with every breath i take.

today's a bright sunny sunday. okay not really, but it's still hot! and i'm going to celebrate fathers' day today! whee!

needs assessment yesterday was pretty tiring. and smoky. haha but either way, i got the first hand experience to hear what the neighbours had to say, uncensored. thank goodness. as in, we're of course looking for nice people to talk to, but when someone gives something original and different, with a bit of angst and vigor, it makes you feel more passionate for the residents.

even so, there's only so much we can do. it's just a little token that we can give, and you can call that 'hope', but in the end we're not making any promises. there are just so many different needs, be it imminent or relavent, btu there are just some things which we cannot change. we can let people know, but whether it's actually done is a different matter altogether. i wish i could help all of them, but i know it's impossible. that'll need me to go into several government departments, and then make a change, leave and the cycle carries on. furthermore, it's just only one estate.

it's quite funny how this thing sparked inside of me. when one of them heard i was in aerospace, i was kinda surprised to know that he's also dealing with it. maybe i'm not the only one after all.

and the friends who continually smacked me, and the random chit.chats...yep. sums it up. if there was only one more day, but oh wells, we know we all have to move on.

and i realise when people talk to me about brain draining stuff after a physically tiring day, i'm screwed. thankfully, i still held up yea? haha!

i was thinking a lot yesterday, some self reflection after doing some funny event. would that be something i'd do? and at the same time, i need to know where my feelings lie as well. what is it that i would treasure so much that i will never let go?

as i told someone recently, i'm at a juncture, once again. am i entering another story arc?

i'm afraid of the unknown. when the hands reach out, they always seem to get bitten by dogs or cats, or maybe an unknown mouth.

but i guess i'll still try, as always. nothing's going to come out from me smiling to myself, for i, of all people, should know that the best.

sweet.sweets

woke up at the usual time, but didn't know what to eat for breakfast. i looked into my bag and found my favorite treat! (: so yep, am a happy boy now haha! thanks for that again yea?

shoe laces and random places.

even though i had to wake up much earlier today, i guess today ended on a really good note. things went well, and i must say i smell 15% dog, 30% cat, 5% rabbit and 40% human now. or maybe tt's just the smell that's stuck in my nose. whatever it is, i got clawed, chewed, bitten, licked all over the place. but ya, i think i've somehow fallen in love with it. might go there another day with my camera once more.

was quite a funny day i suppose. a lotta things happened, and it's good to have such great company ard. thanks again yea? =D meanwhile, i'm glad that i'm a mortal rather than a saint, at least for now (:

surrounded.

it's been interesting for the past few days. pc fair (preplanned), queensway outing (preplanned), random phone conversations (random haha), bak kut teh at clarke quay (random too), and family outing + meeting tmr (preplanned).

i saw a lotta things, heard a lotta things, and found a lotta things. first, *drumrolls* i got a USB fan! ta-dah!

basically, it's strong enough to blow my hair dry. tt's easy to understand right? i tried explaining to someone but it didn't work.

second, ya, i found out what i was like in secondary school, and a lot of other stuff in between. i would say i've grown over the years, both in vocab *hahaz/hahax vs the now "haha"* and maturity. but ya, it's been fun knowing those years existed (:

i feel loved all of a sudden, and very fortunate to have such nice friends around. really. every single one of you. thanks!

incubation in progress.

waah, the weather nowadays is just...argh, i don't even know where to start. the internal temperature in my house now is like 31 degrees, and i'm sweating like nobody's business. either way, it's just extremely hot. i'm tempted to turn on the aircon but i decided against it, i guess it's a weather i need to get used to for now at least. i shall bear with it.

that being said, if my sweatdrops could be sold, i think i could sell at least 1kg per day lar. i wouldn't be surprised.

the weather's just so bad, that i was extremely happy when i got into the Honda City for my first driving lesson. not so much for the fact that i was starting driving, but there was an extremely cold aircon! mankind's greatest invention (at least for now) has once again saved the day haha!

therefore, here's my quest to visit airconditioned places. will be heading out to suntec for PC fair later. a bit of a squeeze, but a few things that i have on my wishlist. wishlist, in my terms, simply means a list of items i wish for, and cannot attain at the moment haha. like a dSLR, iMac, and a few other things at the sidelines. then again, there are a few things i want to buy, like print cartridges, a mini Displayport to VGA output connector, and if possible, a USB fan. something essential now, at least. with the killer weather, it's a necessity rather than a want.

and i desperately want to go swimming. another escape from this excrutiatingly scorching atmosphere.

okay that's all the complaining from me for now. other than the fact that on top of this, the neckache and headache's surfacing. and i have this feeling that i'm becoming lactose intolerant. yep, old injuries + new ones.

i'd wish for an igloo, but i don't have the space to put it. putting it at the multistorey carpark would just melt it lar. maybe i should visit the carpark soon. with an egg haha! anyone up for this funny quest? tt is of course if you can provide a car haha!

which reminds me, saying sweatdrop in conversations just doesn't cut it anymore, does it? haha!

my love is a stapler.

i've enjoyed the silence for the past few days. when you pull away from the world, you'll finally realise what you're missing.

as those feelings start to surface, the more you start to realise, you're actually not alone. be it confusing thoughts, or funny feelings, it's alright.

a pen and paper would do (: folding my thoughts into a paper aeroplane, and throwing it into the air, settles it for now (:



Ai Toyosaki, Yoko Hikasa - My Love is a Stapler
OST K-ON!

I wonder why
On this worrying night
I'm writing my feelings for you on paper
Perhaps..
I'm just being whimsical
But the number of sheets just keeps increasing
It would be nice if I had an equation
For calculating the probability that I love you

My sparkling and shining wishes
Have mixed in it with all the things I worry about
That's right, I'll staple it
Only at the beginning, my feelings were light
Before I knew it, my passion grew
And somehow staples can't go through it anymore
Lala See you tomorrow

~~Kanji~~

何でなんだろ
気になる夜　キミへのこの想い
便せんにね　書いてみるよ

もしかして　気まぐれかもしれない
それなのに　枚数だけ増えてゆくよ
スキの確率　割り出す計算式
あればいいのに！

キラキラ光る　願いごとも
ぐちゃぐちゃへたる　悩みごとも
そんなのホッチキスで　綴じちゃおう

始まりだけは軽いノリで知らないうちに　厚くなって
もう針がなんだか　通らない

ララ☆また明日♪

the guessing games

it feels i'm undergoing another transition period, from one side to another. and at the same time, it's the fear of the unknown that strikes me once again.

sometimes, when you're too involved in doing something, and you get some time to think, you'll think about what you're missing out in life, and that is when the questions start to strike.

i remember the days
when we sought the sun
running like forever was yesterday
and a new day has begun

we held the stars and the moon
we held our hands up high
but the further we stretched
the further we had to reach

we tried to guess
where we were going
we tried to guess
what we were thinking

we tried to guess
if it was alright
we tried to guess
if the odds we high

and as the games continued
the uncertainty consumed
with every new question
popped another hidden corner

we wanted to reach each other
finding a solution and a resolution
the further we searched
the further we separated

the tears engulfed the seas
the fears folded like crashing waves
the pain felt immensely numb
the rain varied in octaves

i would guess it's alright
this would be my plea
the world is my canvas
just without a brush nor dream