smell a little frappacino

waah the past week's been really crazy, but o wells feel like i've spent lotsa money catching all those movies! 4 movies in 7 days, can you believe it? but o wells, it really feels good!

hmmm now for a short movie review before i go back to slumberland...pretty tired after all that wine last night, and all the ice skating don't you agree? :) but aniwaes, in chronological order

disclaimer : these following reviews are made by a nutcase, so please take them for reference only and not true reflection of the movie itself. just to be safe haha.

300 (4 out of 5 bubbles)
hmmm it was pretty gud actually, but as what i heard in seewhatshow.com (hosted by my fav blogger Mr Brown), the plot's pretty predictable. like there's going to be fighting, fighting, and den, o yes, more fighting right? yep...what i feel is that the plot is pretty straightforward, but yet the speech (awesome and inspiring, shengyang was like making fun of us from it haha), the graphics and cinematics (pretty good, especially the fight scenes, and the gory parts are still okay lar) makes up for the plot. what i feel is that it is too concentrated on these 300 people (which it should, but wonder why they showed the 10000 army in the end) and yar, a lil too much nudity (someone was telling me it was the biggest nipples he had ever seen, but i shan't reveal who haha)...but all in all, it's pretty good. maybe not exactly my type of genre (i do go for chick flics lor, haha) but it's pretty good, especially the way the director managed to piece all the fragmented scenes, and there's a lot of underlying meaning in it. nt bad!

Music and Lyrics (4.5 out of 5 bubbles)
one regret was that i didn't watch this movie with whoever i had in mind (sighs) but it was sooo good! i wouldn't wanna spoil the plot, so yep, if you haven't, and your looking for love (or maybe someone to share with, even a close friend), catch it! it is really good, because it touches into people's hearts easily, especially the songs "don't write me off" and of course "way back into love", the original version, not the dhalai lama version haha. and it is interesting to see people fit themselves into it, and even though there are not exactly twists, they speak of things that will truly (inevitably, but hopefully not) happen in a relationship...and it's really sweet! love it lots!

Bean's Holiday (2.5 out of 5 bubbles)
although i'm a huge fan of funny stuff, and for someone that watches bean over and over again, it is somewhat expected what will happen. the plot is quite okay, but too many interventions inside, making it somewhat mixed and jumbled. there is no focus, till the end, but you find cheesy plots here and there, and if you've watched bean before, don't expect too much of it, because it might disappoint you. as what xianlun said, the funny parts are in the trailer, so that will be enough. nuff said, it was slightly disappointing, but one point i want to stress is that it is a movie everyone can relate to, because it is a movie of no language boundaries. so yep, if you have lil cousins or maybe grandparents, it's worth watching! but still a lil disappointed...nvm

TMNT (? out of 5 bubbles)
Preview review : hmmm love tmnt when it was being aired on kids central. it's fun, and each of them have an attitude, but don't the turtles in the movie look much thinner? but aniwaes, nt too sure yet what to expect, but wouldn't mind watching!

till next time, have a blast!

praying for you...i wish i was free, but i just wish you'll be okay and not so tired. same to me too. i'll wait till the 5-6weeks is over! and i will miss you lots! haha i'll never delete that photo, because it was the only memory i had with you, and soley with you.

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after 3 months from our release into the real world, i stay here wondering, what in the world am i doing here?

is there a calling, a job that calls out for me that speaks truly what i feel? or am i hiding behind bits and bytes of IT and what people see me as is just as simple as what my email reads?

maybe i'm just a wonderer, but that does not make me someone that cannot feel or think for myself sometimes. even when arrows come firing. even when people think they can push me around. even when sometimes you do things for people when you're not supposed to, and not to say i'm expecting anything in return, but stabbing me in the back in the end is just not the right thing to do either.

whatever. with all the 'even though's' there are more doubts and queries, and it just makes me really, i dunno, really pissed sometimes when people assume that i will do everything for them.

okay...*breathe in*

(thinking of what better to say, even though i just told someone about the same problem...i really forgot to thank you for just listening to me blabber. see what a lousy friend i am!)

hmmm okay sorry for all the negativity! it's just...my piece of mind that i wanted to share. i feel that i'm someone who likes to keep things to myself unless i entirely trust people, but sometimes you just feel the urge to expel it all, not at people, but at space where somehow you'll feel slightly better. no worries, i'm still okay behind all these words and pixels. sometimes people just don't understand.

but aniwaes, how's your chinese new year been? many things happening lately actually, results, and more results, valentines day, class outings, maldives outings, and personal outings...feburary has been a pretty fruitful month i must say. truth to the fact, i feel much more of the new year spirit now, and i feel i understand certain people more. i used to keep my mind fixated on first impressions, but i must apologize to some people for i've judged you wrongly. good and bad. sometimes i feel like i need to apologize to myself too for being so stupid. most of the time tho, i feel glad that there are people that will help me, cheer me up when i'm down...i really appreciate what you've done for me, but it's just more than often, i feel like i'm doing things for people more often than people are doing for me. i admit i'm getting slightly selfish, and i don't blame anyone for that. maybe i'm finally exposed to the real world. maybe.

i also have to apologize to some people, my family members who have been always there for me, my friends who've been subjected to my silence, and also people who are close but i haven't been able to ask how you are or even reply your simple message. personally, work has somewhat sucked the life out of this usually cheery and optimistic self. i admit i'm changing, but how much i really wish to change for the better! i wouldn't give a reason for why this happened, it's nothing personal (maybe sometimes it is, but more or less it's not) but sometimes this reason (i feel) is not a good excuse for how i've behaved and trust me, it's not that i have any negative feelings for any of you, personally i want to find back myself, to be myself, and not this soul that has been immersed in something that...i'm not too sure what either, but i'm starting to hate what i see i'm turning into.

i would like to see the world as a playground, not of my own imagination, but of everyone's imagination. however, the thing about imagination is, it can be so powerful sometimes that it turns real, and that's what people mean by 'let your imagination run wild'. i wouldn't say it's bad, it's usually good, but when it starts to harm others than you feel like just dreaming of something to counter it.

someone told me something before...in order to have peace you must fight. fighting for peace. i realise in everything that you do, there are ironies. life itself is one of them. life will eventually end with death. a start will come to an end. reality starts from dreams. no matter how sharp a sword is, there is always a blunt side to it.

however, there's this one thing, to me, that will never be an irony. if i put my heart and soul to love someone, even if i do get nothing out of it, i get the satisfaction that i've tried loving before. and i'll never regret. it's just sometimes regrets come more often that satisfaction that's all...*sighs*

sorry for all the things i've done. sorry for not being able to make it happen. sorry for not planning. sorry for not doing it for you. but most importantly, sorry for not being able to put my heart and soul into loving you. just yet. today is chinese valentines day. let someone you love know how much you really do!

i'll hold your candle of hope and never let it falter even in the heaviest storms. i'll never let go, because you didn't teach me to let go.