
5. really nice!

seriously lor...hahax it's just nice! other than the part tt we bent a knife from black canyon just to cut the cake! and yar it just makes me happy to see everiwan being so happy and stuff just thinking and eating the cake...and thx fer topping up wif the ice cream! looks realli nice seriously *dun tink dirty wor...hahax spiky...you know what...with matching presents* just the cake tt we wanted...and dun worry it's absolutely healthy! *grinz*

went out there fer some singing...and some chatting. was just great to see the gals dancing mass dance again...wish partner was here too! i can't believe that after all this, we're still as one...it's just the greatest feeling on earth! *red bean* hahax!

hmmm...seems to be missing someone...who har...o yar jiali! i'm sure your enjoyed your special day, especially when it's the end of september...and dun worri abt gettin fat, just know that there's alwaes somebody that's fatter than you, me! hahax...all that grass jelly and chocolate brownie, muz finish it wor! we all love you lots! all the best for your promos (and to all who haven't taken their exams) and you're sure to take your s papers (wif...hahax no lar, i believe you can do it!)

beside ronald macdonald
under the starlit sky
hearing our voices
till our throats turned dry

we have come a long way
seriously long
and this bond
it's definitely strong

we might come from different levels
different ages different lives
but the memories we share
definitely still survives

happy birthday jiali!
good luck for all that you do
we have faith in you, really
which will see you through!

aniwaes i believe that this bond will still be strong, definitely distance cannot tear us apart! maldives oei!

*and it has to come down to this day with that voice...one voice...unanimously saying, happy birthday jiali!*