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sometimes when you think your holiday is long, it really isn't. and sometimes when you think things have just begun, they end so just too fast.

*sighs*

i guess life is a journey with so many tribulations and trials, so yar, it's always better to be optimistic! 3 weeks straight inside without seeing light from outside...i'm starting to get a little worried now. but i guess it's expected...it's just a two way thing. before you enter, like after the S Cube seminar visit to SAFTI MI and wow-ing at their facilities, you start to pray that you enter there...but then after you get your posting, you start to think of all the rubbish you'll have to go thru, and whether you'll get a good buddy, and a lot of other stuff...always a two way thing.

it just seems like yesterday when i first enlisted...and now i'm leaving my company behind for some greener pasture.

right.

but i guess i'm immune to this cycle...like a transisition from sec school to JC, and JC to army. it's just whether our bonds are strong enough to withstand this test of distance and time...i'm really proud to say that i have many friendships that have gone through so many tribulations and we're still strong! thank you for all the times we've had together...i will cherish it and will continue watering this flower of friendship!

but i'm glad i enjoyed myself throughout this holiday...even though there are many things that i would like to do, and many people that i wanna meet up but couldn't, i guess i'm still satisfied knowing that they're alright. now when it comes to life, i'm starting to slow down and take things step by step...things are going too fast, so i shall just slow down for once to absorb everything in.

and i know you guys have been trying your best this hols just for your common tests...so dun worry, i'm sure your hard work will pay off. hoping for better times ahead...it just feels like you're in a different world suddenly. okay that's so outta point...all the best folks! i miss you!

*sighs*

tomorrow will be a better day...

realli sorry to everyone today...especially both of you who might not even be reading this, tink i was rather outta place and just not myself...

tomorrow will be a better day...

finally out!

hahax after 9 weeks of tekong life i'm just really glad to say tt i've passed out succesfully! whee! hahax it's great to be back...freedom! and to all maldivians, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! love you guys lots!

actually during POP some weird things happened, like the parade commander giving the wrong commands, and then one recruit from another company fainted...and of course the putting on and throwing of caps! hahax if you didn't know this, it's a tradition for parents or friends to help you put on your jockey cap after you've completed BMT, and then you're supposed to throw it up into the air like any graduation parade. really fun actualli...and after that the celebrations and photo taking.

but looking back from the start till now, we've come a long way. from being strangers to good friends, army has indeed bonded us. training together, sweating it out together, bathing together, eating together...and literally everything else...

all in all, the main thing is that we really bonded thru such weird circumstances. it's like playing a game of survivor, where you're stranded in an island with so many different people with different attitudes and quirks...the only way to survive is for you guys to work together as a team. okay maybe it's not so desperate, but it's not easy, when we're all accustomed to our other friends and our individual lifestyles...so thanks to NS, it's been great!

there are many memories that can really make me laugh, and many people who'll continue to make me laugh. over this experience i felt that i've gained maturity (hahax...but it feels like a totally different world tho) and maybe a better understanding of how different people can be. i was lucky to be with such nice people back in JC...maldivians, sulphates and guitar...now when you see a totally different side of life you'll just be more alert and aware. on that i shall retain a neutral stand though...it's just not easy to say if the real world is great or bad...but the spirit in us is still the same i guess. bleh i'm crapping hahax...

aniwaes, today's the official one year anniversary for maldivians! one year ago we were just embarking on our journey to maldives...8pm at the airport...hahax. actually i'd have never imagined one year ago that we'd be such great friends till now! thanks for all the enthusiasm, love and spirit that all of you have shown, all 35 of you, it definitely has made an incredible impact on my life!

met up with jiali partner stead jim and jiacheng today at orchard...we know that in our hearts, the kudafarian spirit still burns strong! it was a really fun outing lar...but it'll never be the last! we'll have one more in the march holidays on a larger scale kays? hahax...the friendly faces, the spirit, the love...it just feels great! a little sore this year's batch ain't going back kudafari, hope all the folks back there are still suviving and living happily. *would you change anything if you could go back in time and back to kudafari?* i wonder...

okay i'm starting to get blur in the head (like what 2nd LT amos will always say...hahax...btw he's my platoon commander yep!) ahh...lotsa stuff happening ahead, so hope you guys take care and all the best in your upcoming common tests and erm scholarships and postings? hahax...just wishing everyone all the best!

