equal effect
in this world, we'll experience this thing called equal effect. if we were to gain something, that has meant we've sacrificed something as well. no matter how big or how small, that is still a sacrifice.
sometimes, we will never know whether our sacrifices have been worth it. is it worth the while, or is it worth the time?
and many of these queries surface every minute. every second. be it whether to go to work when you're sick, be it whether to watch another episode when you need to sleep, or be it whether to buy the biscotti that you've always wanted to eat when you wallet feels light.
in the field of physics, people might have understood this as Newton's Third Law. however, physics can only explain so much as to "every action gives an equal and opposite reaction". life just makes it more unfair, where equal and opposite reaction might, truth to be, never be established. one's loss cannot be justified simply by something gained, and vice versa.
so, why do we, on this earth, still observe equal effect? is there anything that we do that will allow people to gain something without losing another?
a beautiful dish is only served if all ingredients are present. a magnificent painting is only possible with the use of different colors. a triple alliteration is only present if three elements are present.
either way, we gain and lose along the way. at this point of time, we have understood our decisions easily, but what is the criteria we impose on ourselves when something that seems plausible both ways?
if i'm lost, which path will i choose? will it be the left? or the right? or maybe the centre which is less walked?
these decisions, can never be made with a blink of an eye. the smartest of men will tell you that failure awaits your hasty decisions, but is that really so? at points we seem to go "aha!" and go with that instinct, despite knowing the other two are actually more logical and feasible.
or will there be times where this dissonance can be resolved? is the change of a behavior enough to justify this difference in behavior? or what else must we do in order to ensure that our every decision is made to the best of the ability?
equal effect. is what people would like to believe doesn't exist.
which by itself, is a major irony.
yet, that is what is meant to be human. or is it?
is hiding from what we should do and what we actually did right? and is there a reason why what we show others and who we really different?
this disparity, is not a cause for despair.
that is who we are. despite not showing others, that, by itself, is a form of behavior. a thinking of ourselves, projecting ourselves in the shoes of others. because only in these shoes can we be seen as normal.
life, in itself, is quite the irony, isn't it?
if we want to lead our life in irony, does that mean that we've sacrificed our normality and conformity to what people believe is normal? equal effect. we gained irony, we sacrificed normality.
i guess that gives a clearer picture of the world.
we, as one, are still growing. we, despite all else, live in the humane world. governed by the rules of nature, we continue bending it to the limits. governed by social norms, we seek to break free. governed by time, we seek to unlock the ability to reverse, or even go back in, time.
still, the word "governed" comes with a question mark. an ambiguity that causes every thing we see to be clear.
governed, correct, but by who?
if life is indeed an irony, this supposed "government" has been merely set by ourselves. there are no restrictions, it's just one which we use for us to soar higher. an excuse to rebel, but deep inside us, we want to be normal.
in the end, we just want people to see us as normal. and let things be. not to stop humanity, but accept it for what it is. rather than hiding and setting unbelievable limits on ourselves, we seek to be accepted. we hide our hobbies because we might be despised for our specific likings or preferences, but what if everyone did that as well?
at times, we go "ah. he's so like me!" in our minds when our mouth blurts out "eeks! disgusting!" not forgetting the times where we fart when we know our table manners well enough, and speak in the opposite direction.
i guess equal effect has it's limitations. the magnitude of either has great disparity. definitely, it will not be balanced. we sacrifice our hobbies in search for normality. but deep inside, we actually sacrificed a lot more. we sacrificed our self-identity, and also our personal beliefs, so much so that we become what people classify as "weird".
or eccentric.
or geeks.
is this sacrifice worth it? at times, we want to be true to ourselves, so that we can be true to others. we turn back, and wonder if they would accept us, and will our sacrifices be worth it. maybe they wouldn't like what they see, and turn back on us. and that is where we close our door to others.
we seem to be closing the windows on ourselves rather than the wind closing it for us. it seems like we're desperately trying to shut the door when it is automated and closes by itself.
well, at times like this...
...i wish Newton would just speak up and prove his theory is true.
but well, this is life. we cannot run away from it. even if we could, we'll be running in circles.
sometimes, in the midst of worrying about our sacrifices, we sacrifice something else as well. our time, our sweat, and our neurons, trying to find a perfect solution. in the end, we end up doing something we didn't want, and weep over our loss.
we are too afraid of failure, and ironically the feeling of victory feels like a norm.
why bother? it's okay to fail once in a while anyway.
because if you don't fail...
...simply put, you aren't human.
but what's more important is to pick yourself up. a person can only be considered a failure in life if he fails to fail. if he fails to see that failure is a necessity for you to understand success.
those who fail consistently, yet continue to pull themselves up, are not failures. they are actually the most successful people in life.
successful, not in terms of money. nor is it in terms of power. but they understand the most, and despite failure, still smile in the face of adversity. and when they finally succeed, that is when the fruits of success are the sweetest.
who is to govern equal effect, we might never know. but in the end, we all have a balance scale within us. how we see our sacrifices depends on how accurate our scale is.
if we decide that no sacrifice is too big, then we will stop worrying about our sacrifices, and focus on moving forward.
equal effect. simply put. is only present when you believe it's present.
if not, they're simply 2 words that mean nothing.
in the end, how you want to walk you life cannot be decided by others. there is neither a right or wrong path. it's just a path, but what it entails is what you decide it entails. you have control over it, and with suitable prods, you'll be on your way.