blistered monotony

phew! back from another gruelling week back in camp...but that means, 3 days left to POP! hahax can't wait to get out of tekong for good...no more water parades, no more cookhouse food, no more predetermined lights out and reville timings...at least for 1week plus! but that also means that i wouldn't be able to see my platoon mates everyday...hmmm...i can live with that! hahax although we're a dynamic bunch of guys, *sometimes* we just get sick of seeing each other everyday...kidding lar! aniwaes we'll most probably be meeting up during the block leave, so hoping that after POP, we'll still be great friends and hope we enter the same unit next time!

with the march holidays coming up, i'm sure many people will be preparing for their common tests, but really hope we'll have the time to meet at least one day during this period of holiday...all i can say is, don't be too overstressed over studies even though you have to perform well. work well with what you have, and try your very best, and that's what matters! back to the point again, how about an outing to sentosa? or east coast? you guys need some fresh air hahax...yar it'll be probably be during the march hols, i really miss you people! maldives...it's the march hols again, and although we're not going back, we'll be enjoying the anniversary together!

*i'm still really sorry about that day...but anyway, i promise i'll make it up to you! take care!*

okay lor

hmmm...A level results are out! currently in between happiness and disappointment, but i guess i should be contented with my results right? shall be more optimistic...

aniwaes we booked out this morning from tekong, rushing everything we did and of course a lot of us were anxious whether we did well or got screwed. anxiety drove some nuts, with people jumping around in the boat, while anxiety scared some to sleep. at that point, no matter how much you tell yourself not to worry, the atmosphere does the trick...

class gathering (or...erm botak's gathering? i dunno) was pretty fun, with all the BMTC kias rambling about army stuff, and checking on how life is...rather interesting to hear tekong stories like snake bites and scorpion stings, and all the funky commanders. was really happy meeting them, because i really haven't seen most of them for a long time, and it's always fun hanging out with great friends! reminds me of the times we had before, although we can't meet so often, the bond is always there because we're strong!

and the anxiety level went up for every distance moved closer to school. it always happens...was recalling what i felt during my O level results but this was totally different. basically i had low hopes for O levels, but this time i roughly knew what i had to achieve, so the pressure's there. and with so many smart classmates around, you just wonder if you'll be that 1% that pulls the grade down. ahhh...met many of my juniors (thanx stead and jiali for your letters! and also partner and the rest of you guys who gave encouragement, you know who you are! it meant a lot to me...because i was like freaking out that moment before the results) and also other school mates (taopok and jiacheng...hahax still look the same tho even with our haircut!). it's just a great feeling to be back...i guess that was the main pushing factor that reduced my anxiety level. thanks for all the encouragements and assurances, really needed it at that point of time...

as usual, the long speech by mrs cheng which sorta made us more...i dunno...as time goes by you just feel like the rollercoaster ride is about to begin, it's just that you don't know when you're going to drop. congrats again out to all those who did really well, those high flyers (the usual suspects) and to those who didn't really do well, just take things one step at a time, and if you've done your best, be contented with whatever results you have...if you compare yourself with the best, of course you're at the losing end, but think of those from other schools, so yep, try to see the bright side of it. and yep, quite happy with my results of 3A and 1B (chemistry, when i'm applying for chem engine...sheesh! hahax) but the MU for S papers just screwed my chance of watching any match at Old Trafford anytime soon...o wells, local uni's here i come! hahax...shall try to be optimistic...

but all in all, thanks jiali for your assurance and encouragement...i know i didn't give the best response, but just to let you know i was really happy at that point of time. it's hard to express it in words, but the happiness you receive when you know that someone believes in you so much, and is really proud of you, is overwhelming and moving. i love you so much! and also for that really sweet letter too! thanks stead for all the warmth...it really felt great to be back, and also with your encouragement (hahax i'm a little short of words here...limited vocab, thanks to army again) and support...meant lots to me! and please, your handwriting is so nice lar hahax...love you too! and to all my buddies, jim shiwei sengee xianlun, yep glad we all did pretty well! aniwaes it's been a wonderful year, and i'm certain there's still a long road waiting for us, so yep jiayou!

*yawnx* a little late now, shall go nap before the early book in tmr...thanks everyone! rest well!